jenafie1014_2018

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  • jenafie1014_2018 51w



    I'm having trouble in sleeping...
    Feeling so low and it's depressing...
    There are times I am so high...
    And there are moments that I want to die...
    I can't understand why I'm burried so deep...
    It seems like balance is hard to keep...
    It's creepy that I have thoughts of the extremes...
    Feels like I'm living not a reality but distorted dreams...
    I'm scared of judgment and I'm scared of myself...
    Because one moment I'm so fine then comes a time I want to hide in the shelf...
    It's hard to keep up with my mind stability...
    And it's getting worse when I start dealing with reality...
    I have this feeling of giving all or nothing...
    I have low tolerance of not getting the right understanding...
    Most of the time I'm misunderstood by others for being extremely happy...
    And when the time comes I want to isolate myself suddenly...
    What scared me most is when I feel so much love like there's no end...
    Because I know for a fact that it will vanish soon like it never happened...

    ©jenafie1014_2018

  • jenafie1014_2018 52w

    ❤️

    It's hard to ask for something you can't give...
    And harder to accept that it's one of so many things that matters the most...
    ©jenafie1014_2018

  • jenafie1014_2018 53w

    ❤️

    More than anyone else in this world...
    You owe it to yourself...
    ♥️

  • jenafie1014_2018 53w

    ♥️

    I thought my heart is so frail...
    That I can't afford to fail...
    But when you came along...
    I just realized that it is strong...
    Not because I cried...
    Doesn't mean I lost my pride...
    But it's the tears I cried when you said goodbye...
    Made my heart stronger and not to easily believe in lie...
    ❤️
    ©jenafie1014_2018

  • jenafie1014_2018 54w

    ❤️

    I tried so hard...
    Even when it hurts...
    I cried so much...
    Till I ran out of tears...
    I stopped asking,why me...
    Because I knew exactly why...
    I know there's something out of this to gain...
    There is so much more to this pain...
    Having you with me is so much more than life...
    And I'm willing to grow through every difficult situations...
    Because this is my choice...
    I chose your life above mine...
    And if I will escape this stage of hardship it will never justify my previous decision...
    I know it's hard now...
    And it's getting difficult everyday...
    But I'm stronger than yesterday...

    ©jenafie1014_2018

  • jenafie1014_2018 55w



    Sometimes I'm losing my faith in humanity because of what you've done...
    But then I realized, you were not part of human race...
    Because if you were, then you might not end up breaking my heart...
    And you might as well think and feel the pain of being abandoned...
    Leaving behind the mess you've done just like that was never justifiable by you protecting your family's name...
    And how dare you calling me a slut,
    But sorry to tell you but this bitch is much better than you...
    I chose to be a man when you gave up to be...
    I chose to be strong even if I lost my peace mind...
    Shame on you to gave up just like that...
    I'm glad I'm not like you...
    And never will be...
    (You're not human, the moment you lost your compassion.)
    ©jenafie1014_2018

  • jenafie1014_2018 55w

    ❤️

    Despite the chaos...
    You calm my heart...
    And when in rage...
    You make me think...
    When I'm about to give up...
    One smile from you makes me want to go on...
    Just looking at you makes me want to live my life longer...
    I want to begin again even when everytime I try seems to be a failure...
    Because what is a heart break compared to your smile...
    You just make me love this life again...
    You are my fresh start...
    With you I was born again...

    ©jenafie1014_2018

  • jenafie1014_2018 56w

    Dear self,

    Don't drag yourself into a relationship where you feel you're getting less than what you deserve...
    It's always a must to be with someone who makes you feel wanted and important...
    But before you get someone into your life,be sure that you are giving enough love to yourself...


    Love,
    Yourself
    ❤️

  • jenafie1014_2018 56w

    ❤️

    There will always be this love story that never fail to paint a smile in our faces...
    And mine started when I met you...
    My friends bashed you...
    Saying that you look like my next mistake...
    And I'm losing my mind again...
    But as usual my cliche answer will be...
    "You can never be wise and be drunk in love at the same time..."
    Yes, our story never last...
    You searched for greener pasture and ended up leaving me behind...
    But our love story will always be something I will never regret...
    Maybe, you were just destined to make me fall in love and experience love in the short span of time...
    But never to grow old with...
    Nevertheless,thank you for making me
    smile...

    ©jenafie1014_2018

  • jenafie1014_2018 56w



    Never stop yourself from opening up for changes and challenges...
    It is vital...
    As an individual, you grow spiritually...
    And self growth is necessary and a must...
    A requirement to be fulfilled by no one else but you...

    ©jenafie1014_2019