• teandria86 20w

    They don’t know

    Imagine myself
    Alone in my head.
    I’m hanging, dangling
    From a thin string.

    Empty, alone
    With the pain within.
    Internally screaming,
    I just want to give in.

    Now imagine that's me
    Every day, every hour.
    Forever diving in
    Like sinking in the ocean.

    I try to tell people ,
    But they say I’m being crazy,
    I just got to move on.

    Because it gets better
    But they don't know
    Nor do they care
    They're just telling me hang on
    They say I’m Just looking
    for attention,

    I know that there's no one
    Who knows how I feel.
    I’m just so alone,
    But the feelings- are real.

    Stressed .

    But mostly

    And my family,
    They go on
    Like nothing has changed.

    "They must not see,"
    My thoughts whisper,
    That lies in my brain.

    I can't escape it,
    Trapped in my own hole.
    I’m ugly,
    I’m hated,
    But I hide it with a grin.

    I hate what I feel,
    So instead I feel nothing.
    Inside I’m numb,
    My confidence crumbling.

    I look to other things
    To stop my pain.
    Cutting, crying talking ,
    But it gives me no gain.

    And the people around me
    Shout crazy my way.
    "You need help, stop it!"
    That's all they ever say.

    No matter how I plead
    That I’m broken inside,
    They turn the other way,
    They run, they hide.

    They say I’m just losing it,
    It's all in my head.
    What they don't know is inside
    I’m already dead.