Mirakee
You
You make me feel like I am safe when I feel most afraid
You give me hope when all seems lost
You light up my world when everything is dark
You gift your love when you yourself are struggling
You reassure me when my mind drifts to dark places
You hold me when I'm crying
You satisfy all my senses when we make love
You bring out the adventurous side when I'm feeling shy
You tell me welcome to my new normal when I question your kind actions
You send me flower just because its Tuesday
You kiss me and the world comes to a halt
Nothing in my life has ever felt like you
I'm afraid this is all a dream
I'll wake up and you'll be gone
But every day I open my eyes your still there
Thank you for being you
You dont know how much you mean to me
I hope someday I can fully find the words to express how much I love you.
How much I feel like you are my missing puzzle piece
How much you are my mate
I can't wait to hold you in my arms again
With your scent surrounding me
And your heartbeat pounding into mine
I can't wait to give you a family
I can't wait to be your family
I can't wait to love you fully.
kitsuneski
He gives me hope
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kitsuneski
1w
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kitsuneski
2w
I am so God damn fucking tired of hurting.
I am too kind.
I trust too easily.
I love too hard.
I laugh too loud.
And all to hide how much I hurt.
I am so God damn fucking tired of hurting.
I open my heart
In hopes of love to be poured in...
Yet it seems, all it does is dry out...
Cracked and withered...
Hurt with lies...
I am so God damn fucking tired of hurting.
Enough water to fill a lake...
Have flowed from these sockets...
Empty and hollow...
Dark and puffy...
Red and sad...
I am so God damn fucking tired of hurting...
Will it ever stop? -
kitsuneski
2w
I will never be her again.
And that is a good thing. -
kitsuneski
3w
Hundreds of miles can't stop the love I feel for you.
Thanks to this day and age, every day we talk...
Still I look forward to writing you letters and reading yours again and again and again...
I look forward to your embrace... like a starving human longing for nourishment... days without water and that first sip... will be like ecstasy...
When your lips touch mine... I'll feel whole once more.
My only regret leaving the frozen north... leaving you behind...
59 days and counting till I get the honor of holding you again...
59 days and counting till I get the honor of loving you fully...
59 days...
Both so close yet so far...
Hundreds of miles can't stop the love I feel for you... -
kitsuneski
4w
Once I was told...
I dance beautifully to the melody of chaos...
When there's nothing else you've known...
You learn the moves... -
kitsuneski
4w
When will I sleep well again?
Or will I forever see what you did to me...
Feel what you did to me...
Forever?
On repeat. On replay. On loop.
The pain. The fear. The hate. The betrayal.
Loop after loop...
Tears wake me up...
It all feels so fresh.
Why now?
Weeks of nothing... now this...
Why this? -
kitsuneski
4w
Why do I torment myself so
Looking at her
Shes beautiful
Fit, thin, great smile, gorgeous skin, eyes of the oceans and sky...
Why do I compare...
Feeling so defeated
180 of her appearance
Why do I torment myself so
Looking at her
Shes beautiful
And I... am only cute with a filter -
kitsuneski
5w
Worthless
Useless
Homeless
Jobless
Few possessions
Couch hopping
Feeling so
Out
Of
Place
But okami says... he still loves me...
I can't help but doubt.
For years... beaten into me...
I'm nothing without money....
Would never marry without money...
Was never good enough...
For years....
But okami says... he still loves me...
And I have no idea why.... -
kitsuneski
5w
Will I ever feel like I belong somewhere? I ask myself.
Absolutely! The optimist says...
Maybe some day.... the pessimist says....
Never.... the instinct says...
That forever feeling...
As long as I can remember...
As far as I can see...
I hope that I'm wrong...
I was always taught though...
Hope for the best...
Expect the worst.... -
kitsuneski
5w
Its a night of insecurities...
He's had more than I...
He knows exactly what he's doing...
He's ridiculously talented and beyond caring...
He says he has eyes only for me...
He tells me he loves me and wants a family with me. Actually wants a family with me...
So why is there this vicious little voice in the back of my head...
Telling me I'm not worthy...
Why do I still hear that voice telling me I'm a burden and lazy...
That I've let myself go and need to work out to be any level attractive...
That I should starve myself to be the size I think I should be for him...
That I'll never amount to anything without the help of another...
Swamp monster that I feel...
Self loathing rooted so deep...
I dont want to burden him.
I dont want to disappoint him.
I'm afraid I'll become boring to him...
I don't want to loose him...
I'm afraid he will change his mind...
It's a night of insecurities...
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Love
Her smile shines bright
A soul so pure and loving
With her I am found©usmcokami
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The true path
Be unapologetically you,
The rest fallow -
Earned by few, enjoyed by all
©usmcokami -
Still Hiding
I sometimes wish that you would share the pain. But I know that you wouldn't tell me the truth, would never accept that there are parts of you that still grieve the day you left us without a word, because it has always been easier for you to hide in the shadows of lies than to face the truths that bleed.
©voice_of_the_void -
Expectations
Everything ends eventually no matter your expectations.
I'm cutting off what's not meant for me without any hesitation.
It occured to me my boundaries caused you quiet a few frustrations.
So you slandered me and played victim out of your own desperation.
You dropped your mask revealing your lack of spiritual education.
Only after you picked me apart without any consideration.
Yet I know who I am regardless of your various manipulations.
I'm at a point in my journey now guided solely by constellations.
Taking time to learn my stars which upgrades my communication.
Getting to know myself this way takes deeper concentration.
I don't expect you to understand so I'll take it out the equation.
To sum it up this chapter is called self- love and dedication.
I'm not sorry at all if that caused your plans any complication.
Everything ends eventually no matter our expectations.
Growth is finding peace in that regardless of the situation.
Even lessons that are hard to learn deserves appreciation.
©ahomsey
