I feel lost, I feel scaredIts seems too heavy yet to petty to shareI relate with them all yet still feel aloneEveryday ends with me feeling a little more wornI want a lot but dont know where to beginI push harder everyday only to feel like I did'ntI know its madness but I still thrive to fit inI stop to breathe and thats when the anxiety kicks in"Its your age to struggle, be patient" they saidI nod along sorting a million thoughts in my headIts harder everyday I feel like quitting before I reach the endBut every morning I choose" Its okay, I've got it, lets do it" instead.©Ish.
I envy the minds not damaged by awareness, I envy the oblivious luxury they enjoy by having a blank canvas not damaged by opinions and reading.Hell,on bad days I even covet the lack of empathy they have cause on a bad day it sucks to be someone who feels so much, who understands so much, who penetrates through the superficiality of this imperfect unfair brutal world only to feel helpless.©Ish.
Do you know how many times I had to break before I made my heart the stone you frown upon?©Ish.
Its all an act,I'm tired of reallyI dance on the grave of my pain, its easier to be sillyI break down every once in a while,but I get up as easilyI fool them like a clown, but Im a warrior braving through daily.©Ish.
She's a paradoxical puzzle craving to be solved just without wanting to give away all her pieces.©Ish.
I tried to tame my mane and watch my tone.Changed my stride even if my pride was torn.And nothing changedI still reeked of rebellionAnd it still suffocated the world.So I gave up on being one of the herd,Puffed up my mane,And roared.©Ish.
I try, I try to sum up what you mean to me in words but I fail. Every single time I fail. What is supposed to define you. Thoughtlessly selfless? Incomparably strong? Do any of these words do justice to the carapace you form each and every time to protect me from this abominable world. How do you do it? How do you not give up when someone for whom you took pangs of pain hurts you and how do those tears you shed when you feel that pain make you stronger and still willing to go through that atrocity all over again. You took pride in my truth and saw right through my lies. You stood strong in my struggle and broke down at my triumph. You taught me to learn from my tragedies and danced with me at my euphoria. You never quit. You made me what I am today even if it came at the cost of you. And time has passed and I waited for your altruism to end and I waited for you to start living for yourself but there you are all ready to do it all over again. I try, I try to sum up what you mean to me in words but I fail. Every single time, I fail maa ©Ish.
You called me cold for the closure I denied.A coward I really was, running from the finality of goodbyes.©Ish
One of the things you realise growing up is that the vitality of belief has nothing to do with optimism and everything to do with survival.©Ish.
Today I woke up brave, buried my past and danced on its grave; bring it life.©Ish