• soulstories_untold 11w

    Never After !

    With a sigh all i could answer was a no..May be a lie i had told myself a hundreth time over,or the answer to which i still could not figure out.Being telling myself this over and over i seemed to have accepted that i dont love her,but one thing i know for sure she is special to me.
    How watching her laugh and tripping over makes my mind lit in glee.
    Even she is aware,somewhere in the midst of listening to all her silly stories, and all her complains she makes i had fell for her not even realising how badly i fell...
    she tells me how she loves the one whom i cant bear to see broken...
    And in such one of our late night talks she said "sometimes i feel all i need is you"...This scene which i had played in my mind over a thousand times...
    May be one day would happen but so sure like the sunrise tomorrow that never its gonna happen and just like the darkness it just vanishes upon the rays lying in the deepest darkness of the night and my hearts alleys a mere dream it will remain out to be...
    As i knew this is something thats not meant to be.. with a heavy heart i said that "we never had that spark between us ?"
    what ??? she said.
    And then it dawned upon me this was not real and something i had wished to hear....
    I shooed away my thoughts ,which was like having someone you lost brought back to life and then the reality dawns they are no more.
    With a sheepish smile and that grin i said i, just messed up with what you said...
    But how long this is gonna go i dont know.For i know i love her to unfathomable measure ...To depths she has sunk inside me...But i know its never meant to be and some point soon i have to pull myself out of this..Some point soon i wish not too late....
    ©soulstories_untold