Life
As I'm watching the waves crushing down
I'm sitting and playing by the water for whatever reason I feel the happiest I could
But my life is falling down and Im so weak that I am falling with it
No one holding me tightly as I'm crushing down
No one missing or wishing to see me so how have I been going this far?
For who and why if not for friendships or family, is it for me?
Thinking this might just be the end but at least I'm the happiest I could be
For whatever reason the water reminds of my life
Thinking about waves crushing down under surfers but they always seem to get up
Maybe cause there's people by the water ready to help you
For i fear people will watch as im drowning
No hand no help nothing, feeling you're suffocating
No air to breath but a hand for nowhere gives you hope
Shall I take the hand or shall I gave up?
Shall I let the water take me for i am no longer a blessing from heaven
Or shall I take the hand for i am strong for I have a life full of possibility and opportunities
But I feel like I deserve this for no one would miss me or remember me
For all the regrets, pain and sadness but what about the happiness, the laughter and the joy?
For I am only a human living with regrets and memories, am I not?
I might just overthinking or am I just thinking?
Shall I just take the hand and begin a new life?
A life that awaits me with full of possibilities but do I the ability to live?
Do I have the ability to go through every crushing wave coming to me
For living this way, living in hell but I'm not just telling you I'm asking you, can I?
For fear I shall take the hand and a new meaning of nothingness awaits and begins
I shall take it to see what awaits me
For life is always a mystery but awake I lay
People around me trying to save me but no one can save me from myself
For thoughts in my mind are as if I'm fighting world war 3
For my heart is beating out of my chest who will keep it in
Who will be there to hug me tightly when I have a nightmare
With no family and friends what shall I have other then sadness and despair
For I fear im not gonna wake up one morning where life is full of happiness
Where the sky is bluer then ever and the birds voice are as beautiful as the flowers outside
Where the people outside wear no masks for that truly fears me
For I fear the day the end is near and I'm at peace with it
For there is no need to be scared and no tears to be shed about me
©sadar_ammar
Mirakee
