The door behind me suddenly dissapeared and it all had happened so quick that I didn't even have enough time to think and explore. I didn't even know what governed my entrance and exit out of the living world. While I was lost and amazed by what all my soul experienced, I observed two people from a distance were approaching towards me. I thought they must be heading towards the doorway, so I turned around and saw that the door was missing! The door dissapeared in thin air. I went up to the two boys who were so busy talking to each other, neglecting the surroundings. They looked extremely happy and satisfied unlike me. I tried grasping their attention,"Excuse me!" They both stared at me and completely ignored my presence and walked away. I decided to proceed in the direction, the road shows me the way. I just did not want to stop because stopping may lead to something more disastrous.
The road finally led me to a busy atmosphere. Hundreds of people near the river were sitting and chatting with their metal sheets in their hands but unlike me none of them had a rose. I went up to an old woman who was quietly sitting by the river, recognising its beauty and was smiling on her own. I asked her,"Can I sit here?" She gazed at me and with a gentle expression on her face, she nodded her head so as to allow me. She mumbled,"Should I just not go?" Tears started to make their way through the wrinkled skin on her face like a river making its way through the valleys. "The silence of the river Styx and its gush of water arises peace and delight within me. How can I possibly leave this place?"she continued.
"Why do you need to?"
"Do you know why you still have the rose in your hand?" I nodded my head sideways to give a negative response.
"It is because you haven't found your reason till now. The day you will learn to love and find your delights in something and will highly appreciate the beauty of this place, that is when the rose will dissapear and the time to leave this realm will arrive."she said this gazing at the river with endearment.
The words which were carved on the metal sheet, now started to make more sense. 'As you start compensating for your deeds, you'll get closer to the beauty of this realm and when you will be intensely attached to this place, it will the time for you to leave for your rebirth.'
The old lady unrolled the metal sheet and said,"In my past life, I desperately wanted to end up and now I don't want to lose this place." She glanced at her sheet and said,"I have to go to save the sixth life. It was a pleasure for me to meet you." She made her way, looking at the sheet in her hand and mumbling,"I'll miss you dearly!". She turned around and stole a glimpse of the river where she found all pleasures of afterlife. She was holding tears and left.
I saw that the cave where I went to, the last time to unlock my locker. This was the first place which repeated before my vision in this world. I headed towards it to hide my sadness in the darkness of the cave and the ray of lime light will prevent me to find my pleasure in darkness. This time, the place was different. I could see many lockers within, carved with several numbers. I wondered about its possibility. It was maybe because I had started to see other souls. I sat in a flat footed position under my locker 231 and closed my eyes. I couldn't feel anything other than silence. After few moments, I felt as if someone was present behind my eyelids and is trying to say something. The voice was getting louder and I allowed my eyes to open. "It was him." I thought.
I walked up towards the waterfall. Neither I could feel the pressure of water falling from above nor I was getting wet. When I reached the other end of it, the atmosphere was again very quiet. As the lady who sat outside had told me to turn left as soon as I enter, I did the same without thinking much about it.
For about a long time, I kept walking on the left road. As I was strolling, it felt like ecstasy and peace were making a way within me. I no longer felt sad, silence which once screamed was now kissing my ears and I wished that this journey to never end.
Unlike my thoughts, I reached a point where the road ended. I saw a short statuted bald man standing right in front of me. He looked radiant and it felt like not even a speck of worry or frustation can dare to reach him. He was grinning ear to ear and was humming a tune breaking the silence. He was continuosly staring at a paper in his hand, then he lifted up his brows and gazed at me. "What is your name?" I suddenly started pondering about it. There are some questions to which you don't answer because you don't want to, but there are some which you left unanswered because you simply don't know. This question for me fell in the latter category and it was scary as not even once in my complete lifetime, I had left it unanswered because I didn't know. Wait, did I once had a lifetime? I found myself surrounded with bundles of questions while I started to find answers for a few. My identity was lost within the silence, the happiness I was experiencing suddenly dissapeared, all I could feel was fear. The man turned around and picked up a bowl which was accompanied by a petrichor and a gush of pleasant feeling surrounded me. The extreme feelings started to encircle me, I felt joyful for a moment and just the other second I felt lonely while in the next I started to sense fear.
Right at the moment, he offered me a bowl and it was filled with a shiny liquid and it smelled pathetic. I wouldn't even think of taking it down my throat.
He looked into my eyes and said,"Drink it." On the spur of the moment, the liquid turned its colour into pale blue and it started to attract me vigorously. I snatched the bowl away from his hands and drank it all at once. He smiled looking at me and took the empty bowl from my hand. "Your name is Savannah, soul number 231"he continued. I blindly believed what he said, he handed me a rock on which a sign was engraved along with a number which was none other than 231.
I did not bother to ask him anything and moved on. It felt as if I was being attracted by a power I couldn't resist to, I started to follow a bright light. It was getting stressful to walk further but still I did, because a feeling of satisfaction was accompyning me.
After I was quiet far away from the place I had come from, I suddenly came to my senses. All I could remember was 'My name is Savannah and the number 231'. I looked at my hands and a stone was placed in the centre of my palm. The stone was different, it had a unique shape with 231 engraved on it. I looked around and a huge entrance to a cave grasped my attention. I went inside and there was no light. Instantaneously, a lime coloured light started to make a way for me and a natural locker kind of a thing caught my attention. It was looking awefully beautiful and it seemed like it held all the secrets. It had 231 engraved on it and had a whole for a key to fit into. I stared at the stone in my hands and I knew what to do. I unlocked the mystical locker with the eccentric stone in my hands.