14 dec 2020
i know that you don't need me around anymore. if i ever cross paths, you'll walk away. and even the thought of it is so painful i can hardly say. why...? just why is it so hard to explain certain things? some things in love are a mystery. tell me what shall i do with all this tangled up visions that hit me hard every second. this constant state of yearning of the unknown void never seems to end. are you in this void that i yearn for? are you there? just tell me. because i can't differentiate anything anymore. i'm just a breathing body of flesh and bones. my soul is wandering to places that feel so remote now. i've given up on my sanity. and i know you won't come around to help me.