• __po8tri__ 23w

    Recover

    I wish my heart could,recover. I wish my eyes would,wake,up. I want to be out of this nightmare and,go back to how it was.. at least before it was just fighting but then I had to leave..I became the cheater me. I never thought I'd be one to be my own worst fear but I ruined something good and now I am here. In the place of lost between do I stay or do I leave. I keep thinking of my little girl who looks up at me. She has no idea of my silent hell.. she has no idea at all..I wish every time I hugged her I didn't have to remember the fall...the way I fell for him the way he made me fall apart..the way I fell down the spiral which started me on this chart. Charted course to nowhere, to dreams don't come true..I wish it could have been designed in the stars for love to continue through..all the mess, all the pain, the climax to our days...