kitsuneski

He gives me hope

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  • kitsuneski 1w

    You
    You make me feel like I am safe when I feel most afraid
    You give me hope when all seems lost
    You light up my world when everything is dark
    You gift your love when you yourself are struggling
    You reassure me when my mind drifts to dark places
    You hold me when I'm crying
    You satisfy all my senses when we make love
    You bring out the adventurous side when I'm feeling shy
    You tell me welcome to my new normal when I question your kind actions
    You send me flower just because its Tuesday
    You kiss me and the world comes to a halt
    Nothing in my life has ever felt like you
    I'm afraid this is all a dream
    I'll wake up and you'll be gone
    But every day I open my eyes your still there
    Thank you for being you
    You dont know how much you mean to me
    I hope someday I can fully find the words to express how much I love you.
    How much I feel like you are my missing puzzle piece
    How much you are my mate
    I can't wait to hold you in my arms again
    With your scent surrounding me
    And your heartbeat pounding into mine
    I can't wait to give you a family
    I can't wait to be your family
    I can't wait to love you fully.

  • kitsuneski 2w

    I am so God damn fucking tired of hurting.
    I am too kind.
    I trust too easily.
    I love too hard.
    I laugh too loud.
    And all to hide how much I hurt.
    I am so God damn fucking tired of hurting.
    I open my heart
    In hopes of love to be poured in...
    Yet it seems, all it does is dry out...
    Cracked and withered...
    Hurt with lies...
    I am so God damn fucking tired of hurting.
    Enough water to fill a lake...
    Have flowed from these sockets...
    Empty and hollow...
    Dark and puffy...
    Red and sad...
    I am so God damn fucking tired of hurting...
    Will it ever stop?

  • kitsuneski 2w

    I will never be her again.
    And that is a good thing.

  • kitsuneski 3w

    Hundreds of miles can't stop the love I feel for you.
    Thanks to this day and age, every day we talk...
    Still I look forward to writing you letters and reading yours again and again and again...
    I look forward to your embrace... like a starving human longing for nourishment... days without water and that first sip... will be like ecstasy...
    When your lips touch mine... I'll feel whole once more.
    My only regret leaving the frozen north... leaving you behind...
    59 days and counting till I get the honor of holding you again...
    59 days and counting till I get the honor of loving you fully...
    59 days...
    Both so close yet so far...
    Hundreds of miles can't stop the love I feel for you...

  • kitsuneski 4w

    Once I was told...
    I dance beautifully to the melody of chaos...
    When there's nothing else you've known...
    You learn the moves...

  • kitsuneski 4w

    When will I sleep well again?
    Or will I forever see what you did to me...
    Feel what you did to me...
    Forever?
    On repeat. On replay. On loop.
    The pain. The fear. The hate. The betrayal.
    Loop after loop...
    Tears wake me up...
    It all feels so fresh.
    Why now?
    Weeks of nothing... now this...
    Why this?

  • kitsuneski 4w

    Why do I torment myself so
    Looking at her
    Shes beautiful
    Fit, thin, great smile, gorgeous skin, eyes of the oceans and sky...
    Why do I compare...
    Feeling so defeated
    180 of her appearance
    Why do I torment myself so
    Looking at her
    Shes beautiful
    And I... am only cute with a filter

  • kitsuneski 5w

    Worthless
    Useless
    Homeless
    Jobless
    Few possessions
    Couch hopping
    Feeling so
    Out
    Of
    Place
    But okami says... he still loves me...
    I can't help but doubt.
    For years... beaten into me...
    I'm nothing without money....
    Would never marry without money...
    Was never good enough...
    For years....
    But okami says... he still loves me...
    And I have no idea why....

  • kitsuneski 5w

    Will I ever feel like I belong somewhere? I ask myself.
    Absolutely! The optimist says...
    Maybe some day.... the pessimist says....
    Never.... the instinct says...
    That forever feeling...
    As long as I can remember...
    As far as I can see...
    I hope that I'm wrong...
    I was always taught though...
    Hope for the best...
    Expect the worst....

  • kitsuneski 5w

    Its a night of insecurities...
    He's had more than I...
    He knows exactly what he's doing...
    He's ridiculously talented and beyond caring...
    He says he has eyes only for me...
    He tells me he loves me and wants a family with me. Actually wants a family with me...
    So why is there this vicious little voice in the back of my head...
    Telling me I'm not worthy...
    Why do I still hear that voice telling me I'm a burden and lazy...
    That I've let myself go and need to work out to be any level attractive...
    That I should starve myself to be the size I think I should be for him...
    That I'll never amount to anything without the help of another...
    Swamp monster that I feel...
    Self loathing rooted so deep...
    I dont want to burden him.
    I dont want to disappoint him.
    I'm afraid I'll become boring to him...
    I don't want to loose him...

    I'm afraid he will change his mind...
    It's a night of insecurities...