You're angry and hurt so you lash out at the world. Thats what can happen to abandoned boys and girls. Daughters without fathers and mothers who left their sons... The parents who for one reason or none left their little ones.
But abandonment has a cousin, namely neglect, who does just as much damage but you may not have seen it yet. Damage means trauma in this particular case and it can be hidden beneath the surface or right up in your face. Nurture vs nature its the age old debate.
Separation of self and state and you're doing nothing but stalling. Can you manage to shake the past when the future comes calling?