• alice_in_w0nderland 10w

    Dear Diary,

    I was happy, at least I think I was. I don't know what to do anymore, I feel numb, not sad or, angry, not even depressed just numb. It like Ive been running on fuel that isn't right for my body, and now it's taking it's toll. I can't cry anymore, and it hurts to even try. I've tried everything but I just can't feel anything, I'm exhausted physically and mentally. I think I'm truly all out of gas and now I've just gone dead. I just want to feel again, even if that feeling is sadness or pain. I miss what it feels like to cry and truly smile and laugh. I miss it all. But I'd be happy with whatever emotion I can get. I'm not asking to be happy, I'm just want to be ok.