I do love you

The worst thing ever is seeing her
My only and best friend
Slowly replace me for another person she thinks is her friend
But treats her horribly
And does not love her the way she said she does
But of course you are always mine to love but never mine to keep
even though you haven't left yet there is always someone you love more than me
And yes I strive to be all the things that you adore
But sadly I have never met up to your standard
I feel as if I am plagued with all of these flaws haunting me
by the thought that I will never be good enough for you
Never be helpful enough
Never be pretty enough
never be silly enough
Just never be enough
But no matter what she does to hurt you
You will always run back to her when she needs you
To hurt some more of course
You wait at her hand and foot
you treat her like she's a princess when she's done nothing to deserve  that title
And then you come running back to me when she doesn't want  you anymore
But I've always been that 2 option The back-up plan
the make me feel better plan
for you and for a lot of people in my life
I've always been the second choice because I'm caring and kind and I'm good at make you feel loved and cared for
When she's  done hurting you
you come to me and allowing my silky words and love to
heal your wounds that she has caused
Then once you are healed
You ditch me once again
and go sit at her feet
And any Little command she tells you to do
you follow
you allow her to treat you like a servant
and you don't mind because if it makes her happy
that's all you care about
her happiness
not yours
Or mine for that matter
which shatters my heart into so many pieces you can possibly imagine
Because that night what she did to you
it didn't hurt her
I didn't affect her in anyway
she wanted that to happen to you
But yet I was the one helping you
I was the one holding your hair back
so you could puke that whole bottle of pills up
I was the one who had to call your parents so they could rush you to the hospital
I was the one who stayed up all night  alone in my room crying because I didn't know if you were going to make it or not
You turned what I thought was going to be the best day of my life into the worst one
That's just one story of you sending my heart racing
But yet I've never left your side
Know matter how many times you've left mine
I just wish I was worth enough for you to open your eyes
For five seconds to notice
I'm the one who really truly loves you and
wants the best for you
Unlike like her
I spend every waking moment thinking of how I could make you happier           

-I do love
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