I was happy counting days for my torment to be over,
Then when I was closer to it I realised maybe it wasn't that bad afterall,
I gained so much yet didn't feel like having it,
I was happy to leave yet not happy at all,
The whirlwind of emotions surrounding me so strong that I feel weak,
I feel like my body and mind is going through a different kind of pressure and pain,
A pain that is now beginning to make it's own space and slowly leaving me NUMB!