I know you're feeling like it's falling apart and now it started to terrify you.
You're now in college but you are still processing 2020. Those people who assured never to leave now no longer together. The person you liked in your school is not the same now.
And you whisper 'how time passes out' and you keep wondering where did the time go? People come and go and now everyone is talking about the New year's eve and you can't help it but fake the enthusiasm because you don't want to be judged by this generation that has glorified the 'fake it till you make it' Nothing has changed it's the same blurry mess and you're surrounded by the piles of deadlines and unopened messages and cancelled plans of friends who want to see you. How do you tell them that you're not depressed that you're not romanticizing your sadness, you're just tired. There will be days when your sadness consumes you. There will be struggles There will be disappointments but there will be days when you'll laugh so much that your stomach would hurt. __ But just believe in yourself, the upcoming days will fill the cracks of your heart, and you're reminded that you're not alone because you're loved, all of us are. Someday you'll find love, stop rushing so hard to find it, relax don't rush yourself out by chasing someone who doesn't care. You're not half, you're a whole. There is more to life than someone who makes you question your self-sufficiency.
SIBLINGS LOVE Our upbringing contains so many diversities, But, the soil, the root is same. We budded with same love, Mingling so beautiful memories, Residing in home with so many corners, But, earth is same. So many efforts we do to survive, But our air is same Unlimited pros and cons we deal with, But our heart is same. Our sacrifices, our dedication for eachother, Is in our genes, We love, we fight, We argue, we angry, But,the prevailing of blood is same...
Yes , you are the topic I talk to moon, smiling bright Yes, you are the person who pushes me to work with all my might
You my light trapped inside the dark covered woods You my Zephyr in worst of my moods
You and I were not so different You and I were coherent
You chose I amongst us And I chose You despite all the fuss
You earned wings and soared up in the sky Yet, I waited and applauded in all your high
Like a lonely withered dry leaf clinging to its bark Throwing a ever assuring smile of a profound embark Like a fallen leaf covered with dust, yet chose to gleam Waiting for a better tomorrow with a hope of endless dream
Here, I lay again under my moon , in the pitch dark night Stranded in your memory that lives in my mind, yet seek no light
As the last ray of light leaves the horizon Darkness takes a ride Into the roller coaster of my mind Whirling within the Pain drenched pool of regrets
I feel like a Lighting bug Trapped inside a jar Fighting for its existence Slowly falling apart Screaming in defeat Agonizing my death.
Drowning into ambrosia of waves Coiled up, away from my reality Always in search of a new anchor To jump from, Dive into depths swimming through the sludge When shore is just right next to me
I take a freefall, Until I realise I am still stuck to the emotions, the relations, And realise my mistake I try to unspool the cobweb And search for the rope Moving my limbs, frightened Just to end up being more Unsuccessful
That's when I snap back to reality The reality- where there is no Sun in my domain. No light around No pityful shadow to accompany
Only, soaked paper boats of hope Floating in the death throes.
Most times I'm alone With thoughts to keep company Alone with people around Talking like broken symphony. Most times I am reading With words holding my hand I have these lines I want to say But they slip like grains of sand. No one's here To listen to me I can't argue anymore With people too blind to see. Blind to prejudices they hold Their thoughts with mine ever in contrary I just shut up and curl inside Talking with louder voices is ever so dreary I wish to share my favorite music And the films that I like The places I dream of And for once not fight. Some peaceful words A song or two Knowing each other Instead of violent views. I want closeness And wanna hold a hand Just show that person around And break into a dance...
High and afar, a paradise of love Friendly thinking clouds found their ground So pure, so great, a place so profound
Majestic and Infinite, an imperial palace Imprisoned clouds unveil their noiseless dreams Soaking spectral mass with their unseen realms
Bright and dazzling, a heart shaped orb With morning dawn, scorching prompts, Breaks night long spell, setting thoughtful clouds on fire Enkindling the unconquered embers of desire
Breathing and blooming, a new born star Conquering his space betwixt his lines Painting words in coverlets of blue, Unfurling his enraptured soul Seeking relief in soul shaped nest For a place of tranquility and rest
Mysterious and resolute, an inspecting cloud Whose coming is welcomed with besotted eyes Tracing the glories with repost in the skies A naming prodigy in the upper sky A feeling so divine, sublime.
I know not of you, nor the struggles you endure, The feelings in your mind, I can't tell for sure, The scars you wear, I know not how you got, I'm unaware of all the battles you've fought.
But I glimpsed a glisten of your frozen tear, And although I'm not one you hold dear, I made the choice not to look away, Give some warmth this winter day.
A shattered heart cannot be healed, Unless the shards are first revealed. Let them flow, tear after tear, Each orb releasing grief and fear.
See them fall, but don't judge them yet, Don't pick up the shards in night's dark velvet Remind yourself not of the freezing snow, But of a distant, certain, Summer's glow.
And when you're ready, I know you'll be For dawn follows dusk repeatedly, Rise up, move onwards, march ahead Don't look back at the tears you've shed.
And I can promise next winter you wouldn't feel this cold, If today you strive to remain strong and bold, If tomorrow you pick up the shards and continue your way, You'll forget the frost of this winter day.
Longing for someone is a painful yet beautiful thing. His longing for her Her longing for him His longing for him Her longing for her.
I wear longing for you on my skin and poetry starts building its home there. The more my skin looks dead, the more the poems braid themselves on the faded love bites you left near my collarbone. Do you too long for me the way I long for you?
Love and longing are ancient soulmates, I feel so. The road ahead is long, I move two steps further and my eyes start searching for you. But I can only see the songs you left behind, the sighs took before saying goodbyes and the half-built home sitting by my side. Do your feet fumble too when you find me no more there, smiling at you and being my kiddish self?
You were the calm sky and I was the reckless bird trying to fly beyond the limits. But we will meet again, the day your infinity and my limits would think of locking eyes again.
Attachment is a vice Especially outside family Trust is a luxury Which runs out very rapidly. Friendship is a formality Snapping in a wink Don't fall in the abyss There are points you should think. People share lovely words Acting as if it's not temporary Fake promises of care And leaving when the road gets dreary. They stay only until they wish to And then you are thrown out of way There aren't no answers given To all the questions that you raise. Maybe I was wrong But I wasn't given a chance to know But it's fine, I realize I don't care if you go. It's a short trip of self doubts And then a steep learning curve To never put my tender heart In another's heartless turf.