When words enter voids, and expression makes absence, ᴛᴇᴀʀs are the metaphors you need to portray yourself. When the lands of emotions stand dry and barren, ᴛᴇᴀʀs rain down the lane bringing petrichor and pleasure.
It's been long since dawn had knocked upon my windowpane. Stars have befriended me in night's sleepless home. I wanna hug the moon again and leave a small mark of love in middle of her scars.
Darkness would be dreamless if desires won't be a part of reality. I dream of my fingers to get lost in your hair when music merges our souls forever together. I wanna place my heart in your eyes and my flaws in your tears.
I wish to write with my lips a silent lullaby upon your forehead. I want my heartbeats to scatter all over your cheeks and bring smile to you when you feel miserable, when you turn weak. I wanna stay alive in you at moments of restlessness, when you miss someone in search of hope for yourself, I wanna be the light in you that glows in your dreams forever.
Let me write few verses of my flawed self with trembling hands upon your neck. Let me confess into your ears about the pieces of me I had left at places since my early teens. I've misplaced myself, my true self at some point on this senseless journey. Just like a dusty brown old ticket falling out of broken suitcases, when I look at you, you bring back the moments of few wonderful journeys back to me. Just an old train ticket, or letters lost in forgotten novels, few things stick to the soul better than life itself.
There are bruises along your wrists and few scars along your thighs, I can see you'd been through days of emptiness and nights untouched by peace. It's not about my eyes gazing at those beautifully carved paintings, it's my heart trying to find the pain hidden in sad masterpieces.
I am drowned in colours that flow over the canvas of your skin, but I know how tears poured at perfect places change into shades of different colours. I fell for your beauty and I love you for your flaws. You're more than just beautiful, you're the best composition sung by stars of sleepless nights. I mean, I can't define you in words, your charm extends beyond my imagination.
This is true for all the girls I loved but as you know, same words have different meanings when said for different people. When I look at you there's something in me that wakes up back to life. I find myself in you, I mean, my lost true self. I don't want my desires to be fulfilled in your arms, I just wish I could talk my heart out to you when it feels lonely.
I want to talk in words, I wish we talk in a language that has no implications but only subtle meanings. I wish we have more to say and less ways to express, and we speak through our eyes and hear from our hearts.
I wish my hindering hands find your letters to hold at moments when living on my own feels impossible. Ah, it's tough to say if I would have anything sensible to say when we'll talk to each other. But I'll just think of you right then and I know you won't judge me, you just can't judge anyone. We both know our own flaws better than anybody else's. I guess a glass full of carelessness would be enough to gulp down this gloominess around us.
I have much more written for you Just behind my eyelids
1)I carry an in-Built defect within my body.A defect where a 2 minute laugh is injurious to health.The days where there when the breathing doesn't come naturally to me.Backward counting,A little of walking a step above-A step below.Staring at the sun till my eyes starts burning -Breathing turns normal.Picking up a hot utensil -I never try to be easy on myself.The defect might stay for a few more years -Till i die.
2)I realised i was broken when i was staring at the smiling faces roaming around me and thought "How carelessly they laugh, commit mistakes and then can love fully too.I can never love someone enough with the tears stuffed within me -The ones that are desperate to break the shield whenever they got the first chance.I always wanted the carefree smiles to find a home within me -For i was always the abandoned one but if they want to stay my body can be a shelter to them."I stopped laughing like yesterday for the tear free today.I am a broken soul with a cup of soulful poetries.