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  • lijtisya 1w

    Sinking for good.

    ©lijtisya
    As I watch the horizon,
    My eyes roll down,
    Down into those skeleton eye sockets!
    As the sun gets swolled up,
    The memories arise!

    The memories of the sunset watches!
    The moments you would hold tight,
    Tight to what you termed as your love,
    As you made those promises!
    As we watched the clouds gather,
    Gather to hide the sun!
    I still remember your statement!
    Babe,
    "As the clouds cuddle the sun with love,
    Forever will I cuddle you!"
    I wish I knew!

    Today trolls cuddle me!
    To the world you have taken me!
    The irresponsible,abusive,non-caring Father!
    A dead-beat dad i have become!
    What shall I say?
    Who shall believe me?
    Who shall tell Ben the truth?
    How shall I face Mercy?
    Surely am sinking for good!

    Have you forgotten the flowers?
    Where you there because of cash?
    Was it worthy committing to you?
    Why did you have to hurt yourself?
    All to just frame me for an abusive husband?
    Who shall come to my rescue?
    Who shall provide for my kids?
    Who shall listen to my cry?
    Who shall listen to my story?
    Who shall believe me?
    Am forever sinking!
    Surely that sign will forever remain!

    #To all falsely accused in marriages#.

  • lijtisya 1w

    "The no-man in suit"

    ©lijtisya
    For long I had tracked!
    For months I sought,
    Sought for job,
    A job I was promised after school!
    Many were the doors I knocked,
    Few opened,
    But non responded!

    To a pool of desperation I was drowning,
    Sleepless nights I endured!
    Supplications I made!
    For long I waited!
    Waited for that dream!
    A dream to earn a coin!
    Desperate I grew,
    For a sign of hope I waited!

    That morning,
    In my well-dressed manner I stepped out!
    Out to seek for a job!
    From a far you noticed me!
    A wounded antelope you saw!
    Into the hands of a monster I walked into!
    Low-toned voice,handsome,and a suit were the attributes!
    A saviour I found!
    A slave you saw!
    My prayer was answered!
    No! I was wrong!
    I wish I thought twice!

    To the office you took me,
    A job a gained!
    The false kindness drew me near,
    Near to the bed of slaughter!
    To everything I said Yes!
    Without a thought a sold myself,
    I wish I knew!
    The suit lied to me!
    The salary was good,
    But the price was dear!
    Was too blind?
    Had I suffered too much?
    Was I too naive to say no?
    I wish I thought twice!

    Days,weeks,months went by,
    The earnings were increasing!
    Lifts I was given!
    The suit lied to me!
    I was stupid!
    That warm friday evening,
    I wish I never appeared for the job!
    A still remember the still low-toned voice whispering to my ear,
    "Can I take you home today?"
    I froze! To be driven home?
    In a black- Germany machine?
    By a kind guy in a suit?
    Without a thought I said Yes!
    The last lock to my eternal captivity!

    From compliments to teasing,
    From a tease to a touch!
    I was dumb!
    The suit lied to me,
    That men in suits are gentlemen,
    I was wrong!
    The request opened my eyes!
    I was caged!
    To the house of the desperate you drove me!
    At a gunpoint you ordered!
    The low-tone became a roar in the small jungle!
    Dumb-struck I obeyed you!
    Tears down my cheeks you laughed!
    You thought it was for free?
    This city is for the clever ones!

    Was I that stupid?
    Had I not prayed for this job?
    I wish i took my last breath!

    A monster you turned into!
    For dead you left me!
    How lucky am I?
    That bullet missed my heart!
    I still recall your face!
    In your world am dead,
    But with your son we live!
    In suits you still roll,
    Many you deceive,
    But a no-man in suit you shall forever remain!

  • lijtisya 3w

    Rubie in the Rubbish.

    ©lijtisya
    The days are tough,
    Nights are long, the day is a nightmare!
    Words spitted are venom,
    Glances given break my heart!
    The ungrateful one!
    The killer!
    The home-breaker!
    Are my new names!

    They have accused me,
    On that fateful night, when the doors of hell opened!
    The night I lost all!
    The night when I saw the worst!
    I know i am innocent,
    But the rubbish is alot!
    Who shall burn it?
    Who shall discover the RUBIE?

    29/10/2000, my heart breaks!
    Everything seems in place,
    The night is silent, calmness feels the air!
    I approach the main door, joy feels my heart!
    Happy to rejoin with the family for another night!
    I am wrong! The door is open, very unusual!
    The closer I move, the denser the air becomes!
    I had lost them! Yes my family laid in pools of blood!
    It was a man-slaugher!
    Dumb-struck I froze! I was broken, my world shut dow!
    For help I called! But my next killer appeared!

    To court I was taken, with man-slaugher I was judged!
    For my innocence I pleaded, my neighbors gave evidence!
    Evidence I had killed!
    20 years was my sentence,
    A new home I got!

    Faithfully I have served!
    Freedom i have been granted!
    Yes! freedom from the iron gates
    But in their hearts am in chains!
    A murderer I remain!
    The ungrateful one!
    The killer!
    Is all they see!
    Who shall know my innocence?
    Who shall overlook the rubbish?
    Who shall burn the rubbish?
    And discover the Rubie?
    Who shall believe? Believe I was a loving father?
    Who shall?
    Shall all be lost?

    Am innocent!

  • lijtisya 3w

    The golden tear.

    ©lijtisya
    Tears have shed!
    Tears of pain, tears of agony!
    They have filled my eyes,
    For days I have slept on soaked pillows!
    Tears have become my family!

    I miss the golden tear!
    Tears from your laughter!
    The joy was unfailing,
    Who shall?
    I miss the golden tear!
    The tear that flowed with no pain!
    The tear that left no marks!

    Who shall revive it?
    Who shall cause it?
    I want it back!!
    Yes you found what you wanted!
    But I still wanna shed the golden tear!
    Am confused!
    Just for a second!
    A reminder of its flow,
    Is all I need!

    Shall I live without it?
    What shall I tell my eyes?
    What will my cheeks think of me?
    I have betrayed them!
    They are patiently waiting!
    Waiting for the golden tear!
    They are growing weak!
    They are loosing shape!
    They want the tear back!

    Who shall restore the tear?
    We all need it back!
    Will you?

    #give a hearing ear and restore a golden tear to someone#.

  • lijtisya 7w

    DEAL.

    ©lijtisya
    You are a sinner!
    You are a thief!
    You are a drunkard!
    You are a liar!
    You don't deserve anything!

    You were born to suffer!
    You are not loved!
    You are ugly!
    It's all a lie!
    They don't care about you!
    You have messed up!
    You can never regain again!
    You are lost forever!

    No one calls,
    No one texts,
    No one listens!
    LEAVE THEM!
    They don't care!
    Just,
    Just give up!
    Take it,
    Take it and go forever!
    To the unknown destiny!

    This is my alarm in the morning,
    My day's tone!
    The lullaby of the night!
    Too loud is it to my ears!
    To the rythm I have begun to dance to!
    The deal is capturing!

    But wait!

    You are my own!
    The apple of my eye!
    I know you by name!
    I love you!
    You are worthy!

    I stick closer than a brother!
    I will never forsake you!
    I will satisfy you with long life!
    You are fearfully and wonderfully made!
    I care about you!
    I love you!
    You are worthy!

    AM TORN!

    He knows me?
    He loves me?
    He cares about me?
    Am worthy?
    Am fearfully and wonderfully made?
    For long I shall live?

    Heheheh this deal is better!

    As for Me and my household I shall serve the Lord!

    To you...
    whose deal are you signing to tonight?

  • lijtisya 7w

    A BLESSING CUT SHORT

    ©lijtisya
    That early morning,
    Woken up by a sharp headache,
    Rushed to the washroom to throw up,
    I was sick!
    I remember the shock on your father's face!

    To the hospital I was rushed,
    The discovery! Our hearts melted..
    For long we had waited for you,
    You were a blessing to us already!
    The mornings were tough to me but with a thankful heart I endured them!
    A blessing indeed it was!

    I remember how dad used to care for you,
    Am sure you still remember his favorite song!
    How he used to talk to you before bedtime?
    How he used to tell you about the new clothes and the shoes for you?
    You must have been happy!

    I still recall those kicks,
    Did you want to become a footballer?
    Grown you were, anxious were our hearts!
    That long awaited day was here!
    As I laid on that bed,
    Pain ran across my body!
    At the verge of giving up I saw the smile on your father's face!
    I gave my all!
    We were excited!

    5-minutes to 9 pm a bouncing baby boy was born!
    I still recall the sound of your cry,
    Probably the only memory you left us with!
    5- minutes past 9 o'clock,
    Baby! Your clock started ticking to its sunset,
    Your heart had stopped beating!
    All was done, baby we tried our best!
    But you had accomplished your mission!
    Those 10 minutes, we were happy to have you!

    I am broken, I am devastated!
    Your father mourns your dismissal!
    Baby, they say you lay six feet below next to our window,
    But I know in a garden of roses you rest!
    We loved you,but your mission was over!
    Till we met again, sleep well!
    Truly a blessing cut short!

  • lijtisya 10w

    Fragment

    ©lijtisya
    Each came and went with a fragment of my heart,
    My soul remains in fragments!
    My mind breaks into fragments at the thought of them!

  • lijtisya 10w

    A BLESSING CUT SHORT

    ©lijtisya
    That early morning,
    Woken up by a sharp headache,
    Rushed to the washroom to throw up,
    I was sick!
    I remember the shock on your father's face!

    To the hospital I was rushed,
    The discovery! Our hearts melted..
    For long we had waited for you,
    You were a blessing to us already!
    The mornings were tough to me but with a thankful heart I endured them!
    A blessing indeed it was!

    I remember how dad used to care for you,
    Am sure you still remember his favorite song!
    How he used to talk to you before bedtime?
    How he used to tell you about the new clothes and the shoes for you?
    You must have been happy!

    I still recall those kicks,
    Did you want to become a footballer?
    Grown you were, anxious were our hearts!
    That long awaited day was here!
    As I laid on that bed,
    Pain ran across my body!
    At the verge of giving up I saw the smile on your father's face!
    I gave my all!
    We were excited!

    5-minutes to 9 pm a bouncing baby boy was born!
    I still recall the sound of your cry,
    Probably the only memory you left us with!
    5- minutes past 9 o'clock,
    Baby! Your clock started ticking to its sunset,
    Your heart had stopped beating!
    All was done, baby we tried our best!
    But you had accomplished your mission!
    Those 10 minutes, we were happy to have you!

    I am broken, I am devastated!
    Your father mourns your dismissal!
    Baby, they say you lay six feet below next to our window,
    But I know in a garden of roses you rest!
    We loved you,but your mission was over!
    Till we met again, sleep well!
    Truly a blessing cut short!

  • lijtisya 10w

    THEY LIED TO US.

    ©lijtisya
    We are not superior,
    They are not inferior,
    They are humans, men with brains!
    They lied to us!

    Race, speech, gender, complexation differ,
    But results carry non of this!
    My colour never appears on my answer sheet!
    But Mama! Master sees the colour of others!
    Why?
    They are the best, yet non of them passes!
    Why?
    They lied to us!

    I am given chances I don't deserve,
    To them it's a favour to get them!
    Am tired!
    The last to be served, never taken seriously!
    Immigrants they call them!
    They lied to us!
    We are all equal!

    They are overcharged! I walk in free!
    "We are the owners we claim!"
    In silence they walk off, an utterance is an offence!
    I board a bus no one cares, he enters men cover their pockets!
    Skin never steals, a person does!
    They lied to us!

    On arms they walked on not!
    On trees they lived not!
    We are not superior!
    They lied to us!
    We are equal, we deserve same justice!
    They are humans! They not inferior!
    We are equal!
    They lied to us!

  • lijtisya 10w

    @penned.

    ©lijtisya
    I don't know..
    I don't know where they go,
    To hades,heaven or hell I don't know,
    But I know where am going!
    Not because I have travelled before,
    But I know the way!

    Do you know where you going?
    Going after closing your eyes?
    For eternity?
    Hard to answer?
    Are you in darkness?
    Are you in the wrong path?
    Are you misinformed?
    Well!
    He says am the way,truth and light!
    An assurance!
    Assurance of a defined destiny!
    Destiny to the Father of all!

    I don't know where you will go,
    But if you follow this man,
    Jesus Christ! As I follow,
    There is a destiny! A destiny of everlasting life!
    Life full of peace, peace not of this world!
    Come let's follow this man, so we shall meet again,
    Again after closing our eyes,
    For eternity!

    Where are you going?

    @penned.