kalpesh_jani

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  • kalpesh_jani 2d

    ધાર પર રહ્યો ક્યારેક મઝધાર પર રહ્યો
    તે તરતો રાખ્યો તારા જ તાલ પર રહ્યો

    કયારેક થતો હતો હું ખુદ પર જ આફ્રિન
    પણ દરેક ઘા અંતેતો તારી ઢાલ પર સહ્યો

    તુ જ મુંઝવે મને અને પછી તુ જ સૂઝવે
    તારી જ શતરંજ તારી જ ચાલ પર રહ્યો

    જામ નાં જોમમાં "હું" પણામાં હું રાચયો
    નશો ઉતાર્યો ત્યારે અસલ હાલ પર રહ્યો

    "હોવા" ની જ ક્ષણ નિરંતર વહી રહી છે
    "હું" નો ફેંસલો તો હંમેશ કાલ પર રહ્યો
    ©kalpesh_jani

  • kalpesh_jani 1w

    "હું" નહીં પણ માત્ર "હોવું"
    મૂલવવું નહીં પણ માત્ર જોવું
    આ તો કેવો ગજબ તાળામેળ છે?
    જેટલું મેળવવું એટલું જ ખોવું
    બધું જ મળીને છતાં કાંઈ ન મળ્યું તે "હું"
    બધું જ ગુમાવવા છતાં જે બચ્યું તે "હોવું"
    ©kalpesh_jani

  • kalpesh_jani 3w

    આમ તો આપણે વાતો ઘણી કરી
    પણ જાણ્યું છો તમે મૂક-બધિર
    જ્યારે મેં વાત ખરી કરી
    ©kalpesh_jani

  • kalpesh_jani 3w

    દરેક ક્ષણે કોઈ ને કોઈ રસ લઈ બેઠો છું
    જાણે કોઈ અતૃપ્ત તરસ લઈ બેઠો છું

    સહદેવ છું જાણું છું અંજામ દરેક વાતનો
    પણ પળે પળે કર્ણ સમ લાચાર થઈ બેઠો છું

    નશામાં ચકચૂર થવા તે ભરી મદિરા પ્યાલી
    હું દરેક પળે સમયનો જામ લઈને બેઠો છું

    નાહકનો ન શોર કર ન કશી ફરિયાદ કર
    ચિનગારીની આશે ઘોર અંધકાર લઈ બેઠો છું
    ©kalpesh_jani

  • kalpesh_jani 4w

    बयां किसे करे हर एक अपने में मदहोश हे
    बोलते हे सब यंहा फिर भी सब खामोश हे
    ©kalpesh_jani

  • kalpesh_jani 4w

    माना सफ़रमें तेरे रफ़्तार के मायने हे,
    रास्ते से भी कभी पूछो, वो कहीं जाता भी हैं?

    भटकने का डर छोडकर कोई मोड़ लिया होता,
    आदत में गुजरी उम्र में जीना जोड़ लिया होता
    ©kalpesh_jani

  • kalpesh_jani 4w

    See in caption for what I understand and grasp of the following beautiful album song by Leonard Cohen..

    If you are the dealer, I am out of the game,
    If you are the healer, it means I am broken and lame,
    If thine is the glory then Mine must be the shame,
    You want it darker, we kill the flame….

    It tells about the very matrix we are trapped in, not only that we are trapped in it but our apparent structure is the part of this matrix. It says that if you are the dealer, I am out the game. somehow this matrix engages us forever and there is no apparent recourse for us to come out of it. It is something like it plays a game with us and we are just out of the game. We only think that we play with it on the equal grounds but actually we are out of the game.
    This matrix thrives on the total contrast and we feel ourselves as we are on the opposite end to the end to which we call the God. God also is based on the contrast. If God is the healer it only reveals that we are in broken and wounded state, If God is the most pious it is based on our sinful stature. The matrix thrives in contrast. In the end he asks the matrix “do you want to make this contrast denser? let me kill the flame”. The flame which is there in us, a constantly burning flame, which mimics the presence of something eternal. But the demoralized man tells I will totally give up I will extinguish the last burning flame inside me.

    Magnified, Sanctified, be thy holy name,
    Vilified, crucified, in the human frame,
    A Million of candles burning for the help that never came,
    You want it darker, we kill the flame.

    The end which we have accepted to be in this matrix is the end of pain, sorrow, despair. And we constantly are entangled to it. So he talks about this contrast and our entanglement to this end. The other end to which we call the God, is always in contrast with us. It is glorified, holy, sanctified end compared to our vilified, suffering end. We constantly wait for the help which we hope will come to us someday. But it is never going to happen as our very apparent existence is based on the contrast. No help can remove this contrast. if it does so there is no our apparent existence. So, we shall never be able to keep our apparent existence and come out of this end. If these ends cease to be then both of them cease together. Not that only one end can cease to be somehow. And if both the end cease together our apparent existence also ceases to be.

    There is a lover in the story but the story is still the same,
    There is a lullaby for suffering and a paradox to blame,
    But it is written in the scriptures and it is not an idle claim,
    you want it darker, we kill the flame….

    So, this is our story. We are so near sighted that we cannot see that the same story is being repeated again and again all the time. Like, in a love affair, a presence of a “lover” concentrates all the attentions of yours and you are blind to other things. That we are trapped by our very apparent existence. We are such intoxicated that we cannot open our eyes. There is a constant lullaby which make us sleepy, dreamy all the time. We always levy charges on the things non existential, we blame on the things which are not present like fate, destiny etc. This is a paradox.
    And it is also not that nobody is aware of it. It has ever been known to us in the form of some deep inner burning. Our scriptures are also asserting these things again and again. (It is not that only Hindu scriptures tell about it, almost all scriptures tell. Be them Buddhist or Zeist, or Sufi, Christians or as here in this case Hebrew scriptures). But we are so intoxicated that we take them without getting them. We take them in dream. We transform them into our illusions, fantasies. They are not an idles claim. But we take them to be of that sort. We are like a parrot who speaks so many things without getting it. (We take these things as a mean of producing philosophies) this is the conspiracy of matrix. The matrix in hindu scriptures is given by the name “Maya”. The play of Maya is so intricate that it is like that demon who changes its face and can become anything. So, this maya makes us believe that we are aware in our very dream. The Gorakh’s famous sentence is “maya maha dhagini jani”.

    They are lining up the prisoners and the guards are taking aim,
    I struggled with the demons they were middle class and tame,
    I didn’t know I had a permission to murder and to maim,
    you want it darker, we kill the flame.

    So, it goes on. Since the matrix thrives on the contrast, it makes it always denser and denser with a constant lullaby which keeps us unconscious of its conspiracy. It shows up as our guard but it makes us prisoners and always keeps us on a target. It works in infinite ways in infinite forms. But an intoxicated one cannot see them in their reality. It tries to do a constant war in the dreamland. It tries to eradicate the very existence of the suffering without coming out of the dream. (these are our so called social reforms and development… they are very much on surface. In dream you want to eradicate everything, every sufferings, every sorrow without knowing the real cause of them. You try to change the things, people, society, government etc… but none will work… You would say you will totally eradicate the injustice.. But it does not have a face of its own….it is the demon changing faces all the time….so, you end up eradicating some faces and then you realize the injustice still survives… You cannot help yourself in nightmare except that you just got awake…there is no solution of dream (nightmare) by being in the dream).
    So, all in all, it is a tale of our actual state. “Hinneni, Hinneni” words come in between all the stanzas. This is the Hebrew word meaning “I am right here”. It shows an intense act to be conscious, to be aware, to be awake. It is a challenge to this matrix by being totally awake of its conspiracy. (You might be astonished to know that many intense representations of this in other forms of many religions are there. But the Hebrew scriptures (or the Jewish civilization) is distinct as it tries to confront this head on. The other representations have a slightly different approach. Like in Hindu Or Bodh way, they say there is “nothing” (“Shunyam”), it tells to be totally inactive to come out from the trap, the Zen has “tao”, the sufies have “Fayakun” all of them represent the same thing, whereas Hebrew scriptures take totally opposite approach to do intense effort to come out of it by boldly confronting the trap). In the broader aspect the Hebrew word “Henneni” also stands for the same thing but from the opposite way. If “Shunyam” tells there is nothing. When it says “I am nothing and I am nowhere” the Hebrew scripture tells “I am right here” or “I am now, here”. The former one speaks about the “I” as a one end in matrix or your apparent existence which is illusion, whereas the later tells about the “I” which is out of the duality of the matrix. An eternal presence which is now and here always. You can never revert it.

    ©Kalpesh Jani

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    Matrix, Maya...

    See in caption for what I understand and grasp of the following beautiful album song by Leonard Cohen..

    If you are the dealer, I am out of the game,
    If you are the healer, it means I am broken and lame,
    If thine is the glory then Mine must be the shame,
    You want it darker, we kill the flame….

    Magnified, Sanctified, be thy holy name,
    Vilified, crucified, in the human frame,
    A Million of candles burning for the help that never came,
    You want it darker, we kill the flame.

    There is a lover in the story but the story is still the same,
    There is a lullaby for suffering and a paradox to blame,
    But it is written in the scriptures and it is not an idle claim,
    you want it darker, we kill the flame….

    They are lining up the prisoners and the guards are taking aim,
    I struggled with the demons they were middle class and tame,
    I didn’t know I had a permission to murder and to maim,
    you want it darker, we kill the flame.

    By Leonard Cohen

    See in caption for what I understand and grasp of it....

  • kalpesh_jani 6w

    નવાં "હું" ની શોધમાં,
    દિવસના પેકિંગ નું રેપર ખોલ્યું,
    રાત્રે તેમાં થી ફરીથી
    એજ જૂનો "હું" પ્રગટ થયો
    ©kalpesh_jani

  • kalpesh_jani 6w

    અકળ વિકળ આ જગ સકળ,
    કહે નિજ ધ્વનિ હવે નીકળ,

    વરત વરત હવે વરત
    અજ્ઞાન માં છો તું સરત

    પ્રત્યેક તારી મંજૂષા,
    છે ચક્રીય, તરત તરત,

    કાંઈક એવી છે તારી સફર
    બધું ચલિત છતાં અફર

    ગતિ જ તારો છે ભરમ,
    ન દોડ્યા કર હવે વિરમ...
    ©kalpesh_jani

  • kalpesh_jani 7w

    આજે બસ બધું હું માત્ર જોવા બેઠો છું
    હોશ પૂર્વક આજે હોશ ખોવા બેઠો છું
    કશું બનવાની મથામણમાં ગુજારી જીંદગી,
    આજે તો બસ હું માત્ર "હોવા" બેઠો છું.
    ©kalpesh_jani
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