Hey all beautiful people, this is another part of Love Never Achieved,I hope you all like it. Some lines are now not there in my life as it is a old piece. When I start posting now ones,I will let you all know in prior.
When my daughter suddenly died in a tragic accident nearly three years ago, Nights were the worst. My mind was obsessed with images of her last moments and the question 'why'?. I lost my job, my hope and my passion to live life. I had nothing and no one to strive for. I became more and more depressed, it was a miracle that i was even alive.Her memories kept me sane. Every night i would look back into her memories waiting for her mesmerising voice to carry me out of the cosmos, until i fell asleep. The moon and the stars were my only companions, they were the listeners of my stories and regrets. The stories of how i used to play with my daughter, how i wanted her to achieve her dreams and how i wanted to become a good parent in her eyes that she'd look up to someday. But now all I'm left with are these loathing and crippling regrets. One night, her memories took me to her room, the room was filled with the aroma of her lost presence. There, i saw a diary, kept on her desk.It was an old diary with a couple of handwritten notes.I picked it up, and kept glancing over the empty pages, searching for her words to fill the crescive void inside my heart. At the last page of the diary i saw a note, there was something written on it:
"Do not fear death, but rather the unlived life.You don't have to live forever, You just have to live".
As i read it, tears fell from my eyes, as all my repressed emotions and memories were now liberated from the shackles of despair and regret. There was something in those words that made my heart wrench and eyes weepy, it was maybe..a realization that even though she has left me, somewhere in my heart, she still continues to live forever. The tragic irony of life is that it can be only understood by death.Now, i strive to truly live my life and relish and squeeze maximum joy out of it, because she taught me how to live, because this is what she would want for me. The greatest miracle is life itself. It's in the art we create and in the people we love and cherish, It's all around us. We are made out of this beautiful essence called life. Let's learn to appreciate it and live it to the fullest.
It's been a long time since you passed away and joined the stars, I'm still unable to heal from the tragic loss, It still seems so unreal to me, Your presence meant everything to me, Your memories are etched on my heart, How could I let you go? How could I forget a part of myself?
I still miss our little talks Our candlelight dinners and Our long night walks. I remember your smile and how it lifted me up, I remember your touch and how it gave me comfort, I remember your laugh and how i loved listening to it, I still miss the essence of those days i spent with you.
The days when we danced merrily with all our heart filled with euphoria, We collided like two enigmatic stars. I never thought that our celestial dance would come to an end and a curtain of mortality and tragedy would obscure our pure love.
When you were around me, the time seemed to stop and my little messy world would turn into a magical sparkle. All my melancholies would perish. The night would become much more numinous and magical. Being with you under the summer sky and observing the stars is all i ever desired. When you look into my eyes, my heart swayed between despair and hope and my soul then is filled with joy and melody, What do they call this feeling again? Maybe.. Love
You are still the star in my sky, the light in my life and the orange in my sunset. I know we both felt the same thing, even though we didn't say. My naive heart kept falling for you, but little did I know that you had to go. All my sanity was etiolated as i submerged myself in eternal pain. I still have tears in my eyes, and an ache in my heart. All there's left are your precious memories now. All your love and affection I could never repay, and yet, i think of you almost everyday.