Quotes and poetry by kaolyne

Identity

You called me Liar
The biggest liar on earth you say
You called me pretender
The best pretender on earth you say
You called me scammer
The greatest scammer on earth you say

You almost make me believe that I am.

That old granny saved me
"You are a good person, thank you so much"

Just because you wanted me to feel unworthy
Doesn't mean I have to
I love you
But I love myself more.
Goodbye

kaolyne 16w

Stupid

Yes I am
I stay longer than I should
I cry longer than I should
I love longer than I should
And it's plain stupidity.
I hate me
I wish I could say,
But truth to be told.
I am proud of me.
I am not hating
I am not resenting
I am just trying
To be the best stupid version of me
Love are meant to be given free
Am I not right?

kaolyne 16w

Hope

I lose hope on love
Like a child lost in the desert lose hope for water
And there is nothing I can do about it
There is nothing we can do about it
Can we?

kaolyne 17w

Haven't I told you before
" I am afraid to be in relationship"
You said, you understand
That "we are in this together"
But now, you say this relationship is all about me
You were tired
You fed up with my assumption and accusations
You tired of being the only one giving efforts
You said you lose feelings towards me
And you say, it's all my fault.

Yes , it's all my fault
For not being able to make you understand
My language of love.

I wish you understand how afraid I were,
But I accept you anyway
I wish you understand how they lied and used me
Maybe you won't be that mean to me
I wish you see the stars in my eyes every time I look at you
I wish you see the smile I gave every time I am with you
I wish you heard my heart saying grace for having you every time
I wish you see how exhausted I am dealing with my demon but I'm trying anyway.
And maybe you won't blame me that much anymore

kaolyne 17w

You say I am liar
For saying I love you

You say I'm a pretender
I never even love you for real, right

You say I am a scammer
Wait, what? This word are too modern
But okay,
For staying when you asked me to leave.

Thank you, I gave up on You

kaolyne 17w

Remember me

As the day gets darker
The mind wander
Floating in this small space
Zooming itself out to my eyes

"God, please help me, I can't stand this anymore"

Yes, I will remember you.
I will remember those tears
How it's too tight inside your chest you can't breath
I will remember you.
I will remember those sobs, those unheard cry
Because you don't want anyone to hear
I wil remember you.
How you wet your pillow every night
And I will remember you.
How it's must be so hard waking up the other day
But you did.

I remember you. A strong soft hearted person who refuse to give up tho life is not so kind.
I'm proud of you.

kaolyne 17w

I wish I could freeze this moment

This shame and sadness
This rejection
Just so I won't make the same mistake,
Again.