I used to call myself a writer then, she came and taught me "How to hold a pen correctly."
I thought of myself as a singer then, her melodious voice enlightened me "How to listen to the symphony of your own heart."
I called myself a dancer then, her passion for dance instructed me "How to sway your body with the music that your heartbeat sings."
I dared to say that I'm a lover then, her unconditional love solemnly educated me "How to love someone affectionately even staying miles away from each other, even when you can't see each other every day."
A girl got real mature,
Grew up like never before.
She actually learnt no one care
Ignored her and had no time to spare.
All alone she wept and cried
Looking out of the window, tried.
To look at the world with clear eyes
No one knows, what in our future lies.
Little did she knew
That all her life got screw.
Love is meant to be selfless, they say
And all she wanted was to stay.
But nobody tells the real things
As to what actually, the love brings.
Love is not just about cute talks
It also includes a person`s hawks.
He might want to take control
And it feels like “Freedom got stole!”
What to wear, where to go?
With a guy? Oh no no..
You must first ask, take permission
Or he might not like your fun
The girl who loved flying
Was now here, simply lying
Looking out of the window
As in a cage, incognito.
So, the passing angel see her shine
Comes nearby and stop all her whine
Took her out, and asks her to fly
Gives her wings and she go high & high.
High in the sky, hears a knock
Looks everywhere in shock.
Finds herself back in the room
She notices the nearby doom.
A huge building on fire
all thats wheb she realised, it was all her desire.
You bleed your heart out over someone , Who walked away from you . You let loss fill in the vaccum spaces . You wallow in grief . Whilst they move on .
You keep hanging on to what ifs . While for them you were just a memory . A chapter closed . And after eons of spilling grief on the floor of your heart ... You realise one day ... Was grieving over such a loss that ended up only remaining yours , Worth it ?
Was it worth .. The years spent on trying to remember someone who was never yours in the first place .
Was it worth .. Closing your heart to every slight hope of love that tried to filter through .
Was it worth .. All the wait , hurt and despair .
No it wasn't . It just wasn't . Because life moves on . It did for them . It will for you .
I found myself engulfed with the darkest monsters of my fragile soul, I found my ambience transforming into the complete pitch black even when it was the brightest day as a whole, And I saw the tear strained face of my own, do I hate myself that much ?
Trust me, I'd never seen the hell but at that moment I knew how it would look from every view, I apprehended that negativity always finds me no matter how hard I move heaven and earth to escape, but little did I know that negativity had itself always originated from me, from inch of my unilluminated disbelief that I'd ignited in myself unknowingly. The power of my dark thoughts were so tenacious that even anguish threatened to inundate me.
How to escape from these little flaws of mine which are too heavy to handle ? Has anybody even survived from this darkness of guilt ? I always get entangled with these unnecessary questions of mine which unwillingly create chaos in my mind.
And then I looked up at the Moon, I saw how the imperfect moon did not make the darkness as a part of it's life But made the made reason of it's glimmering shine at the very same time !! This moment of realisation made my blurry vision of tears very clear slowly and incredibly..........
(Your dark past, Your flaws will be the reason of your successful life someday. Never ever be ashamed of them since your flaws define how strong you are . ! Btw moon always inspires me !! ❤ )