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It's a beautiful thing to be made of porcelain ~ (Inconsistent)

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  • porcelainxheart 11h

    Live it, learn it. My anxious reality ~ #fathom #anxiety #panic (Half temporary post)

    They carelessly tell me,
    "Feel the fear and do it anyway"
    But, can they even fathom
    How unbearable it is?
    Living day to day
    Wide awake in a nightmare
    Drowning on dry land
    Can they possibly imagine
    Gasping each breath
    With a vice grip, clamping
    Crushing your lungs shut
    Gulping stale air
    Like a fish out of water
    Cramming down
    Harmless threats
    Irrational thoughts of panic
    Filling to the brim
    Heartbeat pounding
    Frantic, drastic
    And everyone around you
    Floating,
    Treading rips effortlessly
    Is yelling at you to swim

    ~
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  • porcelainxheart 1d

    I am everything & I'm nothing at all ~ #inkling #captivated #illusion

    Now you see me
    Now you don't
    Say a word
    I live to serve
    Think me a chameleon
    I'll blend, bend
    Shapeshift to any form
    Mould myself like clay
    Here one minute
    Gone today
    Watch me transform

    Like a marvelous magician
    Leaving you captivated, amazed
    Vanishing into thin air
    As quickly as she came
    Like a mystical genie
    I'll reappear in a puff of smoke
    As soon as you command my name
    Tell me who you wish me to be
    I'll happily comply
    Crowd appeaser, people pleaser
    Anything to evoke the peace
    "See you here" "Meet me there"
    Yes, I'll certainly oblige

    Call me a miraculous magic act
    Pull myself from a hat
    Keep you second guessing
    Without a single inkling
    I am nothing but a trick of light
    Fooling your naive eyes

    Illusions are possible
    If you have the power to believe
    And I am one of them

    ~
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    Bedazzle

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  • porcelainxheart 4d

    Wild at heart ~ #wilderness #wild
    Thank you for 600 follows ��

    Why must you insist
    On taming the beast inside
    When there are wild flames
    Dancing behind darker eyes
    A wildfire heart
    Roaring to be freed
    Riverbends birthed
    Rouge in the bloodstream
    Racing pulse pulls
    To run with the wolves
    Overgrown woods scream
    To be unearthed
    Nature sprouting, thriving
    Untouched, submersed
    Why must we protest
    Bounding ourselves in chains
    When the strong call of wilderness
    Howls deep in our veins

    ~
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    Wilderness

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  • porcelainxheart 5d

    Last attempt #valentine #love #murder

    For the longest time
    I was held in a dreamlike state
    Your rapture shook me awake
    Captured erratic storms inside
    Stirred my static soul alive
    And just as suddenly
    Laid me back to rest
    After your cruel departure
    I've never felt
    More dead to the world
    At the hands of your murder

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  • porcelainxheart 1w

    Maybe I'll know myself once more ~ #recognize #home #memory

    This is not my city
    Once so rustic and pretty
    A timely feel
    Unscathed and untouched
    Harbouring such fond memories
    No, this isn't the town I grew
    Everything is now shiny
    Chrome and new
    Too much and yet not enough
    My nostalgia long buried
    In the destruction and demolition
    My childhood lost to the ruins
    Somehow built into
    The modern refurbishment
    Made way for new settlement
    Bigger and better establishment
    I resent what my home has become
    A concrete jungle is no place
    For someone like me to belong
    I yearn to return to the pavements
    Take a stroll down memory lane
    To recognize the old streets
    If only for a day again...

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  • porcelainxheart 1w

    Mind over matter ~ #emotions

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    My catalyst emotions
    Had me convinced
    I missed you
    Until I realized
    All I miss
    Is the serenity I felt
    Before I knew you

    ~
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  • porcelainxheart 1w

    #unravel ~ A plea

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    I'm slipping, unravelling
    And I'm hoping to God
    You can gather me
    Mend the severed bond
    Tether me together
    And make me strong
    Because, I wish
    With all
    My tattered soul
    To be whole again

    ~
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  • porcelainxheart 2w

    The only explanation ~ #void #perhaps

    Perhaps I'm a force too strong
    For anyone to possibly come close
    I may attract, but instead of pulling
    I propel and repel them back
    Because they can't break through
    My powerful magnetic field
    Anything and everything
    In my path, yields destroyed
    So, I become this sole atom
    Destined to be alone
    Lost to the endless void .

    ~
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    Void

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  • porcelainxheart 4w

    Will I ever know... #confine #fragile #mystery

    I try to find myself in poems
    Both other's and my own
    Is it possible I've wasted time
    Trapped in the confines
    Of my fragile mind
    Has the blind search been in vain
    Each day growing weak
    A dangerous game
    Of hide and seek

    Who will discover
    All I've failed to uncover
    Because I am tired
    Of frantically scouring my words
    Perpetually edging
    Between two worlds
    What I've already typed
    And all I still wish to write
    Someone piece together
    Every trace I've complied
    Before this case turns cold
    Come up with your own answer
    To the mystery I've yet to solve

    ~
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    Cold Case

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  • porcelainxheart 5w

    I don't recognize her anymore ~ #beforehand #ponder #hometown

    I feel terribly homesick
    In my own hometown
    Nostalgic waves of euphoria
    Violently wash over me
    Flashes of a familiar face
    Revisiting each deserted place
    Leaving me to ponder
    Was any of it ever real?
    Or, simply a wishful mirage
    Of future's past beforehand
    For I find myself wistfully lost
    Among today's utopian wasteland
    Like a forgotten ghost I wander
    Left in this city of ruins
    Beyond ever changing towers 
    Crowds of strangers
    Only pass through me now 
    I'm just fading into the background

    ~
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    Phantasm

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