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It's a beautiful thing to be made of porcelain ~ (Inconsistent)

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  • porcelainxheart 1d

    You'll be waiting in vain ~ #gaze #murder

    Try and have me fall
    When I’ve been standing
    Brave and tall for so long
    All my defenses are put up
    Not just for show
    I’ve made my suit of armor
    Resilient and strong
    I’ll have no hesitation
    As I strike you down
    With my arrow and bow
     
    In my ivory fortress
    I am queen of the throne
    Protected by each weapon
    I have built with careful craft
    Meet my bewitching gaze
    I will cast you to stone
    Don't make a sound
    You’re now in my killing zone

    Not even the noblest of knights
    Can come galloping in
    On his white horse
    Searching for a tender love
    A gentle caress
    Dare and I assure you
    I will end your feeble life
    With just one lethal kiss
     
    There is no resistance
    I am fully armed
    Choose the sacrifice
    It will be your cross to bear
    You’re not leaving here safe
    You won’t survive unharmed
    You’ll be just another pawn
    Ensnared in the queen's deadly lair
     
    Make the move
    I promise it will be your last
    Push me one step closer
    One step further
    Courage will be your death wish
    In the treacherous spell I’ll cast
    I will have you screaming
    Bloody murder
     
    ~
    ©porcelainxheart

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    Femme Fatale

    She became
    A special hybrid
    Bloodshed
    In her gaze
    Destruction
    In her wake

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  • porcelainxheart 5d

    UFO's can take me home.
    I'm missing my old room �� #gift #dream

    Reveries do nothing for me
    They only fabricate fantasy
    Warping my reality
    Deluding hope
    To dream a dreamless sleep
    Would be the greatest gift
    No longer home in
    A disillusioned world
    Awaking freshly anew
    Floating weightless
    As heavy clouds lift
    Phantoms of past
    Couldn't slip through
    Wouldn't fog my glass
    No trouble closing eyes
    Haunting visions
    Disintegrate from view
    Oh, what a wonderful life
    Free from portals of mind
    I wonder how everything
    Would dramatically shift
    To dream a dreamless sleep
    Daydreaming the greatest gift

    ~
    ©porcelainxheart

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    A Dream's Gift

    I'm deadlocked
    in psychosis
    Can't shake
    hypnosis requiem
    Losing grip on reality
    the more I
    Carelessly dream

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  • porcelainxheart 1w

    For those who live with chronic pain ~ #spontaneous #pain @mirakee

    Pain doesn’t hurt
    When it’s all you’ve ever known
    No, nothing’s quite so forbidding
    Finding yourself
    Awaking each morning
    To your whole body
    Immersed in stinging
    Where every, aching muscle
    Cries out and groans
    Striking a kind of agony
    Strong enough to grind your bones
     
    You never have to worry
    About being a tragic junkie
    When you’re already
    A frantic drug addict like this
    Heavily sedated by narcotics
    Anticipating and deliberating
    Your next fix
     
    Popping numerous
    Prescriptions and medications
    To the everlasting, debilitating
    Symptoms that spontaneously arise
    Just waiting for the numbing
    Sensation to settle in
    And the sharp starvation
    Slowly subsides
     
    No, you’ll never have to fear
    Giving up on existence
    When your own body already has
    Heaving around its’ lifeless
    Skeletal, diseased carcass
    Trudging and dragging it through
    Tedious trials and tribulations
    Repeated errors and motions
    Major setbacks and backtracks
    Of all the diagnostics, verdicts,
    Prognosis’s and calculations
     
    And they say there’s
    Always someone out there
    Worse off than you
    But, you can’t help
    To want to meet
    That other poor, pitiful fool
    Just so you can see and believe
    You’re not out in this
    Harsh world alone

    Because, sometimes
    You can’t help but to feel
    Your miniscule problems
    Are still of great magnitude
    Even in the bigger scheme of things
    For you’re now all too aware
    Of the devastations
    You’ve so far been shown
     
    And maybe, just maybe
    You wish to brace yourself
    For what life’s hand hasn’t yet thrown….

    ~
    ©porcelainxheart

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    Life's Hand

    Sometimes,
    I wish to predict
    Life's spontaneous
    Curve balls

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  • porcelainxheart 1w

    Gradually going mad, in a mad world ~
    #soul #gradual #flawless @mirakee

    How do you survive
    In a man's world
    You're a smart girl
    Yet, they all subscribe
    To flawless curves
    Everywhere we turn
    We learn sex sells
    If only you keep
    Gorgeous legs open
    Do as you're told

    Might as well
    Make a deal with the devil
    Barter your soul
    Feminism is bound
    To gradually decline
    Print your name
    On the dotted line
    Pay the toll, sign the scroll 
    Dare not be outspoken
    Lest be headstrong
    They prefer us broken
    Best adhere to their wrongs

    Our mouths are wanted
    For a better use
    Pout your lips
    As forbidden fruits
    Facing cash troubles?
    Flash some skin
    Roll those hips
    Dumb yourself down
    In the name of sin
    Watch the blood money
    Flood in

    Parliament dominant
    Run by satan
    Wearing different suits
    Female embodiment
    Drilled enough times in our skull
    I'm starting to believe
    Earth is just the underworld
    Impossible to reach heaven
    When all signs point to hell

    ~
    ©porcelainxheart

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    Underworld

    Achieve your goals
    Sell your soul

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  • porcelainxheart 1w

    Again. I have run into someone plagiarizing my words. They posted theirs 2 days ago. Mine was 52 weeks ago & even reposted by @writersnetwork ...Yet, no one sees the crime ���� this has to stop.

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  • porcelainxheart 2w

    We're just single knit strings of separate loose particles. Desperate not to reconnect ~ #strings

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    Invisible Strings

    We sever connections
    Tethering us together
    Same as phantom pain
    We still feel invisible strings
    Tugging our heartstrings
    Even when you cut lifelines
    Attachment keeps us roped in
    Tangled by the ties that bind

    ©porcelainxheart

  • porcelainxheart 2w

    #image #stranded #indifference @mirakee

    I once thought
    Something so bitter
    Would somehow transpire
    Into innocence so sweet
    Never thought I’d admit defeat
    But, this is the choice
    You have given me
    Absent on an empty, barren land
    Of all I am left with
    Stranded in a state
    Of cold indifference
     
    If one day you ask if I hate you
    I’ll simply say; I don’t hate you
    I’ve just lost all respect for you
    You’ve become everything
    You promised you’d never be
    Those warnings I left unheeded
    Those times I should have retreated
    Delusional to think I could change us
    How you love to prove me wrong

    To recall I once saw you
    Standing on top of a pedestal
    A pedestal high and tall
    My godsend wearing his noble crown
    Surrounded by a luminous halo
    It’s funny how someone
    I thought so highly of
    Is now so quickly beneath me
    Oh, how the mighty can fall
     
    I no longer admire you
    Or, think you as a king
    Nor do you hold my heart
    Among any other precious thing
    No; all I see up there now
    Is an absolute disgrace
    Someone who has lost
    Their dignity and pride
    A clown I can’t tolerate to face
    You’re only a fool in my eyes
     
    And to think we once had
    Something, valuable and sacred
    Only to have it suddenly
    Be insignificant and worthless
    How could you let us descend
    Into an abyss of the unknown
    To strive and reach for anything
    Yet have nothing to be shown
     
    And if soon you’re to ask
    What I think of you to this day
    I’ll simply reply,
    There’s nothing left to say
    I once believed you shone so bright
    Until I finally held you up to the real light
    You’re transparent,
    Just like the love
    You had for me somehow…
     
    You’re nothing to me now

    ~
    ©porcelainxheart

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    Nothing

    Oh, how you have
    Capsized my
    Memory of you
    Stranded
    By indifference

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  • porcelainxheart 3w

    When all I wanted was something beautiful... #pain #fear #deliberate

    This body is rotten
    Deadly toxins reign
    In my system
    I'm poison, darling
    As black as tar
    Sweet like honey
    I'll stick to you
    With deliberate
    Intent to cause harm
    I'll slither in the gaps
    Seep into your wounds
    Inject you with my sting
    Infect you like a virus
    Make home beneath your skin

    I have a mean streak
    There's evil in my bones
    Want to see you weak
    Consumed by me
    And me alone
    I'll be the hornet in your ear
    A buzz you won't escape
    I'm the name you should fear
    Nestle in your brain
    Show me how you break

    Everything I touch
    I eventually wreck
    Start as your warm cup of tea
    Get you lovesick
    Upon every cold sip
    Until it's too late to know
    All along you were
    Drinking to your death
    ...Painful and slow

    ~
    ©porcelainxheart

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    Arsenic

    Every relationship
    of mine is toxic
    I think it's me
    I'm poison & twist love
    into something dark
    Because I'm not for it
    we've never agreed
    that's my pain to bear
    Everything good
    that comes close
    Dies once they taste
    death on my tongue

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  • porcelainxheart 3w

    #irresistible #lie

    No one has ever
    Been high from honesty before
    Honesty only tastes like shrapnel
    Creates conflict; incites war
    No; it's the sweet
    Decadent nectar
    Of irresistible falsity
    That goes down a treat
    Tell with great ease
    Reality just gets
    Stuck between your teeth
    Clogs the arteries
    Chokes the throat

    But, man; do we love
    To swallow irrevocable
    Fairytales and provocative fables
    When have lies ever failed
    Tailor them as big
    Or, as small as you like
    Paint them black, or white
    String them together
    Along candy necklace
    Hooked on that syrupy aftertaste

    If you're lucky; you'll find
    The perfect fibber
    Model sweet talker
    Spinning silken
    Deception effortlessly
    Convince you of every
    Honey dipped word
    Erase your mind
    Of all the awful truths you heard
    Sugarcoated from the hurt

    A love so beautiful
    A life so attainable
    Rotting from inside
    As long as it appears
    Charming to the public eye
    What's the harm
    Being high off sherbet lies

    ~
    ©porcelainxheart

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    Sugar Rush

    If something seems
    too good to be true
    it likely is
    In time you'll
    come to realize
    Everything you
    ever knew
    Is all an irresistible lie

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  • porcelainxheart 4w

    A long journey.. #image #luck @mirakee

    When I was 8,
    I wanted to be a gymnast
    Joining the gymnastic team
    Since the age of two
    Until I carelessly broke my collarbone
    And it became a long lost dream
    Taking years to heal anew

    When I was 12,
    I wanted to be an animal activist
    I paired together with a friend
    We paved the whole street
    With homemade flyers and posters
    While mum spun down a dark path
    And I learnt cruelty had no end

    When I was 14,
    I wanted to be a dancer
    Attended classes every week
    Nailed the choreography and steps
    I finally thought I had something
    Until performing in the spotlight
    Quickly realizing
    I was a nervous wreck
    With horrific stage fright

    When I was 15,
    I wanted to be a surfer
    Take after my father
    Roll in the barrels
    Ride the waves
    Until I set out on a overcast day
    And I caught a dumper
    Diving head first into the sand
    Surfacing with injury and trauma
    Never to be the same again

    When I was 17,
    I wanted to be an artist
    Delve into my dark extremities
    Express myself outwardly
    Until I found art was freedom
    With deadlines I couldn't make
    And guidelines I couldn't ace

    When I was 18,
    I wanted to be a writer
    Fell in love with words
    And head over heels for a boy
    Until he chose someone better
    As I spiralled

    At 19,
    I was sure I had seen the worst
    I thought I knew heartbreak
    Until I witnessed a loved one
    Suffering in hospital bed
    And I became well acquainted
    With mistress death

    By 20, I was lost
    Forgot what happiness
    And dreaming was
    Tried for practicalities and work
    After nothing eventuated
    I turned my direction
    To being desired
    Until beauty only attracted
    The worst attention

    The rest is a vague blur
    Wondering where time flew
    When tracks twisted wrong
    The happenings to my youth
    Losing hope long gone
    Forgive me if to this day
    I'm unsure of who I am
    Or, the aspirations I'm aiming for

    I had a collection of passions
    But, life threw too many distractions
    Designing a different plan
    Stopping at dead end train stations
    Destined to, curses, bad luck
    And Murphy's law

    ~
    ©porcelainxheart

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    Superstitions

    Retrace tracks back
    To the beginning again
    Was there ever chance
    Boarding the right train

    ©porcelainxheart