I wanted to fall in love with you and became your unwrinkled poetry forever. I wanted a pink sky and some golden dazzling stars of your love. Becoming a metaphor of your stained verse, I would winnow some autumn breezes inside the myriads of your syllables.
I wanted to feel the melody of your morning and to listen the lullabies of shining stars and silken moon while sleeping on your arm. Becoming your flamboyant dream, I would love to quench your angst and agonies.
I wanted to kiss your forehead with my red lips and stow you away from this intolerable world. Whispering your favourite Shakespearean sonnet, I would love to become a love balladry for you.
Then my heart warned me “You can't afford another heartbreak before your death.”
~Then I wanted to die inside the dazzle of your love.
Wires of my heart are not strong enough nowadays. They often tend to let out sparks of an electrical misconnection deeper inside. I try to be the best to impress any brains, I try to be the worst to impress any fool, I try to be a mediocre to impress anything that breathes..... Do you know what that makes me ?
People find no reasons to hate me, yet none can love me, because there is difference between wanting love and being loved. Like a love song my mind questions .... " Who told you to buy it ? .. instead of earning it !!! "
Sometimes I have felt electrocuted when they point fingers at me asking "Do you ever choose a side ? Why are you so nice infront of everyone ? Do you even have an opinion of your own ? Why do people say only good things about you? Why does everyone smile at you ? "
Why do people like me?...... Do you really want to know, because they think I'm no harm to them, they think that I never get jealous of them, they think that I hide no ego but above all that, they know that I praise them well. So I get payed, a name tag of being SO NICE. I'm just a CLOWN they enjoy in the magic show.
But the queries are right, I have felt that flaw in me, up close when I try to make me right...to avoid those you don't like ....but my heart doesn't know how, it's void with some wire links bend ...ready to break anytime .... They have nothing to say, nothing to love, nothing to beat for...
Because that's what happened when I asked my heart about my passion...my dreams .... It had nothing to say .....just blank .... But I can't let people know that I'm lonely inside ... Nothing to hold on to when I fail or lose someone because of my low self esteem ... So I smile ....I gleam .... right from the first day ..so that no face goes unnoticed ....no eyes feels lonely... no introverts walk around without friends .....
I might not be someone's best ..... I might not be an exemplary .... I might not be anyone's love ... I might not be the one who steals your show .... But when I'm with you ... You will be happy.... Don't get me wrong.... I'm not proud of what I AM But I just can't help it ...I'm a weird hypocrite !!!!!
Am single but my phone says no you're not
Am I in love with my phone or the person inside it?
And if i love her then why I am single,
when I wake up in the morning what a so-called
single boy do - " hey good morning my love"
so in this way, a sweet morning started with
Her reply with lots of smilies makes be
feel a sense of unrestrained joy.
Do you think am I single ?
I smiled in front of my phone and feel fulfilled.
she always there with me, and the text on my
Whatsapp becomes the reason for my happiness.
But all it happened while being alone.
Do you still think I am single?
some time i got upset me coz she didn't text me back,
without knowing the reasons behind, I got mad at her.
this madness growing coz i started thinking
she is mine and she's my love.
Now, do you think I am in love, love with her or her text?
Do you think the definition of love has changed?
yes, I think it chnaged, just in the chain of words on my Whatsapp fallen in love.
All my feeling came out when being in front of my cell phone.
All my smile, tear, pleasure, emotions are on the screen of my phone.
Do you think am single ?
Having a conversation with my phone doesn't make me am not single.
And certified me am single.