Saturday night, you just came back from work. But yes, tonight you were spoilt for options. Your phone pinged? Want to go out for that movie? But, but, you remembered today is when your favorite IPL team has its match, or maybe, that feeling of your couch and match, Wow.
We all had days like these, some dull but some, extremely active and options a plenty. Also, for that vibe of, a hard day at work, school and coming back to relax and do something happy with people you love.
It's been more than 4 months, since all this took a halt, life suddenly turned up to be monotonous, for some it wasn't a drastic change but for the rest, a huge one. Some have people to text up every night, telling how eager you are to meet them. While some, rest back, loving their own independent self much more.
We all, went through alot of issues, some huge, some small, news flooded with endless political drama, rapid surge of cases everyday and many losing their life due to this pandemic & floods combined.
But yes, you held up your own all this while, fighting the demons in your head, holding your loved ones a bit more close by heart, wishing this all would end up so soon and there you go, back to your life with dreams to conquer. And believe me, you so will because you are a fighter, one of a different kind.
You are beautiful, worth every ounce of beauty, the world could fathom. When you entwine your hair, finally tucking it behind your ear, my eyes relinquish in delight. When we hold hands quite randomnly, You don't know, how much, my soul longs to spend more time with you.
I know you are afraid to fall in love, I know how much commitments you already are in. And in all that, making a space for me?
I know we differ in how we see life, I know we have different traits & expectations. But, how about giving it one chance?
I would throw open a tiny wonderland, one filled with words and poetries, And love you the way, you always deserved to.
Ever wondered why? Because you are my perfect chaos, my perfect fairytale.
We would sit there as she would have her favourite coffee from that expensive outlet, talking about love and life, an hour or more or maybe, order my favourite red velvet cake and feed me 1,2 spoons and somedays whole. But yes, among all this there were days when she will prefer never stepping out. Crib about the weather, say 'What's better than home' and end it with a surprise text like this: 'How about staying home, watching that movie you suggested and having coffee?'
And not just us, we ended up finding friends who shared the same interests with time. Guess what those were? 1) Coffee 2) Movies 3) Outings. While some stayed long and still are, some just waved hi and disappeared. So now we were that close few who battled many fights, ego tussles but still came back with stronger hugs and wider smiles.
Today was yet another day, where we were confined to a video call, making fun, having fun, going silent and thinking how different our conversations have become as slowly everyone moved on with their life.
But yes, someday on a brighter morning when things go back to normal.
Dear friend, No matter how far we go, I'll always long for a day where you & me would sit around holding a coffee mug and recollect all the memories that we have been a part of.
'Do these heels go well with the gown?' You meticulously planned every part of the dress and rightfully so, you wanted to look the best. All excited and finally meeting your friends, all dressed so beautiful and Different? Yes. From those casual tees and joggers to this version of all suited up and grace. Today was something special.
And in this array of people, in coats and gowns you too smiled, keeping up, and giving the best pose, with the thought of 'Is the sun falling too much on my face?' Or 'Is that location a better place to click pics'
Your snaps will be full of people close and the vibe of friendship & love And completely too, these are the few who stayed among many who left or you ignored. Coming back home, you will swipe those pictures, selecting the one's you feel the best, maybe edit few too, and there it goes Online Uploaded. While few, stay right there in your gallery, starred and something which would leave a smile years later or maybe not.
Right now, with an outbreak, all this doesn't seem a possibility while you are passing out. But yes, close your eyes and think back over how many things these years thought you, it wasn't as planned right? But still you held on, and there you are, a better, a truly better version of yourself.
When it comes to failures always remember to take away what you did right. Even in a worst case scenario where you did everything wrong you still take away something that is the ability to differentiate what is right and what is wrong. Never abandon your work because you didn't meet your end result instead keep working till you reach that point of personal satisfaction.