The words are tangled together Not knowing where to begin I stand numb at the front door, Back to the time I was eleven I remember that morning I woke up late It was raining heavy Thought it was a holiday, I ran to the hallway There were guests with my dad I heard a little and a clear goodbye, I went to my mom in the kitchen There were neighbours with few tears.
Soon I was told We were leaving our home Travelling away to a different house No more school, No more friends here. Everyday I spent there Flashed back within a second I cried out loud Wanted to stay in home, Wanted to go to school But little didn't I knew I spent my last day with my friends With no promises to stay in touch.
The boxes were packed The truck was loaded Everything within a blink of an eye, I stepped in the car With a hope in my heart To meet my friends For one last time To tell them that I never wanted to leave.
The words are tangled together Not knowing where to begin I stand numb at the front door This time with a heart Full of memories, full of melancholy, Remembering how deeply I wanted to stay then And how deeply I want to stay now, But with these past years This home has taught me that Life can be unfair in many ways.
The little girl inside me Still cries for her lost friends Hoping to meet them one day, Wondering was there a way then To stay and not leave at once? And now the grown girl Stands numb here Wondering is there a way to stay And not leave again.
Dear Love, Out of all the letters I wrote to you, this one holds a special place in my heart. It has now been like a tradition to write these letters every year on my birthday just in a hope of you reading them someday. Do you remember the days we spend together wandering through the city lanes? Do you remember those stories, how we met in your magic show and how you lost my favourite bracelet trying some trick on it? Who knew it would go so far? But surely I found the magician of my life there. You always heard your fans appreciating you! But did I ever told you, that you had a different spell on my life, that you poured the most magical feeling in my life? No I didn't. I wish I should've told you then and maybe things would've been different now. Do you remember how excited you were on my 28th birthday? You had your biggest show that day and after the show you drove in all hurry to meet me. Never thought that the day would cost me so much that I would have to pay for it the rest of my life. Isn't it silly how you wished to spend the evening together but all I received was a box stained red found in a crashed car? How? To make that one day charming how could you not think it was paramount for you to reach safe? Now I live with these letters in the forlorn paradise. Where days start in misery and nights ends in grieve. If I knew the magic spell I would've brought you back. If I had the reverse clock I would've brought the time back. But all I have is your last gift, the silver ring with infinity on it, though it keeps slipping out from my wrinkled finger now, it holds some magic in it to keep me alive through this life. I know I have a long journey to go but how am I suppose to keep going, knowing that there's no happy ending?
It's been five years now and I still can't find a way back to the old me. I remember the days we spend together. I remember the evenings we walked together. I remember the way you made me smile. I can say that I had the best time of my life with you or maybe I wasn't strong enough to take a second chance. Past these years I met hundreds of people but none of them could connect with me, Cause even if they try to your void would absorb all the emotions leaving my heart numb. Numb to feeling I once felt with you. All I have are the memories of you without you just like the footprints without foot. Today sitting on a beach I saw footprints fading away with each wave and found a new one. It made me realised how I always kept your memories away from the waves protected in my heart And let them create a deep void But now I let the memories fade away with dusk and let in the sunshine through dawn, Filling my heart with warmth and lightening my soul with joy, Leave the past behind and live in the present, Care for the once who care and let the evils fade away, I believe I have a better life, I believe I deserve a better life. With the love and care once I gave you.
Sweet dreams sweet ones I had a very long day and I'm tired.. I may take a break tomorrow, even today didn't pen anything really, just read everyone and enjoyed Some really fantastic write ups for Mumbo-jumbo, do read them :)