Life moves through different paths where peace is all what it wish for. "Insinex writer" was a path which showed me the glimpses of peace that a person could attain while struggling out in this world. Personally it is too close to my heart because it was something which turned out to be a corner stone in my life. Even if one day my name disappears, the name with insinex is all what I wish to hear. This is a beginning of a never ending process, whatever may be the outcomes peace is all what I get while I am in an insinex zone. A lot of people asked me about the name insinex what does it mean....... "Insinex" means "Imagination", it is something that I do much often, something even the worldy tension cannot interfere in the zone. Writing was my imagination where insinex gave its wings to it...♥️ To the Insinex who taught me to live a life worth living ♥️ From a shade who believed to live a life worth living ♥️
I do remember the path which used to be my constant companion. I was struggling with myself & decided to walk because except that I didn't had anything that would take me further. In my journey, I reached a street that seemed as an obstacle that has to be crossed. For the first time I halted myself and observed. I observed the beauty of Street, I was not new here but these things were hidden to me. The hustle and bustle of the street itself was saying something. I closed my eyes, the aroma of street enveloped me like a warm blanket does. I smiled ..... That smile gave me a new life filled with relief and happiness. I experienced the adrenal flow in my body. I thought I had nothing with me but I had something precious that could change the entire course of my life. I had my smile that could help me conquer the world, I had my smile that would let me live my life like a warrior and when warrior enters the battlefield then the rest will be written and remember as history. My smile....
Eva appeared...... She was so happy to see Vivaan and Divya together. Once she too had that life where Arhaan was the prince of her story. She was working in an IT company when she first encountered with the new joinee Mr. Arhaan Malhotra. He has switched his company just because he didn't found his passion to work there. Isn't it strange he was paid well there but some people are like that they love what they do or they wanna do what they love if both doesn't happens the only thing they do is to quit it. We are different because we would definitely hold onto it, but these are small small things that define an individual. To her surprise Arhaan got his first project and that was to assist Eva. They started working, they had many late and last night works, plenty of unsatisfied calls and might be these all things might have acted like a catalyst to bring them closer. Beeeeepssssssss..........Arhaan picks up his cell. "Hey where are you" Eva asked "Its 5.30 in the morning and I am out for my dance rehearsals". "What .....of which dance rehearsals are you talking about and it's too early you should be on your bed at your home" "Ohh I don't think so that's why you asked me naa where are you" "Acha I get it you are Joking" "Sorry nothing and how you get things so quickly, quite appreciable." "Hahha I don't know what it is all about but do you know where I am" "Yaaa I know." "But how do you know that I am here to witness the sun rise" "It's magic" "Then can you join me here ?" "Nooooooo......." Wel that was so quick enough even to grasp it and she was like "why and who in this world says no that too so quickly". "I say that and my no was after a serious discussion with my brain" "Achaa what did you discussed" "See first of all I need to get up from my bed, go to the washroom, need to brush, find something to drink, need to change then at last need to drive to reach where you are, I guess burning too much calorie in early morning doesn't suits me". And she was thinking am I dreaming or am I witnessing it. Eva, smiled thinking about small small moments that she had shared with him. She got the glimpses of the day when he proposed her. "Eva don't you think our kids are calling us." "Huuuuunnnnnnnnn whatttttttttttttt....." "I mean I feel that we should not make them wait for so long I guess if we are getting married now at 7.50 in the evening while driving towards home, then I guess they will be with us after 4 years from now what do you think?" She was totally confused and her gestures proves it. "Evaaaaaa..... I love you, will you marry me, I wish to spend rest of my life with you , looking at you and realize how confused you get when you engage in a conversation with me. If I get a chance I'll let this confusion to be there forever so that my every word will be a new move and a whole new day for you. So will you marry me Evaaaa.....?" If things were going so nicely then suddenly what happened.....?
There lived two best friends named Pen and Paper. They shared everything that they possessed but something that they never did shared was Sufferings. They had to go through it much often and that too sometimes for hours. Pen used to sacrifice his ink which flows in his body, he will let it go for hours but would always maintain a smile on his face and thinks how easy it is for the paper. On the other hand paper gives his body to imprint words on it. The nib of the pen sometimes pierce his body but still he would continue and thinks how easy it is to the pen to write. The same happens with humans when the Suffering goes unnoticed, but the fact is sufferings are there on the both side the only thing which we can't distinguish is the Intensity. With whom does the intensity of suffering belongs to be more...
It is always amazing how the life treats you in various situations. You never get to know how the things around you can change in a go & that's what so difficult, when things happen and you you don't even get a moment to handle it. This is something what happens daily but sometimes intensity of happening becomes so small that human minds adjust it accordingly.
Vivaan thought to set himself out in search of Arhaan ( the next and the only link that would help him to get know more about Eva). In this interval he forgets about his life and the only intention behind his existence is to find what happened to her. Will you kill your love if you get to know that the pain which he/she suffers is just unbearable!!! We move out of cities sometimes for job, sometimes in search of happiness too, but being in the moments are enough to be happy. While Eva was guiding Vivaan to her past Divya was all set to make a comeback in Vivaan's life. If Eva is the guiding light Divya was all set to become the power source who would pave his path towards a place where wisdom will shatter down the mystery. Vivaan was traveling to McLeod Ganj where Eva took her last breath. He was heading towards Pathankot railway station, he realised in the journey the passenger next to him was Divya......... How strange it is, their situations never allow them to be close to each other but destiny always has its new plans. One side Vivaan was quite and on the other side Divya just broke up. "Why did you left the place without informing. Do you know how hard it is to spend a day without seeing you". He was quite....... "Vivaan what happened....." "Do you still love me" 'Yes I do'. "But why you know everything about me still" "Still how can you think that I'll leave you, I love you Vivaan......" उस प्यार का क्या करूँ जो इंसान के ज़ख्मों को भर ना पाए, उस जुनून का क्या करूँ जो इंसान को तराशने मे हार जाएं, खुदा ने मंज़िल तक पहुंचने के लिए रास्ते तो बहुत बनाये, मगर वो राह दिखाने वाले हमारे जिंदगी मे बहुत कम बनाये... "I just got a path and I am traveling through it. It's not her story its mine she is just a subject where at the last page the chapter would describe my life..... Sometimes we don't need anyone to sort out things in our life, we just need an assurance that no matter what so ever happens someone is always there who will support at each and every stage of my life...... & that's what can change the entire course of things happening in your life" "But Vivaan who is she, do you have any idea what it is all about she doesn't even exist in this world and you are just behind a soul....." And just when they were together Eva appeared.... The next part on 21/03/2020
Hey all beautiful people, this is another part of Love Never Achieved,I hope you all like it. Some lines are now not there in my life as it is a old piece. When I start posting now ones,I will let you all know in prior.
People abuse easily without any hesitation. They are very quick to speak evil to others without giving a single thought whether they are right or wrong. I have a question is abusing so easy or remembering abusive words is easy??but for me it is absolutely impossible to learn or remember such useless things . There are many people who are being abused by others or they abuse others . All I would say that mostly all have faced abusers in there life and if not then they have at least faced harsh words spoken by others which have made you feel worse or hurted your sentiments, I have faced many people in my lives who know I am completely different and can't be like them. They abuse but I never felt like they abused me because actually they were not abusing me they were giving me blessings in a different way so I never abused them back . Why to take others words on ourselves and be like them. Actually I don't know abusive words and meaning. So when someone abuses you give them a blessing not abuse them back . Never feel bad when someone abuses you be glad you are earning blessing only but when you are not replying the same. There are people who abuse all time I would ask them that who gave you authority to abuse my God never gave me.The scriptures says " Surely you know that you are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you! So if anyone destroys God's temple, God will destroy him.For God temple is holy, and you yourselves are his temple. "So your body is a temple of God and his spirit lives in you and you in him just imagine if his spirit is in you keep him at your place will he ever abuse no not at all.The man is created in a likeness of God and with the same mouth you praise a God and on other hand you curse a person created in likeness of God.Words of cursing and thanksgiving from same mouth!! God never tell us to do any wrong not to hate anyone neither to curse nor to abuse...so I would say stop abusing because you don't have any right to do that .The scriptures says "Do not use harmful words , but only helpful words the kind that build up and provide what is needed, so that what you say will do good to those who hear you." So get rid of all bitterness, passion and anger .No more shouting or insults, no more hateful feelings of any sort. Instead be kind and tender hearted to one another, and forgive one another as God has forgiven you through his son ..the scripture says this so stop abusing others and cursing others or your own self.. Never give any wrong feeling to rise in you. Follow a good path not the bad one .Now time for you to repent from God how many times indirectly abused him and made him cry .Be sorry for that and don't repeat such useless things from now.
"गाली तो हम भी दे सकते हैं आप की तरह फर्क बस इतना है कि आपकी ज़ुबान आपको बादशाहत देती हैं और हमे हमारा खुदा इजाज़त नही देता !! "
I pray for you all so that you all may turn away from those wrongs Don't be like a wanderers that follows a path of sin Don't give Satan a chance to win Don't live a lavishly life in this world Prepare yourself for leading a life of spiritual world This world is full of lust and sin I say don't follow those wrongs paths of sin This how the scriptures describes them And uncovere the evilness among them They have turned away from God They have all gone wrong There words are full of deadly deceit They are ready for those unpleasant words to recite Wicked lies roll of their tongue The fire hell is spoken by their tongues And dangerous threats like snake poison from there lips They are quick to hurt and kill There thoughts have become complete nonsense There empty minds are full of darkness They are filled with all kinds of wickedness, evil, greed and vice They are full of jealousy, murder , deceit and malice They speak evil of one another they have no conscience They are insolent, proud and boastful They are hateful to God They leave ruin and destruction wherever they go They have not known peace nor have reverence for God
I want to ask how long you are going to judge yourself as whites being a black? how long you will speak those lies?how long are going to commit those sins?how long????? Let me tell you there is no more long what you have is today now time is for you to bent on knees now time is for you to cry and weep now it is time for you to be holy ... just go now and ask repentance from God for all those wrongs and ask apology from him for all the times you have hurted him and made him cry because of your sins. From today you stop yourself from committing any of those sins...
I penned down this I pray you all leave all sorts evilness and start living a life of holiness fear the almighty than other things demand repentance from him
Body shaming is one of the major causes of depression, anxiety and suicide. Judging someone by their body shape and weight is WRONG! Your one taunt, your one comment can lead someone with weight problem into a very dark place. Please be kind and helpful.
This is my story in the form of a poem. Yes I'm chubby. Yes I'm a bit more healthy than most of you. Yes I accept myself. Yes I love myself and YES I STAND UP FOR MYSELF
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Once again humbling myself and bending on my knees I come to you dear heavenly father today I want to thank you for the abundant blessings you shower upon us each day. Dear Lord you haven't made us to starve not even a single hour Lord I want that people should understand they are in very good condition uptill now you kept us all safe and sound and fulfilled all our necessities even in these hard days I want them to understand they are not like those people who are crying and trying there level best to reach there hometown. They not like those who got blisters in there feets by walking to reach there family they not like who starving for food on the streets they not like those who are away from their family . I pray they understand you love them more than they could imagine. Dear father I cry for those who are struggling in hard time Lord I pray you help them out to reach there homes I pray Lord you feed them with you heavenly store .Lord you remove there suffering and pain.God I want to pray for who lost there lives uptill now Lord grant there family your peace. Lord I pray for those who are struggling with hazardous storm Lord many became homeless, many died, many lost there families, dear heavenly father you keep power to rebuke and still the storm I am not fearing now I believe you can Lord rebuke this storm and make it still like you did earlier. Lord lots of people all over world suffering with various problems Lord remove those suffering from there lives. Lord I want that all should thank you because you kept us safe and we are not struggling hardship like those other people's. You have covered us under your mighty wings. Lord I pray for all people who are dealing with all kinds of hidden evilness and curses acting in there lives making them and their spirits impure Lord I command in your mighty name those evilness should leave them from their lives right know. I pray all those people fighting with this pandemic all over the world grant them your strength and keep them safe.Lord heal and cure the people suffering from the various diseases. Lord teach your people path of holiness and righteousness. Lord remove depression, fear ,anxiety, and these kinds various of evilness that killing them from inside . Lord I thankyou with my whole heart that you are with us in all times .Lord I surrender everyone and everything into your mighty hands. Thankyou Lord for everything once again .
I ask this prayer into mighty name of Lord Amen..
.......................................................... I wrote this prayer and letter of thanks to Lord because he has kept us in best condition than worst I would urge that you all thank him for day he shows you and pray to him and worship for all the goodness he does in your lives.
when i look at people older than me, i often wonder how they made it here. how life didn’t swallow them whole. i study their faces like a map, i see the pools of weariness in their eyes. i see the way wrinkles dangle around their mouths, how the lines seep into their skin, little reminders of how long they’ve lived. i glide my eyes over their hands, the signs of growth and age splattered on their knuckles. i wonder about the stories they’ve gone through, i wonder if they were the protagonist or the antagonist. i wonder how they managed to wake up, to sleep, to exist through so many days and nights. i get overwhelmed. i can’t even fathom the thought of tomorrow, i can’t look at it with willing eyes, i can’t embrace it with open arms. instead, i dread it. i look at all the days i've lived, and they hang around my head, all the old memories, they haunt me. and so i wonder how they did it. i wonder how they’ll continue to do it, until death decides it’s time to take them. i wonder if i’ll ever get there. if i’ll ever look in the mirror, and the fine lines growing across my face will be normal, welcoming. i wonder if my days will be worth waking up for, if the thought of tomorrow will become a gift i’m lucky enough to receive. i can’t picture myself like that, aging, embracing. i can’t muster up a version of me with gray hair, and crepe skin. i’ve always thought i’d be gone too young, that this sadness would sink me into my grave before a wrinkle could settle into my fake smile. i’ve been convinced i won’t make it out of this battle alive; that this darkness is too strong, too thick to break through. i don’t know if i’ll ever be an old soul. but i do know i’ve been a drowning one. a lost one. a dying one.
Every breath is buried with burden. Mornings are filled with guilt, I swallow my words for breakfast, drink my sorrows whole. Nights are meant for battles, sinking into sheets, dread mixed with dreams. Hope slips through my heart, gets lost in the broken cracks. I am clinging to loose threads, dangling over the darkness. Each passing minute is a moment spent with misery. All the years of wasted youth, the ghosts of who I’ll never be, all trail behind me. The hauntings of never really living, the reality that this world has only offered me wreckage; it’s a truth I’ve carried in my throat for far too long. So I’m stuck coughing up the chaos, growing in the gloom.