do not disturb by n.love

laughing at your tenacity of falling in love
so easily to the wilderness
where’s your home
where do you hide at night?
in his bedroom?
in your insecurities?
all buried underneath the surface
layers shifting back and forth from vulnerable to closed off again
your eyes keep meeting his
you keep being drawn to repeated bad habits
you’re laying beside your own deceit
mind telling you “maybe it’ll be different”
body telling you “give yourself away”
soul telling you “don’t run back to what you were just saved from ”
you meet his eyes again
this time you see a spark and it runs off in your mind
soul says “don’t get too close or attached to things you don’t own”
but they own you
soon you became a slave to your imagination
playing devils advocate back and forth
waging war against the truth
the surface seems clear and beautiful
but beneath there’s nothing but chaotic passion
you wanna dig deeper
but deeper is where God warns you not to go
“dive deeper into My Word daughter” He warns earnestly
never forces but reinforces the truth
His truth
but then your eyes catch his again
but this time he doesn’t catch yours
this time he is closed off
so you dance around the idea that maybe those short conversations were an illusion
now confusion becomes the new conclusion
“protect your faith” God says
but you keep trying to replace God with a version that will only lead to persecution of self
“I love you daughter” God whispers while you pray to Him
this you know
but do you really ?
because man would not be your home
don’t you know that they are a hotel
a temporary stay that you will soon have to leave
and as you leave and pack your luggage
don’t forget the torment you felt on your way out
this is what will remind you to never return again