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  • kenyettajohnson 5w

    Surviving The Game 1
    Survive the game
    They call it street life
    But if I don't hustle
    I don't eat


    Survive the game
    They call it street life
    But if I don't hustle
    I don't eat

    It's been so many times
    I was grateful for the hustle
    Some say it ain't right
    But who are they to judge

    I feel like this don't nobody owe me shit
    And I don't owe them
    And who is anyone to judge
    I'm sure the ones pointing the fingers
    Are not angels themselves

    It's funny how I got in this game
    It's like it was already calling my name
    All of of sudden I made to Memphis, Tennessee and it seemed like the wind even blew different
    It was like Tia come out and play
    The streets chose me not the other way around

    One sunny Sunday afternoon and I was pushing my middle son in a stroller while holding the hand of a 2 year old walking
    Then guys kept stopping on every corner I got to offering me money and offered to by my kids stuff
    Like I was gonna say know no
    So I finally got In the truck with this guy offered to buy me baby pampers and wipes alone with $50 for some top

    So I asked my homegirl I met that worked at the bus station to watch the kids for me then I rode with the guy parked at Mud Island and it was on from there I been getting money ever since

    I had made a friend from Wisconsin and me and her had a baby the same age her little baby was so cute his name was Dae Dae like the character off Friday me and her stayed together for a while in the Salvation Army until she got out because she signed up for the free apartment and you have to pass drug test regularly and you can't have visitors Me and her fell out when she moved plus I didn't want to jeopardize her losing her apartment sneaking me my kids in

    I was involved with church members who I met through the Salvation army and let me tell you they loved my kids it was 3 women from church I dealt with
    They gave me and my kids so much stuff that me and the one named Reesa became tight friends and I never missed a Sunday of going to their church it was Catholic and when we went to church the 1st time it scared me because one of the girls named Trina would get the holy ghost and start screaming to the top of her lungs at church and falling on the floor and she look like a young girl that would not do all that it was funny and entertaining though and I got free stuff for going with them until I moved

    Now before I moved I had got introduced to cocaine there was a young lady from Milwaukee that stayed at the shelter was telling me a story about her past that she did it and once she had gotten robbed or something like a deal gone bad or something she had a teenager little girl that stayed with her I told her I wanted to try it one day so I met this guy I gave him $60 and he got it for me we got a room on my weekend pass and it was on from there I was instantly hooked

    It didn't leave a smell like weed it's out the system in 4 days and it made me happy and I worried less
    I was in loved with a married man I had met there and when I finally went my own way it helped me cope with alot of stuff happening in my life

    Finally the deal came through with my homeboy Debt on a 10,000 loan that we had to split 4 ways and it came just on time for me to move out the Shelter got a new suite to stay in with the kids and I had them about $400 worth of Christmas clothes in hanging in the closet and I also got them toys then I moved up the street out of the suite to some apartments so I didn't just blow my 2,500 I used it wisely

    I cleaned my apartment and said prayers in every room in the apartment I payed the light bill I had a blow up bed but my boss at work and her husband gave me two beds for my boys to sleep in and they gave us kids furniture it was a cute little kitchen table and 2 kiddie chairs
    While I cooked fish and fries and hot wings and burgers on the regular the kids sit at the table and I served them their plates I loved being a mom and they grew so fast now they are taller than me

    When I had moved from Salvation army I was working a full time job and I had signed my kids up for angel tree it took me so long to go get when they decided to deliver it someone had already stolen my kids toys off the truck that was so low down but at least my kids was already blessed I had bought them alot with the 2,500 I had plus my mom dad and uncle and the in laws had bought the kids alot of stuff and I remember my cousin who moved to Memphis,tn long before I did came to see me and my kids at my apartment and she surprised me with a big box of baby pampers and wipes that was so sweet

    I have had some good times in Memphis and also had quite a few bad times and my cousin Lea had warned me to be careful because it alot of shisty people out there and believe me I know making it through North Memphis was like making it though the boot camp for the military lol this is no lie

    Also with my $2,500 I had to pay $300 out of that money to have an abortion make a long story short I went to the country to a party with a guy and his son I was only supposed to be dancing but I got really drunk and end up having relations with a stranger I didn't know anything about him I didn't know who the daddy was and I was embarrassed so I made the decision to abort and it hurt like hell because they had to do it twice so it was twins I was young and in a panic but now I look back at it and I'm like damn I should have kept those twins because now my tubes tied and ai can't even have anymore

    After that my life was ok for a while mom and sis came to see me once dad and bro came to see me and now looking back the last time I remember being completely happy with my life is when I lived in Memphis, Tn

    I had a best friend and she used up all my foodstamps but yes she paid at first and she did babysit for me we made up eventually and by the time we did I found out I was pregnant again with the last one and I moved back to Mississippi and I been pretty much stuck here ever since
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  • kenyettajohnson 5w

    Listen


    Dear manager since you are my manager I wanted to know can you talk mom into letting us


    Dear manager since you are my manager I wanted to know can you talk mom into letting us borrow $300 to make a video to here I come I will pay her back a payment plan like $30 a week please talk her into it we gonna hit the world with a big bang 2021 I will become famous and it's the lord's will that has granted me the power 


    Once I get the video put the face with voice then get radio play they will love that I have a video finally a face with a voice is what they been waiting on


    Then we will make a portfolio with everything I have done and go to different radio stations and ask them to play it I won't it on the radio down there and Memphis tn and I don't think putting it on the radio in Jackson is a good idea Jackson folks be jealous of me and my talents lol 


    So I had a vision 10 years ago that I was redoing mother dearest in the studio with 8 ball from Memphis and you told me to re do it and I'm thinking of moving bak to Memphis asap once I'm famous and I believe and feel like mother dearest is going to make me famous fast I opened a bank account trying to save $300 for video and $75 to record it mastered by then I should be able  to afford the second video myself but by u being my manager I hope you can help me pay for studio time after mother dearest I got one more called vip if we split it that would be $30 a piece again and if mom pays for the here I come video then you can pay for the Mother dearest video and I can pay you back later on a payment plan


    And then I will ask daddy tommy to help me pay for the vip video if he doesn't then I will figure something out but those 3 songs I'm gonna be pushing hard for the album titled (MsKrazieK) One Mission
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  • kenyettajohnson 5w

    Crunch time

    Crunch Time
    Look and listen up Every body
    Right now it's bright and Early
    Getting my shine on


    Baked bar b que chicken
    Corn on a cob
    Baked beans
    Salad
    That was menu


    I need: neck surgery
    Left Side surgery
    Back surgery
    Left tooth surgery 

    The first thing I wanted to do with the loan money pay the taxes on the business Buy me car buy me a place to stay then buy a building to open the cafe at and restaurant equipment 



    Turkey Caserile Noodle Soup: Tuckey Neck_Turkey Legs_Ramen Noodles (soy sauce blue pack)_1 stick of butter_Lemon Pepper 1 cup=1 can of whole corn=1 can of sweet peas

    $1 Menu: A Bologna Sandwich: Mayo_Mustard_Tomatoe_Pickle_Toasted Bread/ or $2 Combo: Comes with Plain chips and a Faygo Soda
    Breakfast: $1 Waffle: Butter_Maple Syrup= (or Combo) for $2: 2 Waffles _and 1 cup of Coffee_ comes with maple syrup and butter 

    Time to get my own business
    It's Crunch time

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    ©kenyettajohnson

  • kenyettajohnson 5w

    Lord help me

    Lord help me please
    This skitzo guy I'm with is driving me crazy
    Then he says it seems like I be running from him
    Well I do it's like give me a fucken break
    Oh God help me:

    Then he talks in his sleep all night saying thank u jesus and last night I woke up screaming in a night mare because I was burning up he had 3 heaters on like it was 1 below zero like it was snowing outside I cant wait to get my own place I'm going to cherish it:

    And the next time I get my own place I'm not gonna ever leave
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  • kenyettajohnson 6w

    It's Ok If You can't help

    It's ok If you can't help

    It's of if u cant help
    If the answer is no I about helping me with a car ok will u still file my taxes then
    I was only working a month before Corona came
    When I file my taxes it may not be much of nothing since my mom has custody of my children for the last 10 years of my life and I have tried everything to try and get on my feet because I had too much pride before to ask my mom for help sometimes I had almost felt like I didn't deserve anything from her I even questioned for a while was she even my real mom and now I just accepted her I realized all the running and trying to replace her landed me right back in the same place every time after all the traveling and searching trying to fulfill that empty feeling and I always wondered to myself if she wasn't my real mom why did she want my kids so badly since they were a part of me
    Doctors say I am bi-polor so I have alot of depression sometimes and because of the bi-polar I believe maybe that is why it has taking me so long to get a stepping stone to get back on my feet but I don't have custody of my kids so I can't receive any government assistance to make it easier for me so if it's not meant for me go get any type of stepping stone then maybe God has something else in store for me and if he does then there is a God like I was raised to believe so it has to be something planned for me since everything else I tried failed even when I was only an inch from getting back on my feet it's like oh God if you was not trying to get my attention before you sure have all of my undivided attention now for sure
    You know how messed up stuff will happen and knock you down and you be likeoh I can fix that mistake I made this time in a hurry next thing you know 20 years go by then you still ain't got back on your feet then you looking like me like damn I am so shocked how my life turned out and I still don't have a place of my own yet and I still don't have a car yet and I still ain't famous yet but I am going to keep believing in myself even if it takes me until I get 50 years old I'm still going to keep trying I have no other Choice
    And yes it's true I hate asking my family for help with anything it makes me feel like less than a person and I am somewhat too hard on myself but I guess it's because I was so sensitive and let negative emotions in the past get me down but that curse has been broken and nothing negative is apart of my life anymore
    I want mom to finally be proud of something I did not just for me but for the family like I paid off the house for family and I bought the business for my family and I wrote that book and became famous for my family and that feeling will be so awesome and that day will be so awesome to say I finally completed a task that didn't just benefited me but also my family had a success story to be apart of with me I mean when I rise they rise and instead of me always needing them to provide for me for once in my life I want to be able to provide them with their needs
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  • kenyettajohnson 6w

    Lord Knows
    Lord knows I made a big mistake giving up my rooming house to come stay with this


    Lord knows I made a big mistake giving up my rooming house to come stay with this miserable old man and they say misery loves company and I find that to become quite true I mean damn he wants to control every move I make and tells me when I gotta go to bed but he can't sleep laying down because of a bad car wreck he was in 6 years old I know he has collan cancer and is dying slow but damn does he to take it out on me it's like living with my grandmother when I was a child and so damn boring I can't go out the bedroom door because I'm letting out the heat and a towel had to stay at the bottom of the door and one at the top of the door and I am ocd germaphobe and I like to wash my hands alot so I washed my hands just with a rag in the room and soap on the rag and a 85 cents bottle of water then he completely complains about how much of the water I used to wash my hands so I I offered him 85 cents for the water to show how petty a foolish it is about how he be tripping over something so petty then I realized he old he probably didn't have anything better to do then we pee in a bucket in the room because the rest of the house is too cold no central heat since he has cancer I understand why he is so cold plus he can only sleep sitting up in his chair so every move I make bothering him like if I toss in the bed to change position and if I drink a bottle of water and the bottle popped it wakes him up then he turn down the radio completely and have to listen to him smack his teeth and sck his teeth and talk to himself all night saying thank you Jesus all night which is ongoing until he finally gets asleep about 3 or 4am and he acts like I'm the problem im very frustrated with him and feel very depressed and disgusted with his funky attitude then he yells at me and tells me I need to go to sleep because me breathing or moving around or anything makes him start back hurting and it drives me crazy to the point that I want to leave tomorrow and go get a hotel room so I can get a complete night that I can wash my hands listen to music all night long stay up and type working on my Poetry book damn I got no freedom to do what I want to do he acts like it bothers him so much damn I just gave him $20 to get of my back I am going to the emergency room in the morning about my back I'm over here not bothering him at all but he says I need to go to sleep I been living In hotels the last 2 months to get a break from him and now I'm back and its even worse than before he the one making all the noise bothering me and he is going to talk to himself saying thank you Jesus all night but if I get up to pee he gets a fucking attitude and does he really think that is gonna make me want to stay if my back wasn't injured I would have been ran away again for at least 3 days or more I'm going to go to sleep now while thinking to myself again God I hate my life gud nite Tia and hold my pee because if I get up to many times he starts bitchen and complaining which runs me off it drives me fucken crazy he is like schizophrenic and I understand that but I tolerate it for much longer and even though my back feels broke I gotta plan a exit break getaway again to rest and relive some stress he is talking to hisself right now and I'm not about to keep taking my money and sharing my pain meds with him when I be in so much pain then I only have a small amount then he be screaming at me treating me like shit and he doesn't deserve for me to share the last of my pain meds and then dogs me out afterwards hell he be so cheap anyway when he pay he only wanna pay $25 and I will spend $50 or $60 enough for both of us to share but his ass wanna be cheap and then tell me how much I can do it's like what's the point of me getting high with him if I can't enjoy it every minute I have when I'm high it's like my meditation when I get the best ideas and I'm not in pain I don't need him in my way if I can't enjoy it or do it how I want to do it my energy is wasted and I'm getting high for nothing so I would rather not get high at all if I can't enjoy it or use the energy to meditate and work on my book but i have to be quite and shut up and go to sleep but he over there talking outloud to himself all night long irritating the fuck out of me Thank you Jesus and um hum all night when I'm trying to sleep but do u hear me complaining no but I'm gonna take a break and let him know I don't have to take the bullshit I'm so done I'm going to go stay in a hotel again for a few days and tell him I'm at my dad's like I always do so I can watch cable enjoy my high writing my book which is something that I love to do without dude telling me when I can eat sleep shit shower and piss it's call6a freedom break and I have to do this because I may have a psychotic break if I don't get a break from his controlling annoying ass lol
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  • kenyettajohnson 6w

    Fareel Fareel
    Fareel Fareel what is the deal
    You don't even know how I feel
    Have you ever been


    Fareel Fareel what is the deal
    You don't even know how I feel
    Have you ever been around someone who made you feel miserable
    No matter what I did for him it wasn't good enough for him
    So why would I even continue to go out if my way to ever do anything for him again
    Fareel Fareel
    What's the deal
    Do you know how I feel
    He makes me feel like shit
    No matter what happens nothing is never good enough for him
    I even catch myself sometimes thinking to myself that I can't wait until he dies
    Now I got this man 2 beers Modello
    But they were the wrong kind
    He screamed at me and threw a tantrum
    Instead of saying that wasn't the kind I wanted but thanks for going out of your way for even trying
    That would have been the better response
    Fareel Fareel
    What is the deal
    This nigga makes me feel
    Like why should I even have a heart
    Or play that part like I give a dam
    Because the woman that I am will completely shut down
    And block him out with a frown
    No response not even a sound
    Because I am so done with trying
    What is the point
    When I get no respect
    This retard ass nigga should not talk to me like that
    Fareel Fareel
    What's the deal
    Do you know how I feel
    He didn't talk th o his friends like that
    So give me the same respect
    Like I just told him
    You fuck up your blessings like that
    I was going to keep you but now
    I feel like once I leave never turn back
    But I don't wanna do him like that
    Fareel Fareel
    What's the deal
    Do you know how I feel
    I'm laying down the law shut the fuck up
    I'm playing the game raw
    Because how you treat me
    I'm going to treat you that way back
    And I'm not going to give a fuck
    I am so sick of it
    I just want to give up
    I gotta get on my feet and once I do
    I will come back to visit you
    But bring you along
    Will make me so depressed
    In my new home
    I am going to move back in with my mom
    And leave you wear you at
    Until you learn to control your tounge
    Your body is 63
    But your brain is definitely young
    Do you think I'm stupid or dumb
    Because I am young
    I still most definitely know
    When I'm being disrespected
    And one day most definitely
    You will regret that
    Fareel Fareel
    What's the deal
    Do you know what I feel
    You make me ed l like shit
    With your words they cut like swords
    But I beeak that curse
    You better respect your free nurse
    One day you gonna need me
    And God already broke that curse
    You dished out every time you scream and shout
    But it's over now
    Me my mom's moved out of town
    When I was homeless
    You kicked me while I was down
    Treated me like shit
    Because you knew I was vulnerable
    And you could get away with it
    Now it's time to fight back
    Ain't no more hopping in the sack
    Silence as I keep my secret
    How I know you just
    Fucked up your blessing with me
    I forgave you once before
    But you can't change
    I can't take it no more
    Fareel Fareel
    I'm looking like
    God free me from this deal
    His name is Will
    Fareel Fareel
    ©kenyettajohnson

  • kenyettajohnson 6w

    Shoes

    So Willie bought me some very nice boots but he says I can't wear them with a trick only when I'm walking up the street to the store with him so how pretty is that lol so I say well I quit selling pussy then if I'm not good enough to wear the damn boots so I say my job good enuff 4 u to put my hoe money up ur nose but this hoe ain't gud enough to wear ur boots so I say 2 can play that game since I can't  wear the petty ass boots I gave them back them back and said I will go by my own pair just like them lol  now all of of sudden I  say I'm going to go get a job tomorrow I quit selling pussy and I'm done buying him medicine when he hurting in pain all night and now u better believe how his childish ass tune changed now he said he don't care what I do with the boots and he gonna set them on fire now oh he was just playing with me well yeah rite he fucked up being pretty and childish from the door because I am not going to accept being disrespected and unappreciated and when a person do me dirty I let them  get  away with it but they will get punished because once I cut them out of my life for good they be regretting that shit I just hate when niggas act like I'm not good enough for them because of the type of job I got but when I got some bread they always begging like that money good enough for you to spend but that woman who made that money ain't good enough for you because you feel like that ain't no real job but let me tell you something it may not be a 9 to 5 clock in job but baby I  work and I earn money I'm up working  to survive every day and I don't beg nobody for anything and I take care of myself I'm not out here stealing or robbing I'm earning my pay and I deserve and demand my respect now alot of these niggas out here wishing I would stay with them and be their women naw it's to late because when they had their chance they didn't even want they felt like I didn't have anything to offer or bring to the table because I  didn't have any check stubs but I like alot of white guys anyway because they understand what I do and they accept me as I am and they don't judge me they let me be me they take time to get to know me when all these African American men care about is how big my ass is and insult me and when they see me  marrying white guys and spending the night with white guys they get hateful and jealous of that but they had a chance  before and they didn't even want me in the first place but then when they see that my skinny white girl ass got brains they only get interested so they figure out how to use me and back in the day it bothered me that African American men didn't want me because my ass was too flat and talked to proper and now it's like just get your nut and pay me I'm not interested in any of these niggas and the guy I'm with now is just convenient because he is old he is 63 and he said he wants to die happy he has collan cancer and his legs are messed up because he was in a massive car wreck 6 years ago he want me to stay with him like a last good memory to him before he dies and because I am divorced and been on my own for a year I agreed to stay with him plus I needed a place to stay when daddy kicked me out the house after my sister had gotten sick I was literally homeless with no place to go at all so I was staying at hotels then I got blessed with the rooming house but somebody hated on me when they seen me with a white guy on listcrawlers in the jacuzzi at the Marriot on high street and blocked me from listcrawlers and I lost alot of my $400 clients but they tried to break me and God still blessed me with Willie and if it wasn't for him I would still be bussing my ass trying to pay for those high ass hotel rooms I been living in I just had to show off a video of me and a white guy having a spend the night date in the hot tub but like Tip say it's just motivation and its funny how these African American Niggas be hating when they see that a white guy actually wanted me but when they had all the chances in the world to fuck with me they  didn't think I was good enough for them because I sold pussy for a living but the minute a white guy wants me the African American men act like they own me or something but I am not a slave to nobody and y'all niggas know y'all dont even fuck with my kind because I am creole its fucked up that society is so hateful that these African American men don't want me but don't want anyone else to have me either so because I am the way I am is it that they feel I don't deserve to  have anyone Hi I fuck with the ones that fuck with me and I want the ones that want me I just want those niggas to stop hating on me y'all don't see me hating on them and they big booty baby mama's and that's the women they chose for the specific reason then that is who the fuck they should be with and who the fuck they should be worried about quit hating on me the girl you could have had but looked over now that this flower has blossomed and turned into a shining star rising they show interest oh no that is not how it works with me when y'all African American men took 20 years too long to mature I was busy falling in love with white guys and that is how it is and that is always how it will be and to my God Brother I like it better this way only being just a sister to you rather than being your wife although we had plans to hook back up later on after you had more children with someone else because mmytubes were tied as much as I wanted to and you know  that I  could no longer have children you told me that I be around too many different men and I wasn't good enough to hold your baby but yeah bak then it did hurt my feelings  but I got over it I am a very sensitive person and I would do anything for anyone that needed help with something and that is also why people always have taken my kindness for a weakness after that I became numb once a person crosses me or breaks my heart I forgive them for what they did but they will never ever get the opportunity to hurt me again my guards stay up but then I may give you one more chance if the person apologizes for the mistake they made but as soon as they show a sign that they not going to do right I immediately put my guard on anyway I remember the time I needed a place to stay and you told me no I can't stay with you because I sell pussy for a living and why don't I get a real job like everyone else and if it were that easy for me to do don't you think I would have done it and anyways my job of selling pussy is a real job I am an escort and I provide a service no matter how some people try to down talk my  job they just don't know how grateful I am to have it although I sometimes secretly hated myself for it because I let others get in my head and try to down grade me but inside I always knew who I was and that is all that matters and my mama always told me if you gonna be a whore you gonna be the best damn whore it is and I had to reevaluate myself I had finally landed a real job a some how I felt accepted by everyone else and I thought maybe I'm good enough now for one of those African American men then God had hit us with the Covit_19 on planet earth and I was back to being an escort and dad put me out I got robbed of my unemployment check fucking with one of those African American men and that's when reality hit and I  realized none of them will ever really care about me or value my friendship because I'm not like them I don't act like them I don't think like them I don't fit in with them and I never will they only want to use me for their benefit it's been like that since I was a teenager when I was 16 I always had a nice car I had alot of nice jewelry and those were the good old days and right now Willie wants to marry me and he says he can sign me up as his nurse on his disability and I can get a check for taking care of him and if he died I would still have the check because he was married to him and I know that it's true because my dad mentioned it to me before so I plan to marry Willie since he already proposed and if he died before me I would immediately find the white guy of my dreams and marry him right I do plan to be famous soon and once I'm famous I should be able to get any white guy of my choice and I am not saying this to be spiteful or to get back at you but I have to do what's best for me and I know that you care for me and I care for you but like sister and brother relationships are supposed to be we will always be able to work on music together but us having a relationship romantically was dead the day we met when we both knew  that I could not give you what you wanted and that was kids so we should not have sex anymore it's too weird for me Godbrothther I really feel like you are my real brother plus I'm old you are young and active just because sell pussy does not mean I have alot of sex one or two old man quickies a day and I  have enough to get everything I need and all Willie wants to do is eat pussy life ain't gonna get get no better than that lol I better appreciate what I got before I'm left by my damn self.
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  • kenyettajohnson 7w

    Different
    Different faces
    Different races

    Wrong mixtures
    No fixtures

    Messed up species
    Messed


    Different faces
    Different races

    Wrong mixtures
    No fixtures

    Messed up species
    Messed up thesis

    Irresponsible teenagers
    The worlds screwed up enablers

    I shouldn't have been born
    Angel mixed with demon scorn

    Different faces
    Different races

    Wrong mixtures
    No fixtures

    Messed up species
    Messed up thesis

    Irresponsible teenagers
    The worlds screwed up enablers

    I shouldn't have been born
    Angel mixed with demon scorn
    ©kenyettajohnson

  • kenyettajohnson 7w

    Tired Of Getting Played

    Tired of Getting played
    Tired of Getting played
    Tired of Getting played
    Tired of Getting played

    Tired of Getting played
    Used and Abused
    Tired of Getting played
    My heart is so bruised
    Tired of Getting played
    I am so confused
    ©kenyettajohnson