Sometimes instead of swimming you have to float, just float.
Fighting back is good but letting things happen is important too. There comes a time when you just have to let what is happening, happen. Don’t protest. Let life take its course. It has its own reasons for doing so.Who knows; the results might just surprise you! So don’t kick, flail or try to swim. Just float. Have faith that you won’t drown. And you won’t drown.
Be yourself . Find yourself . Be who you were meant to be - they say.
But do we all know who we are ? I don't.
I am a daughter. I am sister. I am a girlfriend.
I have a loving family. A sweet boyfriend. A bunch of nice people as friends. A good work family.
Is that it? I am girl struggling with Depression , PTSD and Anxiety. I am a girl, who is unsure about her sexual orientation. I am a girl who doesn't know how to live.
I find peace in other's smile .I just everyone to be happy. I believe in ignorance is bliss but am the most curious person around. I write , I read . My vivid imagination gets me through the day.
I am a girl who forgot who she is , what she likes and what she wants . I only know to keep breathing , because otherwise it would kill my family. I only know to keep fulfilling others' dreams , because to my dreams died long ago. I am girl who doesn't speak anymore, because my voice was choked out of me .
I don't know who I am . I don't know what my purpose is. I don't know what I should do.
My fondest dream is to die. My second fondest dream is to runaway.
I am just a girl , who wants to escape. From what and to where -I do not know.
Maturity Noun: Period of being mature. Another name: Suffering .
Stay Balanced Stay Calm Stay Cool Stay Positive Stay just stay You are mature now
You should not do this You should not do that You should be understanding You should treat people nice You should behave properly You are mature now
You should not find offence in things You should not cry over the things You should learn lessons from every fucking thing You should act calm even when storms are raging inside you You should understand the situation of people You should believe what they do is for your good You should not punch them in the face You should control your anger You should not treat them the way they treated you No, Tit for tat is not for you You should forgive them saying- You are immature But you should not get forgiveness for the same, afterall you should have not behaved that way, you are mature now You should see the good in them You should not let your emotions overpower you You should act mature Because congratulations, You are mature now You are supposed to know all the You are supposed to be's and All the should be's Because you are mature now Or you are officially in the stage of getting tortured Or Suffer more, show less Or learn more, cry less Or endure more, complain less.
There is a poem glued to my throat with fevi quik It wants to come out So I am letting it out just up to my teeth by scratching it using my nails, knife and hot water to unglue it so that I can chew and gulp it No, I am not ready to spit it out I am just eating it, chewing 32 times per word so that it can be digested easily without lump and constipation and bloating, The poem is full of indigestible substances Fears, Guilt, Insecurities, Resentments Rejections, Vulnerabilities and full of melancholy so I am just concentrating on eating it cautiously without drinking water in between, Wait! Let me add some things, lessons and understanding and apologies and what not, to make it digestable. Look! I don't want to disturb the process of digestion So, I am not drinking water just after the meal I am just constantly chewing, grinding, and biting the poem word by word in a hope that it digests quickly and fast providing me a relief without constipation, acidity and Uneasiness If not, I have kept the bottles of patience in the form of laxatives and faith in the form of Pepto-bismol ready to gulp them, if the poem somehow gets constipated and stuck somewhere in the walls of my body I will drag it again up to my teeth and chew and bite the life out of each and every word. -sakshi
On this day of world mental health. Being the one who has gone through depression, I just wanted to say a few things about mental health and depression. I just want to make you feel that things will be ok if you are going through it.
Depression is something that not everyone understands, unless they have gone through it, and have felt like its something that they are wearing like skin. Every day it begins to feel like everything you touch will die. It sometimes feels like you are in constant darkness and everything seems meaningless.
People can get into this pit in many ways I feel, might be they were trying to save someone from the hell, and they found the purpose in it, and they sat there forever to save more people.
They say depression is like an abusive relationship that you have with yourself. It feels like you have made a friend who always stands behind you and whispers constantly the things like "You are not good enough", "You will never be happy", "You are a joke", "You will never be worthy of something or someone" and many other mean things you wouldn't say to anyone else. The thing about all this is, when you hear this for a very long time, you will begin to believe it somewhere.
But I want to say something. If you are going through it, hold yourself together. I know how it feels to fight with that person who is always with you, and who knows you so well.
It feels like you fight with him every day, to pull him out of that driver seat and take the wheel for yourself, while he constantly sits behind you staring you in the mirror. And the moment you feel whatever he said was right, he will take back that control again.
This whole fight with yourself will drain a lot of energy from you. But believe me, things will be alright. Just don't give up. The day that you are praying and wishing for isn't very far. When you arrive on that day, you will turn back and thank yourself for keeping the fight on and never giving up.
Whenever he/she says those mean things to you again. Tell them not today, tell them you are stronger than you believe. You are better than you think you are. You deserve the whole world if you want to. And you are worthy of everything you wish for.
Just keep that fight on. And remember, you are the best.