she loves me not
she loves meher bright eyes she loves me notlook at someone elseshe loves meher hand's warmshe loves me notbeing help by someone elseshe loves meher time consists of meshe loves me notnow it doesntshe loves meno she doesn't©inkythinking
its odd to think aboutmuch more so than to wishit didnt come to thisthat im most thankful forthe pain that i feelbecause it means i have a lot to fight forand a lot to loseand i think thats lovely©inkythinking
they love me not
they say the ones that we lovenever really leave usbut is that always the case?or does it just apply to the dead?because i can guaranteethat the ones that i lovethat left medont spare a glance in passingwhen they look at me©inkythinking
I dont care.
I don't careif it could haveor if it should haveor even if it would haveit. didnt.and. it. wont.end of story.©inkythinking
sometimespeople pretend youre a bad personso they dont feel guiltybut why would they?for the way they treated you?for the way they ripped your heart out?for the way they were never there?for never giving you the reassurance you so desperately craved?maybeto them you're toxicand controllingand maybe you arebut is that them being honest?or lashing out?toxicity is a dish best not served©inkythinking
it hurts todaymy heart, that isas little as it did,it hurts as if it never healedas if i wont recoveras if the betrayaland the heartbreakhappened only yesterdayi feel ache-yand sluggish.is it because i didnt sleep well?or is everything finally registering?ive been numbfor so terribly longbelieving that it was better to bottlethan to feeloh how wrong i wasi regret saying anything©inkythinking
this boatas safe as it may feelis not keeping me afloator safe from this ordealmy mind is sinkingfrom the pain and sorrowand my heart is wishing for a better tomorrowi wish there was a droughtbecause its hard knowing i cant winwhen its hard to get outbecause you don't know how to swim©inkythinking
worthless/ˈwərTHləs/adjectivehaving no real value or usei dont knowhow to describethis feelingthis terriblehorribleno goodvery bad feelingat least im not alexanderit sucks thoughnot knowing what or who i amall i knowis that this feeling?the feeling of having no worth?is like a knife, being repeatedly plunged into you©inkythinking
i refuseto dim the fuseto blackenwithout lackinga match once strongand make it all wrongi refuseto follow the fewto make amendsand have to bendto fit ones willto hope things unspilllastly, i refuseto useanother personto use coercionthe way you didand a goodbye ill bid©inkythinking
i get it now.
i think i finally get itunfortunatelyalthough i wish i didnti wish i lived in oblivionthe not knowingbut insteadi live in despairi will never everbe as important as heri will always be an afterthoughta second choicean alternate endingone without hope and lovein acceptanceof a once great prayernow turned to dust©inkythinking