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  • peanutbutterfish 10w

    Mercy

    My heart sits deeper as it sinks in my stomach. My throat feels tight and my eyes are starting to burn. Trying to hold all this in when im bout to combust from..... Everything.
    I can't help but let out a sob here and there even though i havent shed a single tear yet. My eyes fill uo like the dam is a about to over fi fill. And then I swallow it back down.
    Pull the blade right from my back and lick the knife, so much betrayal so much pain from the way life's dug it further into my flesh. My cheeks start to tighten and my forehead starts to scowl, my lips almost puckering and I can't stop shaking my leg the chaos within . and from here on out im going to be blessed. Lord hasth granted mercy on our souls and restored what weve lost so long ago. Hope, faith Grace leave blessings fortune, love, and.... Mercy
    ©peanutbutterfish

  • peanutbutterfish 10w

    Mercy

    My heart sits deeper as it sinks in my stomach. My throat feels tight and my eyes are starting to burn. Trying to hold all this in when im bout to combust from..... Everything.
    I can't help but let out a sob here and there even though i havent shed a single tear yet. My eyes fill uo like the dam is a about to over fi fill. And then I swallow it back down.
    Pull the blade right from my back and lick the knife, so much betrayal so much pain from the way life's dug it further into my flesh. My cheeks start to tighten and my forehead starts to scowl, my lips almost puckering and I can't stop shaking my leg the chaos within . and from here on out im going to be blessed. Lord hasth granted mercy on our souls and restored what weve lost so long ago. Hope, faith Grace leave blessings fortune, love, and.... Mercy
    ©peanutbutterfish

  • peanutbutterfish 10w

    ...

    Can you hear my screams in the silence of the night. Does it give you goosebumps and fill your core with fright. Does Your mind flood with images that you can't stop? leaving your stomach churning and your heart begins to drop. Your rocking in the corner with your head between your legs, praying for daylight to come through your shades. The little men the shadows are no longer your friends, they're mean and play tricks to toy with your head. The time doesn't seem to complete that circle anymore, like keeper of time said he was late to keep more. Somethings will never leave, sometimes love is a scary thing.
    ©peanutbutterfish

  • peanutbutterfish 10w

    Heel

    Thought there'd be some flowers and wine a little bit of romance one last time but here I'm alone in the dark. Bought my own and some chocolate ice cream let's see if I can fix this broken heart. Momma was right when she said you're going to tear my world apart. Daddy is disappointed because your the first he liked, didn't load his shotgun even caught Me by surprise.
    All the times we had, the memories shared the love I thought we created, it's almost unfair. Here I am a hotmess cry baby fool, I should've known better bad boys are only good at not playing by the rules.
    Here for the rest of my life the void won't ever be filled, you left your mark and it won't heal.

  • peanutbutterfish 10w

    Crazy

    Its lacey, and things been a little bit crazyy,
    Single cuz no fuckboy can faze me, if you ain't gonna fight me shut up and find a seat with them bitches that be hatin me.
    My heads only down when im Rollin up the tree we only smokin on some kill, and im always smoking free. Pretty girls don't ever have to roll next time your asked then that ugly truth be told. I dont lite my own smokes and i always walk in first, niggas always hold the door an my cheeks can feel the thirst. Eyes be staring, bitches be glaring, wish a mother fucker would quick someone dare them. Mouths be drooling, these guys be fooling, glock one my hip im with the niggas that's be shooting.

  • peanutbutterfish 10w

    Thug

    He be out all night, creeping by the moon light. Says he's doing business but none of it's making senses. Want him by my side, he don't really even know when I said I'm down to ride. I can make them sacks, keep a scale in my bag. He collect the green n be poppin on the scene, if it's not me whos the females that he brings. Truth hurts but can he just be real he's thuggin on my heart not caring how it feels
    Im a solider there's nothing I won't do ill build a home and be a ghetto princess to. He sneak in with a fresh new scent, and that's not my shade of lipstick thats stained on his neck.
    He dips and dodges seeing me so much, why not just leave for good, fuck this thug love.
    Ive tried and tried while he's thugging it out. Thuggin on my heart but hell fuck around anx find out. Says he a dog well females are dogs too, you think you playin me nigga im bout to show you, ima be a hoe and live the single life up, you didn't want me boy, sit down or step up
    ©peanutbutterfish

  • peanutbutterfish 10w

    ..

    I hate the monster I've became, reflections in the mirror we both look the same. I hate the person you turned me into, my fault by letting what you've done taint my colors that bleed through. I hate the choices I've made and things i cannot take back, you pushing me down The wrong way when i wanted my own path. I hate the things that have burned in my head the sound of your voice bouncing off the walls piercing barriers of what can't erase that's been said. All these things you say you hate Are now all of me I am dooming me fate. You formed me into what you despise. Now your monsters aren't so easy to hide.

  • peanutbutterfish 10w

    Lies

    Deceive and decept. False allusion it may
    Be, but some truth is best kept. Missing a tiny piece just to save a little face, youll never know unless you go looking for what you don't know is missing in it's place. There's always 3 sides to everything. Each opposite party and the truth but I say there's 4 because there's missing pieces in truce. Deceptive deceit nothing's complete because we demand answers when there's nothing to reep.
    ©peanutbutterfish

  • peanutbutterfish 10w

    L
    Non


    Anarchy rise into the streets. Chaos and mayhem c'mon who's riding beside me. We all as equals no one running the show, corrupt and madness anything has a chance to go. soak the rags in gas ,strike the match, lets light these torches and watch their city crumble like we have. Lets take back our power and feel it burn through our veins who are they to keep these laws and be who we answer to. I answer to nobody that's my god given right, when my judgement day comes, god will be oreered to shed some light. These sick and evil beings are wasting our precious air, let's follow the 5 laws in prison, if they're not wrong then they wont care.
    Anything in the world unless its one the codes can be solved by violence that's how the system should go
    ©peanutbutterfish

  • peanutbutterfish 10w

    I had a dream.

    2020 vision, it looked up for a second then fell off to shit again. Everything seemed so promising like we all really had a chance, only to be blindsided while life just sits and laughs. We're already halfwsy through and seems are even more unknown, as were prisoners of ourselves going crazy in the world we know. Distance ourselves more, but when is it enough, ive been alone for sometime, i miss when life kissed me and i felt its love. We all had hopes and dreams that this year would be ours to declare defeat, but here we are surrendering while life claims our victory. The body counts get higher as we all wait to purge, on a pindrop the battlestsrts but i thinks been here without saying the exciting words. At this point what do we do, what's the point on tryinv to get my life back straight, the wordls changed and the end is coming these are our final pathetic days. Its all just a phase itll be gone before we know but this phase I've always been in as far back as i can know. Keep our heads up well make it, as they take away things we need tjen wonder why we riot and act like criminals in these streets.
    Theyve pushed our backs up against a barbed wire fence, it's cutting us to pieces but still we don't give in.
    It seems to be a nightmare what my life's mess has became, 2020 was supposed to be the year for me now there's nothing fixable it's because the same.
    They say our times running out but we wake everyday, waiting for the world to decide when to give us a break.






    Sorry this is just ramble. My heads heavy my hearts full there's no tears to cry and nothing left to lose. Ain't nothing wrong. Ain't nothing right but here i lay awake all night.
    I pray hard so i can sin harder, have you ever wondered whats given to you if it's your soul you barter. Eternity in hell May not be so bad, considering it can be worst than the tragedy trauma and devastation my life's had.
    It can't be worse than all these days i lived angry at the world never wanting to forgive, when that moment came and the pain lifted in my heart, the dagger was driven deeper right when my new life was about start
    ©peanutbutterfish