As the human body advances towards decay, there are a few things that are bound to happen on average if you were the one to ever think that the shackles that you feel yourself in are only in your head and temporary.
1.) Shackles are real. Shackles are here to stay. 2.) After you took the weight in your two hands and you ran, you died. 3.) But you didn't die. 4.) So now your will to live is dead. ( If you doubt it, try reading any article on "Reasons to love life" or something like that. )
5.) Nothing is necessary. Not even breathing. You only do that so you won't become an issue for others. 6.) You can't take the world seriously. Even though you're filled with empathy, you know that there is something inherently wrong with this place so you start believing that the only way left is to follow the wrong. 7.) You start connecting with people due to empathy but everything about you is deeply stuffed away. You're a fake even though you don't want to be.
7.) Alternative step: You stop pretending like you're the beacon of light. You jump to help but not to connect because you don't want to. You don't lie. Lying costs lives. You don't fake an "i love you". Ever. Whenever you have to choose between hurting two people, you don't choose at all. Hurt is hurt. Hurt cost lives too. You trust your truth. You embrace the fact that everything sucks and you don't want to pretend that it doesn't. Not for grown-ups. For babies and kids and animals? You better pretend the shit out of your capacity.
Wu Wei. To offer no resistance. To go with the flow. To be in the natural form of life. It's strange how I am doing nothing to seem ambiguous. Yet every day, it gets more difficult to explain myself. When choices only got clearer, there were judgements for what I was becoming. As if they wanted me to be confused. Is that what they mean when they say words like "optimism" and "hope"?
I don't know what you plan to do with me. I'll never ask. The only bit of resistance from my end is I'll be around. In any shape or form.. Invisible when you would hate me a little. All over when you love me a little.
I saw a scene in the Tv last night Where the guy says to the girl “I am glad you loved him” She asked surprised, “why?” He replied, “Loving him built you into the beautiful soul you are today. So whatever happened in the past in that other place, it didn’t scar you and turned you into an angel”
You may think that everything will happen how you planned it out, and somehow you will emerge victorious amongst the rubbles.
You may think that a Hogwarts letter is on its way to you, and you will fly to the magical land on your broom.
You may think that your wardrobe will be the secret entrance to Narnia, where you will be called a king.
Guess what? Life will teach you lessons that you never thought were needed. Life will tell you your significance by making you a puppet in your own story. You will be swayed side to side until your head comes into it's senses, and you realise that you are nothing, and no one.
We are not heroes even in our own stories, merely pawns...