My dream is to become a published author 1 day. For the world to hear what I have to say, to hear my tears and pain, to know my story.
Why should hope be allowed in?I try to change how I thinkBut here I sit with recycled memoriesWhat do you do to shake the bitterness?I dont know so all good is rejected. I sacrifice my good for my sinsI never asked to existBut I'm going to make the best of itSadness, just like happy, is fleetingJust smell that rose I guessAnd try to shake your past misdeeds It is dead and gone like we will all eventually be©michelledavies
No one is perfet
So don't try to be perfect
I'm doing what I can & it seems to be working
I do all I can but it seem's to not be working
I know I'm me & that can't be so worthless
Cause I've seen worthless
I wish I could do better as a person
And you all forget that I am a person
But I know I am not what you claim & you know it
I am the same alone or with people & you know it
I love me every morning
I hate what I feel every morning
Be who you are when no one is looking
Be what you inteded to be when they are all looking
It is cool this life will hurt you
It is fucked up, this life will hurt you!
I Am So Self-Centered That I look In The Mirror And All I Can See Is My Reflection!
Product Of Dread
I am the product of my environment
I am displaced in the mind you created
Then you don't like where I live?
Because it screams the truth of your bullshit
I am the result of too much dread
So much time lost, gone, and wasted
But who really gives a shit?
Well, fuck you all, I do and I did then
I scream so loud
In a stolen crowd
That will always see me but never hear a sound
While I am about to drownd
But here I am and here I live
Here I was and here I sit
I just need someone to notice
I'll just wait here and fix my trunk and wait
Hay there, how are you, Sam? Need a lift?
Hold on, can you sniff this?©michelledavies
Why did I find you as you died?
Why did you have to take so much of our lives?
I am sick of your shattered dome of a mind.
You left us alone & you never thought right
I guess neither have I
Where did you go, momma?
Why did you leave us behind?
We were your girls & we cared & we cried
Or did you just not care enough to kiss us goodbye?
I am struggling because I don't have my mom tonight
You decided those patches were worth losing your life
I guess cause I was grown then you thought I wouldn't mind
You were always so taxing, vexing and mine
I miss you so much it is still a sharp hurt in my side
Why would you be so selfish & leave us behind?
When you died it was a shattering realization
When you left us Cara was stuck with her last criticism
When you said fuck you all I am leaving
You left us alone to live amongst the wolves & snakes slithering
You never prepared us for what this world really is
You should have told us you would die too soon
You should have told us to love who we are regardless!
But it is what it is and it was what it was
we have no choice but to survive, this?
Just like you did?
We are so angry but it's so sad
You dying caused so much strife
You wanted everyone to know you were alive
Well, momma, it worked didn't it?
We feel like you left us behind
I am trying to pick me up but you should be alive
All you did was fill my eyes with cries
You were more important than we were that night
I miss you and so does Cara Dawn
You can't make someone love you who wants to die
I got me, Cara has her, you have no more problems, right?
The stigmas and bullshit you left us with is alive
We both love you and miss your laugh
We both wish you would have lived for us
But we learned to live all alone with your death
So did your Emmy and even Eric's dumb ass
You touched so many and you don't even know it
We all wish you would've made a different choice
We all love you and miss your voice.
Stay True To You
Be who you were born to beEmbrace your insainityDon't allow liers or thieves Narcists or fallen KingsBe who you want to be seen as beingStay the same regardless if the world is looking. Love who you are and they will love you the sameIt's hard but it's real shit! It is what it is And it's usually what it seemsIf you judge a book by its sleeveThan at least judge the cover accordinglyI am Michelle and Legion is meBut a mistake I'm not, or maybe I was not meant to beI am the one you don't want to fucking deceiveI know you and you know meSo who are you lying to when I know what you did?All the truth I could tell and all the lies you keepI maybe made mistakes but you did too bitchI don't like you even a little bitI may have forgiven you're hate,But I'll forever remember every hitI don't want you anymore manI want to get away from your painHow do you move on when no one gives a shit?How do you break away from your dreams?This can't be how it was supposed to be. Do I hate you or do you despise me?Will you let me go or will I have to dig your grave?No, I'll never dig mine again so don't say itYou are not a problem for me. I don't care if you die or if you live.©michelledavies
Misfits are always misunderstood because they are the ones who keep it true. They're always judged because they tell the truth. With that said, I'll do me and you fakes do you. I am done trying to fit in cause I don't agree with your views. And I shouldn't be blamed for being something good.You are not my problem and I am not yours.How can you survive in a world so cruel?You stay away from those who want to push and pull.Be who you are and fuck the rest of the world.Be the person who can look in the mirror & like the view.Never stop telling the truthNo matter who that truth consumes!Bullys are what this world is made ofThey are the ones who ruin our schoolsThey think they are God and they are in delusionsThey will never care about your pain because they never saw you!They will forever be selfish and introvertThey will spend their lives blaming you for their issuesThey will never see the pain they put us throughWith all that said, us misfits must stick togetherThere aren't many of us in this worldSo stay true and remain you Tell the truth, be humble, be kind, be what you want to be treated likeAnd I know it is hard and it hurts like hellBut be better than they are!They can all go away and you don't have to deal with assholes!©michelledavies
I'm not insane I'm just imprisoned for some insane shitI never killed the ones they found in my basementThey were there when I moved into that placeI didn't shoot all them but hate I may have been filled withBut that smell was cause I forgot the lye not cause I killed them I'm guilty until proven guilty, not innocentNo one cares about thatWho are you to judge my judgement?It's all good till I kill you and me and all the restAlways pushing then asking why I've become what you've caused me to become Who are you, who is me?When I died did I really survive it?Am I just stuck with all my dead demons?Do I need to see all the bodies I piled in my closet?Do you need to see all the bodies you shoved in there?Maybe this is pugertory.What if I was never brought back from death?Am I a ghost just unknowing?Forever romming? I want to be happy but happy rarely happensWhat is real and what is not?What have I become?Will you save me from myself?Probably not. It's cool, mine got it. This is mine house and mine house is full as fuck.I am not sure but I know I dont care anymoreIf I've been dead or dying this whole timeThen I'll keep on like I'm still alive©michelledavies
The dead do not speak or tell lies
All that is plated in gold will eventually rust
Whoever you think you are,
Is not the person I saw.
But what can I say, I wonder what you saw as well?
I tried to care, I tried to grow
But you took it all from the 4 of us.
You are selfish and you never did care
You were not who you pretended you are
I can't excuse all the abuse and broken hearts
I forgive you but I will remember it all
Why would you hurt someone like us?
Some things only God can forgive you for
I am not a judge
I have no heaven or hell for anyone
Entered into dreded wedlockThe misuse of dreams, turned shallowIt is such a frightful knowledgeWhat was once beauty incarnateHas now become a short come upThen the truth comes outNo more sun, only cold rain dropsAll you can hope for is to learn from itAnd not make the same mistake tomorrow.He who wants to hold the powerIs the one who is a forever liarIt is all just a trick to ignore who they areI am myself and myself is MichelleSo don't judge my judgement and I'll ignore yours as wellYesterday went by so quick it feels like it was tomorrow.I do what I can but beauty never lasts or followsI have to forget me for a whileAll the rage that I swallowIs not so unintentionalIt is a hard pill to swallowI'm here today but I'll be missed tomorrow©michelledavies