I don't know whether this qualifies to be about the word. The meaning of the word is abstract and I have moulded it in my way, giving it a sense from the experiences of my life. Some days I really try to grasp what I want in life, I long to find the answer to my longing. For me, that is the meaning.
(There is a reference to the first canto of Pablo Neruda's 'The Heights of Machu Picchu'. The first canto talks about the speaker trying to find the spirits of the inhabitants in the ruins of Machu Picchu. I have used that as a metaphor. I clarified it because the poem consists of twelve cantos each exploring a different sense.) . . [The word amnesia here does not indicate the illness. It corresponds to its Greek meaning 'forgetfulness']
I really don't know whether this is what the word should convey.