:-/ quiet lengthy, but wished to write this for the longest time. (plays melancholia in background)
The day is here H E H A S A R R I V E D you'll all BE J U D G E D, with no badges and labels. N O ONE SHALL be forgiven No one CAN L E T PASS whether Rich or poor you'll all have to repent. R E P E N T R E P E N T //the rabble growls// repent for the sins you commited when alive. The game of S O R R Y does'nt work here your soul has to EXPIATE for the sins you committed. You've been playing bad all these YEARS ALIVE you forgot the ultimatE KARMA and I am here today. Repent repent your cries wont be heard for you unheard the voice of people you hurt. R E P E N T R E P E N T //the rabble growls// repent for the sins you commited when alive. You'll be scorched in flames no mercy shall be shown your sins are overflowing the scamp has to repent. No one will be spared all the debts are to be cleared No one will be forgiven for those intentional mistakes. repent repent you'll have to repent for all those lovers you left betrayed. R E P E N T R E P E N T //the rabble growls// repent for the sins you commited when alive. You are neither dead nor alive rather stuck in this purgatory today Clear all your sinful debts to exit this cycle of pain. You humans are just ghasty creatures insensitive even than those animals I'll make sure to make this hard for the sins you committed alive. Repent repent you'll have to repent for all those times you broke their trust. R E P E N T R E P E N T //the rabble growls// repent for the sins you commited when alive. Hell and heaven they talk about It's the purgotary you're stuck today Show me your life account you'll be freed when all the debts are payed. If you wish to pass either ways repent for your sins today no pleading shall work for you your voice shall not be heard today. repent repent those clouds growl repent for the days when nature cried. //the noise deepens// repent repent you'll have to repent for everything you've been doing wrong.
R E P E N T R E P E N T //the rabble growls// repent for the sins you commited when alive. Its judgement day He has finally arrived you'll have to repent to exit this life.
This morning I woke up as Syria and picked up the newspaper rather than sauntering towards the sun with a smile of gratitude as part of my humdrum existence, ''I'm on the verge of getting asphixiated due to the civil war going on my land''- read the headline on the first page as the mirror reflecting my cesrtfallen emotions
I ambled towards the refrigerator and picked up a chocolate, trying my damnedest to sweeten the acidity of the existential crisis rambling on my tongue reminding myself how a mother dies alive when she lits the pyre of her daughter
Hours pass and my grandmother switches on the television, it says- ''a boy gulped down the bottle of venom after being hit on the famed road by the tipper of failure" my grandmother immediately speaks that suicide is the biggest cowardice for humans, so I silently crush a thought in my mind
I walk towards my attic, looking for poems who hold me tight unlike mortals, my sister knocks at my door, and narrates the tale of pandemic who just reached the street next to my house, and wraps her arms around me with redamancy accelerated by fear
Dawn turns into dusk, and I traipse towards garden to take a stroll in the silent winds ''I want to give up'' a voice enters my mind like a callous guest asking for reciprocity, and I sit quietly on the grass observing it from the distance
Aftter an hour, azure sky turns into a night with moon whose light falls on my dungeoned soul like an awakening, I open my diary and scribble a line on my thoughts- 'Perhaps you woke up like Syria today, but tomorrow you will again take rebirth. Because life is nothing but a 24 hour news cycle' _______________________
I never feel so loved when people call me generous, their sound rings in my head like the fire alarm of a 'to be continued' heartbreak which was hurled upon me an year ago by the screen of love, their words sit before me like the absurdity of Camus whose depth I try to fathom with my narrow mind but end up swimming on the surface
Certainly they think that my kindness is nothing but a dagger in sheath of sweet words, but I fail to tell them that how clearly I see meliorism deteriorating with days changing attires, and before the last ounce gets evaporated, I wish to make a garden of sunflowers brimming with compassion whose seeds get transferred to generation after generation so that our children never slit their wrists with coerced careers, and they find eternal love rather than running from one set of arms to another
I wonder if they know that reciprocity isn't freedom that encages me with expectations, and I will keep straddling on words of my father who says that aristrocracy isn't egotism so if you want to be one then wear the skin of sagacity but brush away the scars with altruism without blemishing your white heart, and I have always wanted to become his daughter
Maybe someday they will call me generous as per the exact meaning in lexicon, or maybe someday I'll learn to widen my mind's horizon ____________________________
It was mid of march on a bright sunny day. They came like a storm and took him away.
He laid next to me singing his favourite summer song. Next moment he was gone, leaving no remains all along.
He yelled my name as they took him from my sight, But little I could do.. They were all MEN, I was never in the fight.
I wept in agony as they hit him till he died I wanted to run to him, but they hit me on my head, and I was tied.
I laid on my ground, helpless and he was closing his eyes.. I begged, I pleaded but not even my parents answered my cries.
My folks then strolled towards me they said "God is looking from heaven above, what you have done is the greatest of sins.. He isn't the one you should love." With eyes barren and dry I looked up at the sky, I asked god to forgive me sins, And I didn't even question, why.
With a bleeding heart, I then joined my hands for one last time to pray. I knew god isn't as cruel as his people, so this is the only thing I say to say :
In this life, they said our love is a sin. But next time we are born, I wish to complete the love story that never really did begin So my lord I beg you, unlike this time again please make sure in our next birth, either one of us is not born as a man. .
Lost in the galaxy of your memories and searching where are you. Once you were so near to me but now you are so far away from me. Time has changed and I'm alone thinking how unfair is this that love someone and then cry for her. Nights are so colder, memories are so warm. Counting stars and wanting You come as soon as possible. But it would be a thought only. So leave it. Nothing is so magical in love. But when you were together Seemed everything is made of love and leaves of miralces. But today I don't believe in supernatural things and powers. Once you said to me, I'm your super power. So I want to ask you that how would you live without me? Come on, let's try again to touch each other's deepness and understanding. Let's talk about love and philosophy. Let's sleep to closing eyes forever.