I've chased love, chased hope, chased dreams and ended up broke. I've chased drugs, chased girls, even chased ways to leave this world. I've spent a lifetime chasing creations, manifestations of my own imagination and for what? I feel like an abomination, all that's inside is pure frustration. I'm sick of waiting, sick of the delay, sick of struggling to survive day after day, I guess you could say that I'm sick and I don't know how much longer I can stay.©jcphillips
I love waking up beside you. These early morning hours with the world still asleep. Nothing seems to matter, this is when I find true peace. I want this all of the time, every day, for the rest of my life. I don't want to spend a moment without you, I promise you are the love of my life.©jcphillips
I don't want to do this anymore. Ive broken myself trying, multiple times. I don't know how to not feel like this. I would love to feel joy again, I would love to feel like I deserve happiness again. I would love to be me again.©jcphillips
I'm yet to discover the love that they talk about in books, the story of finding that one true love. That magical love. The one you don't have to question. The one that leaves you feeling like all kinds of bliss. I don't want to be up at 4am worrying about you. I don't want to go through the pain of loosing you. I don't want to loose us. Holding on is killing me, but I know I have to let go. I have to let you go, before I loose me. I've spent a lifetime searching, wanting and waiting for the right girl and even when Ive got you right beside me, I still feel alone.©jcphillips
Keep dreaming, keep hoping.
According to Forever Conscious, "The winter solstice celebrates the longest hours of darkness or the rebirth of the sun and is believed to hold a powerful energy for regeneration, renewal and self-reflection. In Pagan times the winter solstice was referred to as Yule and was a celebration of the Goddess (Moon) energy.
One day, one day I'll find my girl.
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Thank you plant medicine for showing me how to love myself again. Thank you plant medicine for helping me to discover my true self. Thank you plant medicine for showing me the secrets of the universe and thank you plant medicine for always being there for me regardless of my fucked up past.
If you've ever given me your time and energy, I thank you. I love you and I thank you for wanting to see deeper, for looking past what appears on the surface. I love you regardless of what's happened and I will never forget you for helping me along this magikal path of self discovery. You all know who you are.
And so she shudders, from the cold night call. Darkness beckoning, as she begins to withdraw.Shadows play games, across the blackened courtyard. Crys from the dead of night wolf's singout from afar.But yet she waits, knowing full well of what lies ahead, gaining her courage as she begins to prepare. She must overcome the doubt, the fear and the hurt and travel this life, the stars and the earth.©jcphillips