Mirakee
DreamQuote:
"I don't want to kill myself:
I just want a reason to wake up."
-myself
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magicalmystery
I'm a useless scumbag bitch who wants to die. (did, major depression, anxiety, aspd, ocd)
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I'm sorry. What?
I refuse to admit
How much I forget.
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Knives
I put knives in his back just to follow the trails of blood he leaves behind.
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My head hurts from crying for an hour straight.
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I'm so evil.
I feel waaaay better after making my boyfriend depressed over text.
I basically put poison in his brain;
He doesn't understand me one bit,
But I sure do know what hurts him the most,
And there's plenty more where that came from.
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2nd Day
Tomorrow's my second day of my new job.
I just want to die.
My boyfriend may as well not exist. He does not support or love me like I need him to.
So I am therefore alone. Forever misunderstood and more shattered than ever.
And I don't want to be here.
But I'm scared of the idea of There.
So I'll stay. I'll stay and cry every night and wake up with sore eyes and an empty stomach, because I want to suffer in every way possible, until I can no longer function and I lose the ability to think...
Let me wither and die; my sunshine has been blotted out; perhaps it was an illusion this entire time...
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loved, yet not
I may as well not have a boyfriend.
He is of no comfort to me.
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My Closet
Last night I slept in my closet.
What an unnatural thing for you to do;
For me it was like taking a vacation,
Or finding a feather in the grass.
I felt like a child again:
I no longer saw the unorganized mess of my head
Spilled out externally in my floor;
I could breathe again.
In and out.
In and out.
And for the first time in a long time,
I was grateful.
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p0rn
There was a time when I was younger, I would pretend to be tired just so I could "go to bed" early. But I wouldn't sleep. I would stay up reading, writing on my computer, or drawing. I'd even stay up late to play with my pet rat, back when I had one. And back when I was a 1st place winner in 5Ks (races), I would stay up listening to my iPod and exercise quietly until I was too exhausted to stay awake.
Now I just stay up and watch anime porn, and cry myself to sleep because I hate myself, and who I've become.
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Victory
His teeth made my nipple bleed
But it is I who tasted victory.
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I heard both. The flying planes. And the fluttering leaves. Both had something to say about the wind. But not quite the same.
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dejavu_
2w
Don't do anything by half. If you love someone, love them with all your soul. When you go to work, work your ass off. When you hate someone, hate them until it hurts.
- Henry Rollins -
dejavu_
2w
If I let you, you would make me destroy myself. In order to survive you, I must first survive myself. I can sink no further, and I cannot forgive you. There's no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you. I've gone to great lengths to expand my threshold of pain. I will use my mistakes against you. There's no other choice. Shameless now. Nameless now. Nothing now. No one now. But my soul must be iron, 'cause my fear is naked. I'm naked and fearless, and my fear is naked.
- Henry Rollins -
dejavu_
2w
He said that hate makes the world go round
People are afraid of what they really want
They make enemies of all the things that they would like to be
They condition themselves to not embrace what they are
Love is a clinging nausea
I tried to disagree with him
It was no use
I never saw a more honest look in anyone's eyes.
- Henry Rollins -
kizzystorm
3w
What if the Devil was just a misunderstood child?
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kizzystorm
4w
Surrounded
It looks like love and affection
It feels like absence without direction
It looks like laughter and good times
It feels like something thats not mine
Surrounded by all hopes and dreams
But still empty in between
In between the struggle and pain
But whats a day without a little rain
Throughout the good times and bad
You still seem sad
Yet surrounded by love
With no faith from above
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bellemoon
3w
No words
Your heart beating loudly as I feel the warmth of your hand in mine, overflowing emotions and a rush of poetry comes to mind.
So many things I wish to express! But my lips can only smile. Are my eyes singing for you? Is my gaze reciting our love?
Your laughter is my favorite melody, it fills the air charged with our magic so I remain silent. No words could be added, this is already perfect.
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legris
3w
Read MoreI cannot seem to stop my mind from racing
And my friend told me that his metaphors work better in his head and they don't seem to come together on paper but I guess that's how life exists. Air makes more sense inside our lungs, blood is livelier in our veins and what does that make us?
If not a cage made to capture life,
What does that make us
If not a scavenger, always meticulously picking insecurities and lies.
But do you know veins carry blood with little or no life in it and my heart generates it? Do you know I'm just a walking compilation of bones and muscles and I cannot even start thinking about the atoms that make me whole. Do you know atoms are home to smaller entities and some of them walk around while some rest. Maybe atoms tell us that home could be found in the smallest places. One should just want to give it away.
Existence can thrive even in the most remote spaces.
Your name is the shore I'm found on, every now and then.
You're the innumerable grains that are settled to build an end, I'm the name the waves wash off of you
Always.
©Legris.
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nouf_hameed
5w
Read MoreMaybe there is another life, maybe. But what we do have is this life. Still, many throw their lives into the unknown depths of death. Why?
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It is time we stop saying, "he ended his life" and start saying, "he ended his pain" for no one of them was ending their life, but their never-ending pain, or rather the pain that they thought they have no way of escaping from or reducing. Given the slightest of the hope that there is a chance to make the pain less or make it go away, who would want to end their lives? Remember, they are not even ending their pain, they are ending the pain that has become their life.
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Also remember, suicide is NOT, as most would believe, an act one commits over a moment's impulse. Most suicide has a long story of expressing the same to the near and dear ones in hundred thousand ways. Just that we fail to notice.
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While it may sound disturbing for many, we should all know that each life lost to suicide, that is our responsibility, too.Not life,
but the pain
is what
they wanted
to end.
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nouf_hameed
4w
Our present is nothing but,
a continuing interpretation
of the past.
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©nouf_hameed
