Dream that felt real
Wedding flowers fluttered in breeze
Reflecting the beauty of the children running around the mandap with joy
Smiles were exchanged between elders
Weather was happy and easy-going
As though it knew this was meant to be marked on its timeline
Though not a huge crowd invited
It was a happy cosy function
Parents of the bride and groom finally found that relief that they had been looking out for since many years.. That moment of peace and comfort which they wanted to cherish for long
Was right in front of them
The groom looked happy
It was all simple clothing
Yet marked by the badge of the function
It knew its elegance and sparkled away the beauty
Men clothed in golden ranged dhotis and slightly glossy shirts that resonated the celebration
Women in fine silk sarees and little girls in pattu pavadais (matching mini silk tops and skirts) and little boys clad in mini dhotis and shirts
It was simple decor in turquoise and golden colors and pink roses
The bride and groom wanted it that way
The bride wore a red saree marking the custom, not many ornaments but the ones worn spoke grandeur
She realized the moment has finally arrived
Everyone around were happy...
It looked perfect like a scene from a movie, she too was looking for this, but.. (yes this tiny word always brings us to reality, doesn't it?)
But her mind ran blank
She looked at her phone, her mind questioning.. was this right?
It was like efforts were placed to order her favorite customized newly embroidered outfit, but when it finally arrived at home, she just couldn't look at it, her heart was still on the dress that he said.. looked so beautiful.. years ago at a cafe...
(ok, enough of that comparison.. Moving on :) )
It was as though things were happening around her
And she was just sliding through all of it with eyes open but heart closed
She wanted to be happy. But what she did not want to do was.. not having to put in efforts to be happy at her own wedding. She wanted it to be natural.
She had wanted to give him one last chance
She knew she had given many and was disappointed every time, but somehow her love for this human was not seeming anywhere close to tired.. It even surprised her.
And this she understood when she literally shook in the dream when the groom tied the knot but her heart was looking elsewhere
Not understanding why she isn't happy
Why does her heart still wants to give a chance to someone who perhaps doesn't even deserve it, a man who said that he doesn't believe in love.
Why was her heart still hugging onto hope..
And yes she got happily married, with a tear running from one eye, and a dam of the same from the heart..
(Tired reading? .. What a tiresome dream.. :) )
It was a relief when she woke up
As all of the above was just a dream. And when she realized it was a relief, she knew she was indeed in love & it could not get more real than this perhaps, well.. Ironically. :)
And she lived happily ever after.