Those blinking stars Inside my heart, Put out with a flame, That can burn all my distance With souls made of gold Teaching me to survive And to deny, Those garlands of shame That you wrap around My naked tears of defame.
I hide behind your wind-shield Hoping that invisibility Is what scares you, Forgetting at times, Just like a fool, That you can turn water into wine. I feel lonely like never, Shivering like a flame, Hoping to be embraced When I feel lost again.
I hang down my head Waiting for someone To sever my arms; And hopelessly scream Into the sun, To salvage my blood As they spill into my dream. These colorless lights Parade right into My inner battlefield, Making the darkest corners glow When all I wanted Was for my lightest fears to show.
The stars lie bedimmed, In the sky so full of them. Painted with arms The white remnants ply the floors With a cursed memory Of warmth. The radio playing ten years back "When we were young.." Our hearts blinking in joy, And we lie face to face On a couch we never knew. The smoke, the noise And the mimicking friend, I wish that was something In life, that I could at least lend.
It's been a long time Since I smiled like that, Scampering around the roof, Hoping to fall off the edge. The world was my world And yet I tread some feet Some yards that felt like courts With a pond full of dreams.
But today, here I stand With red and blue painted on my head, And everytime I look up, All I see is your burnt face. Everything might not have changed And that is why We still stand But I miss those pull on my hair And a tug on my dress When you ran past Like a warm breath of air.
" Maybe that was something I never wanted to share."