There's a hurricane of thoughts that run around my not so perfect mind I build and rebuild the memories of my dream last night over a cup of coffee Black and little burnt ,yet I pat my back for making it still better than the last one. I sip with a smirk on my lips and lines of regret over my forehead. There is silence on the nights I binge watch a movie and I think of all good reason my life is exactly like the one in the movie, independent freedom and loneliness lying around the pillows of my bed. I dust them each morning , Moaning to the memories they settle back each night with the tears that burst over them.
I sleep over the drunk thoughts that put you together for one last time and all times you decide to company me along the sadness you left me with.
I gently rub my head thinking about them in all possible ways, I put all the sad metaphors that occurred my way on the bad side of my journal, You and I where never meant to be together there. The agony that came along with them,I slipped them down my throat with a handful full of happy songs I sometimes wish to listen. I carefully place the metaphors that stated love and jotted them down the other side of my journal. Carefully I pick all the words that meant happiness and weaved a poem down to you.
You placed them close to your heart and slipped a fire against the paper, Nothing but ashes defined all the love .
You've now replaced the hurricane of unknown thought to your only thoughts. I'll die to your memories Or live with a mind of war.
But sweeheart To heal you need to accept, To accept that you deserve peace, space and happiness.
Acceptance will create discomfort Maybe , you will be tempted to deny that there are scars which still hurts a lot.
Healing is not as easy as it spells but it's worth every ounce of pain you have been through
Step wise step This process will cover up all the scars on your soul Don't worry about the marks , they are the symbol of your strength , How beautiful and powerful you have been through this journey of healing.
The pain of this process is like the pain of the labour of a mother who goes through it when she gives birth to a new body , Similarly once you will heal, Like that new born child It will be rebirth of your soul And rejuvenation of your heart.