You'll Get Through This
You'll get through this.
This unbearable loneliness
This life ending mistake
This dread you carry with you
Its sharp edges stuck in the meat of you
You can't let go.
Bu you'll get through this.
You'll wake up to that grey light
Barely pouring in past the blinds
Picking up your phone to see no notifications
Because your life is just as pale and translucent to everyone else
As it is to you
Or so it seems.
But still, you'll get through this.
The days will bleed into each other
Monotonous activities that have no goals and lead to nothing spectacular
Days stacking up like fallen dominos
Where your biggest accomplishment of the day
Was basic life skills
Eating. Showering. Brushing your teeth.
Accomplishments for those barely flickering flames
But somehow, we get through this.
Our lives, filled with the same amount of purpose as a sand crab
Somehow flickers brighter suddenly
You binge a great TV show
And find that vanilla ice cream finally tastes good again
The gut punches of your bad luck that seems to roll out on a conveyor belt
Stop leaving bruises because this bad luck feels like it is your life.
Its consumed some part of you.
An island sinking in the ocean.
And still, we get through this.
I could die tonight with no curiosity of what the future holds
A sentence that's ran around my mind for days
A hellhole carousel.
And I'll wake up tomorrow to that grey light
Barely pouring in from the blinds
And I'll eat. Shower. Brush my teeth. Laundry.
I'll watch more of that show
And realize vanilla ice cream still tastes good
And yes I'll still feel as though I could die with not a shred of curiosity to what the future holds.
But here I am.
And I'm getting through this.