Whenever people ask me how I am, I just smile back and say nothing. Some mistook my smile that I might be ok and some think that how bumptious I'm who doesn't have any etiquette how to answer. Some think that may be I'm dejected and some think that I'm brainsick. But the truth is I too don't know the answer of this question so I just give them a cryptic smile. Now you think that how one could not know how he/she is? I live in the dilemma whether I'm okay or not.
~ If I have a wide smile on my face because of some reasons then few moments later I start feeling queasy and taste salty water on my lips.
~ In one moment someone praises me a lot and in the other that someone curses me for being alive on this earth.
~ People tell me that it's okay if humans make mistakes but that same people coarsely abuse me if I make a small mistake unintentionally.
~ People advised me that one should follow their dreams and choose their passion but that very people impose their choices on me and force me to follow them.
~ People make promises that they'll always by my side no matter what and the same people change and left me alone.
~ People say that I have freedom to live my life to the fullest and then those same people impose myriad restrictions upon me.
~ People often say to me that love yourself but the irony is same people give me frivolous reasons to hate myself more than anything.
~ People whom I consider god, they prove themselves Satan afterwards.
Neither I want to pretend that I'm okay nor I want to tell them straight that they are responsible for this. So I just smile.