I wish I could levitate like a bird, away from all those humanly materialistic things that would cage my peace and cut my wings, I want to fly high in the lapel of clouds with no destination to reach just in the direction where my fate would take me, I wish I could levitate like a bird, and follow my passion to live my dreams, for keep chasing my paths to hunt my belonging.
Now just like a river I'm never flowing back, and going to stream in direction of the ocean, my ultimate destination, tearing apart all the past like stones from my way so to rest my aggressive stream in dimension of the new depths.
I feel like something dying inside me A feeling that was never too strange, A desire that I dreamt all these days along, A need that I craved for ages but never considered to be fulfilled
I can't say what it is Even I know what it can be called Like a frozen cloud that could never be rained Like a rotten bud that plucked just to be crushed
Yes, it hurts like tearing all your veins together Breaking all your bones, but it's alright. It must hurt a lot more than this So I can learn how not to want it anymore.
I cried till I cough pulled my hair Cuffed my heart Punched my pillow And buried my face in it.
I must celebrate, For losing the last thing That can make me sad Even That is the only thing That can make me want to live I never wanted this pain But I tasted it now, Not just now, for days and months