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  • maheneema 1w

    A year ago

    Last year this day I was a different person. Person who was wishing for toxicity but that was all I wanted that time without thinking it could be a disaster to my life. Things were not in my control. I was not finding it wrong to crave for my wishes and go crazy about them. I remember my thoughts whole day of eid. I remember that small hope to get my wishes fulfilled was driving me crazy with happiness! But It's not always how we want it to be (and it shouldn't be tbh) . Hopes were getting high....but I didn't realise I was actually losing everything. And I LOST EM! This one year exposed me to the moments when I was surrounded by alot of ppl but I couldn't tell anyone how I feel! There were times when I was devastated I wanted to scream out that I can't smile anymore. I want to cry. I want to show that i am not okay BUT I COULDN'T! I lost all my intellect, abilities, capacities but all I did was smile and say "THEEK HN". That was a start of a new phase of my life. Like everyone I was so motivated. I had plans to give the best start. But again IT'S NOT ALWAYS HOW WE WANT IT TO BE. I had been in situations where I had no clue what to do now but I was not allowed to speak and beside all this I had to maintain that "STRONG ME" image. I WAS BOUNDED. I WANTED TO ESCAPE AND HIDE SOMEWHERE.. But eventually all those moments all those tears brought me closer to ALLAH. When I had no one to share I shared it with ALLAH. I started using a new phrase in my prayers "ALLAH G NAHI HO RAHA MJH SAY SMBHAAL LAIN PLEASE" and that was my biggest strength. Every night I started talking to ALLAH n sleep while sobbing my stress out!
    THAT WAS BEST FEELING!

    I MIGHT STILL BE WISHING FOR SAME THINGS DEEP INSIDE. I MIGHT STILL WANT THEM BUT WHAT I GAINED WAS THE REALISATION THAT THEY ARE TOXIC. THEY MIGHT TURN OUT TO BE GOOD FOR ME IN FUTURE BUT FOR NOW THEY AIN'T GOOD FOR ME. WHAT I GAINED WAS A MORE FIRM BELIEF! I HAD LEFT ALOT OF MATTERS TO ALLAH FOR WHICH I AM STILL WAITING FOR A RESULT BUT I AIN'T DISAPPOINTED IN HIS JUSTICE!
    I MIGHT BE FACING THE CONSEQUENCES OF MY WRONG WISHES RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT TOO BUT WHAT I GAINED FROM ALL THIS IS FAR FAR FAR BIGGER! I GAINED THE STRENGTH TO STILL SMILE AND SAY I AM OKAY WHILE FALLING DOWN IN THE FIRE OF ADVERSE HAPPENINGS!
    I CAN HANDLE MUCH MUCH MORE NOW. I AM MUCH MORE THAN THIS.
    AND IF THIS IS WHAT WE GET AS THE RESULT OF SUFFERING I CAN STILL LOSE MORE I CAN STILL SUFFER MORE. TILL THE MOMENT I GET MY FAITH/TRUST COMPLETED! I CAN LOSE ANYTHING FOR THAT NOW!!!!! BECAUSE NOW I KNOW......

    WE NEVER LOSE. IT'S ALL A GAIN.
    JUST A MATTER OF PERSPECTIVE!!!!

    A VERY HAPPY EID FROM A PERSON WHO IS HAPPILY LOSING FEARS OF LOSS TO EVERYONE WHO THINKS THEY ARE LOSING!

    YOU WILL GAIN YOUR REWARDS TOO INSHAALLAH!


    ©maheneema

  • maheneema 4w

    Running towards the extremity in persuit of eternity!
    ©maheneema

  • maheneema 7w

    By unknown writer

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    ابھی ضد نہ کر، دل بے خبر
    کہ پس ہجوم ستم گراں
    ابھی کون تجھ سے وفا کرا
    ابھی کس کو فرصتیں اس قدرر
    کہ سمیٹ کر تیری کرچیا
    ابھی کوی تیرے حق میں خود سے دعا کرے

  • maheneema 17w

    Don't tell me that you won't leave
    Just say that you will be back no matter how far you are gone!

    ©maheneema

  • maheneema 18w

    By unknown writer

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    IF ALLAH IS WITH YOU
    WHO IS AGAINST YOU?
    HOLD A SMILE ON FACE AND GO ON
    YOU ARE SAFE

  • maheneema 31w

    HERE I PROMISE YOU

    With every pain you give
    With every hurdle you put
    With every attack you do
    With every trick you plan
    You make me one step better
    You make me one step stronger
    Make the web as complicated as you can
    Make the path as rough as you can
    Make the heat as intense as you can
    You will see me getting through it with more grace
    You will see my smile brighter than before
    You will see my gate smooth than ever
    You will see my head raised than yours
    Here I promise you dear hater
    You will never see me crying
    You will never see me broken
    You can never weaken my faith
    You can never disturb the peace of my heart
    Here I promise you
    You will have to stop exhaling
    To avoid seeing me growing better
    Here I promise you dear ill wisher

    ©maheneema

  • maheneema 35w

    Word Prompt:

    Write a 8 word one-liner on Dull

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    Light of heart can make dull night bright

  • maheneema 35w

    Word Prompt:

    Write a 10 word short write-up on Crave

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    Crave for the moon and see it moving far away

  • maheneema 35w

    Her love's as full as the crescent moon
    Her prayer's as pure as the spotted moon
    Her heart's as clear as the star pitted dark sky
    Her fantasies as bright as the night✨

    ©maheneema

  • maheneema 46w

    Maturity isn't TRYING TO BE MATURE!
    MATURITY is accepting every phase of u and living it in full swing the way it demands.

    ©maheneema