Did it ever hurt so much?
Feeling their touch. Smelling their skin. Remembering the sting your soul felt when they couldn't love you back.
Thinking to yourself what more could you have done. Obsessing over imaginary scenarios. Conjuring up those toxic 1 AM thoughts.
Crying in the tub. Crawling into bed. Aching for the closeness that you'll never feel again. Not like theirs. Nothing could feel as sweet as them.
Did it hurt? Did it ever hurt so much to feel it all?