• for_starters 4w

    The pattern

    Closeness intimacy avoidance fight reconciliation repeat
    Closeness intimacy avoidance fight reconciliation repeat
    Closeness intimacy avoidance fight reconciliation repeat

    I don't remember how many times i have gone through this
    Each time it happens, I know it as if I am predicting my own future
    I am a women who hates uncertainty, and fears Vulnerability
    Maybe that's why I am willing to go on in this cycle till eternity
    It's the humourous predictibility

    While the pattern has grown to be a tree now from a seed
    The roots numbing my sorrow
    And my anxiety,insecurity is its feed

    I am more aware about it now
    Can differentiate between his mistakes and mine
    Looking my anxieties more objectively from far
    Self soothing and self respect is my new mantra
    I am finally making my goal to come out of this pattern
    To save my self from any further misery
    And I will do so with
    Patience
    Self compassion
    And standing up for myself.

    I will let my emotions express in words without letting it affect me