I'm so tired of all the berating.
I'm so tired of all the hating.
It's getting so exhausting,
It's becoming such a loss for me.
I can't feel my heart beating,
I don't feel like I'm alive.
I feel like it's death I'm cheating.
I can feel him by my side.
Will I be able to keep this up?
Or will I fall apart first?
Am I living with luck?
Or drowning from lies in which I'm immersed?
It's getting so hard to live like this,
I once thought there was more to life.
Was there some truth I missed?
Or is life supposed to be an eternal fight?
I need a reason to live,
Cause if this is the point of life I want to die.
I don't want to live for all the fibs,
I don't want to thrive on all the lies.
I need an anchor in my life,
Something steady to grab on.
I don't want it to hide.
I don't want it to do me wrong.
My strength is failing, it's bringing me down.
But when I fall, I'll crash to the ground.
I can't remember the last time I ran,
Now I'm crawling, just trying to be found.