khadijachughtai

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of all the people I have lost, I miss myself the most

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  • khadijachughtai 1d

    Make sure your personal space is not invaded.

    'Too close and that might suffocate you.
    Too exposed and you will be killed.'

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  • khadijachughtai 3d

    this being someone
    this existing,
    making an appearance
    wherever I am needed
    it's so tiring
    i want to disappear
    where my name and reputation
    will not follow me
    neither anyone's expectations
    I want to hide
    where I can feel unnoticed
    and tend to myself
    I can take off my armour
    of strength and pretend
    unwind and reorder me
    with no shame or guilt
    I want to stop feeling
    for the ungrateful world
    that's surrounding me
    and spilling on me its secrets
    which I find hard to keep
    but I keep ;
    'just for a little while'
    I want 'to not be'
    or longer maybe
    until I detox and recover

    Khadija Chughtai

  • khadijachughtai 5d

    I am only a messenger
    when I declare
    they are gone
    they are dying
    there is nothing that can be done
    i let them cry over their loved ones
    with barely anything to console
    I hide what I feel for them
    I am not allowed to disclose
    I pray for them with sealed lips
    and hands tied
    I sometimes wish
    I could stop
    and put my own life on standby
    so I don't have to see
    another soul in pain,
    another man die
    or another person saying
    a last goodbye

    Khadija Chughtai // A doctor's life

  • khadijachughtai 5d

    I have stopped trying to be happy
    happiness is a thing so scary
    sometimes it leaves before it arrives
    why should I wait for it?
    all I want or try is 'not to be sad'
    but things always come with consequences
    and sadness is a loyal friend
    stays when I want it gone
    it gets diaplaced with temporary emotions
    but never leaves me on my own
    If I am an ocean
    for me it's the ocean's depth
    engulfs all that comes
    or sail it away
    and when I am distracted
    by the moon's magnetic touch
    having an impact
    from a great distance
    it pulls me back
    to where I belong,
    where I am owned,
    In a cold dark world
    where sadness is a must

    ©Khadija Chughtai

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    If I am an ocean
    for me sadness is the ocean's depth
    engulfs all that comes
    or sail it away
    and when I am distracted
    by the moon's magnetic touch
    having an impact
    from a great distance
    it pulls me back
    to where I belong,
    where I am owned,
    In a cold dark world
    where sadness is a must

    ©Khadija Chughtai

  • khadijachughtai 1w

    our every step is guided
    even if we are lost
    I firmly believe in a miracle
    called 'H O P E'

    ©Khadija Chughtai

  • khadijachughtai 1w

    Strength fills us
    as we bear
    the unbearable.

    Khadija Chughtai

  • khadijachughtai 1w

    Why do you keep coming back
    like I am important to you?
    if my existence meant much,
    you would never have left.

    ©Khadija Chughtai

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  • khadijachughtai 1w

    Many things make me sad. Thinking about the kind of lives we are living make me sadder.


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    The world I stepped in was simpler and better
    No rush for things, no chase of glamour
    People were living under one roof as family
    Now they care more about their privacy
    Being honest and real is old fashioned
    Being fake and mean is hot and trendy
    Manners are a thing of past
    We are badly split in creed and cast
    Money is the only solid game
    Leaving character behind, they run after fame
    Now envy is the fastest growing disease
    Turning friends and family into enemies
    The jewels of respect and dignity and nowhere
    With polluted minds they think of a clean atmosphere
    Sinners judging sinners is so in practise
    I am sure the world wasn't made for this
    Seems like earth is a big ball of mess
    I feel like running away I confess

    Khadija Chughtai

  • khadijachughtai 1w

    Not everyone can be saved.

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    She wanted to fix the broken
    but ended up broken with no fix.

    ©Khadija Chughtai