gabriella_sjosef

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  • gabriella_sjosef 13w

    I am human
    before I'm someone's daughter
    before I'm someone's sister
    I am human
    I don't need to be someone's wife
    or someone's mother
    to prove that I am woman
    to prove that I am good enough
    I don't need to prove myself
    because I know me and I am-

    more than enough

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  • gabriella_sjosef 15w

    He was never late
    I was just too early
    a bit too hungry
    for his touch

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  • gabriella_sjosef 15w

    My body remembers
    your touch and how you've never
    made me feel anything but your lust
    It has become a neglected home
    with door knobs too fragile for touch
    Windows broken by raging hormones
    and dusty rooms where
    where agony feeds off my bones
    My body knows
    how to make love with solitude
    I lay composed underneath its skin
    while decomposing internally
    it remembers
    how you never really loved me,
    except in the nude-
    nocturnally

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  • gabriella_sjosef 15w

    Your skin wasn't woven
    with elasticity
    It can't stretch into the
    embrace of another
    Your mother never taught
    you to wear your heart
    on your sleeve
    Showing emotion has
    become a pet peeve
    Nights are spent staring
    at the ceiling,
    staring into the abyss
    wondering how and when
    bliss escaped you
    Wondering how society
    manages to hiss at
    you despite knowing that
    blue is your only hue
    You've been bent
    Your back is bruised-
    one more metaphorical
    lash and you're doomed
    Your skin wasn't woven
    with elasticity, but
    there's more to you than
    just me

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  • gabriella_sjosef 15w

    You say wither and I wilt
    like flowers in fall
    letting go of memories
    that once meant all

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  • gabriella_sjosef 15w

    I don't know much about this
    skin resembling rust
    or about the person living
    within me, but
    you chose to love me and died-
    like any man would
    My hands have been hardened
    by life so I'm sorry that I was never
    sorry for the way it scarred yours
    I never learned how to carry
    remorse with me
    Heartache attached solitude
    firmly to my waist
    making your touch seem out
    of place and these handles
    have never felt anything, but lust
    Some nights my irises bleeds
    to see you once again
    and all I can ask myself is where?
    Where did we go wrong?

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  • gabriella_sjosef 16w

    I know how it is going to end
    with me inconsolable
    seeking comfort online while
    dressed to the nines
    proclaiming the way you hurt
    me was just benign
    It ends with you loathing me
    from the skin I'm in to the way I sin
    drowning yourself in expensive
    bottles of gin and getting high
    on bottles of perfume only to
    let the scent of jasmine cling
    to you like I once did
    I know how this is going to end
    Tragedy is written all over
    the melanin I'm in
    It ends only in losses and
    no one ever wins

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  • gabriella_sjosef 16w

    Melancholy sings lullabies
    until I fall asleep
    I shouldn't be here
    I am unsure of how many lives
    I have left
    Is living worth it if I'm always
    on the wrong side of a fantasy
    and my dreams always collide
    with reality?
    Is my fate really in my own hands
    if it is always slippery?

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  • gabriella_sjosef 16w

    It Was Never The Alcohol

    It was never the alcohol
    It was the way it consumed my people
    The way it enslaved them until
    they had no more dreams
    It was the way it buried my fellow
    sisters in the name of love
    The way it made brothers fall from
    grace until of their humanity-
    there were no trace
    It was never the alcohol
    It's the way we were never
    taught to practice control
    Now there's mourning mothers
    no one can console

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  • gabriella_sjosef 16w

    With the ruins you left behind
    I've assembled my own utopia

    ©gabriella_sjosef