The pattern

Closeness intimacy avoidance fight reconciliation repeat
Closeness intimacy avoidance fight reconciliation repeat
Closeness intimacy avoidance fight reconciliation repeat

I don't remember how many times i have gone through this
Each time it happens, I know it as if I am predicting my own future
I am a women who hates uncertainty, and fears Vulnerability
Maybe that's why I am willing to go on in this cycle till eternity
It's the humourous predictibility

While the pattern has grown to be a tree now from a seed
The roots numbing my sorrow
And my anxiety,insecurity is its feed

I am more aware about it now
Can differentiate between his mistakes and mine
Looking my anxieties more objectively from far
Self soothing and self respect is my new mantra
I am finally making my goal to come out of this pattern
To save my self from any further misery
And I will do so with
Patience
Self compassion
And standing up for myself.

I will let my emotions express in words without letting it affect me