You used to tell me all about Greek heroes who defeated monsters and returned home to their loved ones. You spoke of nostos and what it meant to go back to what belongs to you, after a long time. I was hanging on to every word you said, like my life depended on it. I think it did. I think I loved you so much that at some point, I did not know how to go on without you. You became my home. So how do I return to you? How do I become a hero like Odysseus? Will I ever get to feel whole and at peace again?