a sad person who laugh brightly
You called me LiarThe biggest liar on earth you sayYou called me pretenderThe best pretender on earth you sayYou called me scammerThe greatest scammer on earth you sayYou almost make me believe that I am.That old granny saved me"You are a good person, thank you so much"Just because you wanted me to feel unworthyDoesn't mean I have toI love you But I love myself more.Goodbye
Yes I amI stay longer than I shouldI cry longer than I shouldI love longer than I shouldAnd it's plain stupidity.I hate meI wish I could say,But truth to be told. I am proud of me.I am not hating I am not resentingI am just tryingTo be the best stupid version of meLove are meant to be given freeAm I not right?
I lose hope on loveLike a child lost in the desert lose hope for waterAnd there is nothing I can do about itThere is nothing we can do about itCan we?
Haven't I told you before" I am afraid to be in relationship"You said, you understand That "we are in this together"But now, you say this relationship is all about meYou were tired You fed up with my assumption and accusationsYou tired of being the only one giving effortsYou said you lose feelings towards me And you say, it's all my fault. Yes , it's all my fault For not being able to make you understandMy language of love. I wish you understand how afraid I were,But I accept you anywayI wish you understand how they lied and used meMaybe you won't be that mean to meI wish you see the stars in my eyes every time I look at youI wish you see the smile I gave every time I am with youI wish you heard my heart saying grace for having you every time I wish you see how exhausted I am dealing with my demon but I'm trying anyway. And maybe you won't blame me that much anymore
You say I am liar For saying I love youYou say I'm a pretenderI never even love you for real, rightYou say I am a scammerWait, what? This word are too modern But okay,For staying when you asked me to leave.Thank you, I gave up on You
As the day gets darkerThe mind wanderFloating in this small spaceZooming itself out to my eyes"God, please help me, I can't stand this anymore"Yes, I will remember you.I will remember those tearsHow it's too tight inside your chest you can't breath I will remember you.I will remember those sobs, those unheard cryBecause you don't want anyone to hearI wil remember you.How you wet your pillow every nightAnd I will remember you.How it's must be so hard waking up the other day But you did. I remember you. A strong soft hearted person who refuse to give up tho life is not so kind.I'm proud of you.
I wish I could freeze this moment
This shame and sadnessThis rejectionJust so I won't make the same mistake,Again.