You have to love, bring enough courage and fight your hurdle out of your life. You have to be like a river, finding way out of every obstacles by yourself, but silently. You have to keep trying and trying, only then u can ask yourself "am I worth it, did I put enough work in? ". There will be no homecoming for u, u are going to voyage for ever from now. You must stop hating peoples, stop being angry with them who didn't look upon u as human being or who made u their second choice. Some day u have to disprove them, but not by hate.